I’m back at home now. I’m pretty hungry. Gonna eat some cheesecake later on. I’m probably going back to visit school again this Thursday to get the last signature that i need from the principal and also to get a refund for the fees that i paid for this term. I have to say again though, my recent posts have been pretty boring. I really gotta stop dwelling on the ‘past’ and shit and start moving forward but i just can’t seem to let go. Expect me to still keep on writing about ‘my’ school (even though i’m no longer a student there), about Jeanne and about other school related things that ‘other’ readers (those of you who’re overseas) won’t ‘get’. I’ll probably be back in top form soon enough. I’ve also got some stuff to talk about later. So watch out for that.
Actually, you know what? I’ll just talk about it now. I’ve got a bunch of stuff to clear up. Okay, on my last day of school, i sent an e-mail to the whole school telling em i was leaving and shit. I also did a shoutouts thing to everyone i knew. It’s kinda tradition to send out an all school e-mail when you leave in JIS. Anyway, i did lots of shoutouts and said stuff like; John, i know what you did last summer…Shasha, dammit. It sucks to be me…etc etc bla bla. To be slightly funny (as i ever am) i decided to give shoutouts to my 2 (two) ex’s who are still in JIS, ex-girlfriend no. 6 and 7. Anyway, i sent out a shoutout to Mira saying thanks for the 2 months (meaning thanks for the 2 months that i went out with her) and one to Izzati saying thanks for the 9 hours (meaning thanks for the total time that i was with her during the 2 weeks i went out with her…have a look in my archives to read about my ex no. 7)
Apparently, some stupid people who didn’t get the (sarcastic) joke thought that i’d slept with her….the 9 hours geddit? Sheesh. For the record, i’ve never slept with her and i barely even know her enough to even DREAM of sleeping with her. Heaven forbid. 9 hours of actually being together face to face isn’t long enough to warrant a real relationship…much less a real friendship! (Again, see my archives page and look out for a rant about her to understand what i’m talking about)
Anyway, on the subject of relationships and stuff, i’m actually surprised that some people in school actually think of me as being the smooth player type of person. You know…the kinda guy that ‘gets all the girls’ and shit. Hah. I can only WISH that i was like that. But alas..i’m not. Really. Jia Ying thinks of me as the pick up guy cuz i pick up lots of girls successfully….to a certain extent. Another friend, Fina, thinks of me as being a ‘lucky’ guy cos the past 4 (four) girls that i’ve been associated with were all pretty and beautiful etc etc. I beg to differ though. If i’m so ‘lucky’, how come i’m still single now? How come i’m not going out with anyone? Oh and that’s not the only thing. Word around the school is that i’m ‘the most sexually active’ guy in school. HAH. Again, i can only WISH.
Also, while on the subject of Jeanne, i just wanna say that i’m not going out with her. Probably never will. She’s just a friend right now. I know lots of people have seen me walking around school with her and some people even thought we were going out. But we’re not. Sure, yes, i do admit that i like her but not to the point that i’m obsessing everyday about wanting to go out with her. (That would’ve been like John during his Harriet obsessing period) It would be nice if Jeanne and i did go out but nah…it’s just not in the cards. She knows this, i know this and we’ve even talked about it. And we even had a good laugh about it. So even if she doesn’t have the same feelings that i have, it doesn’t matter. I can still say that i enjoyed all the time that i’ve been asscoiated with her. In time, this’ll all be just a distant memory. I’ll be starting afresh in University and maybe then i’ll probably start writing about another girl….and maybe the same thing will happen again: Nothing. Just like what’s happening now…nothing between me and Jeanne. But maybe next time it’ll be different…who knows though? I don’t….
It’s funny how the power of suggestion works eh? Especially on this site and the stuff i write about…some people just take em soooo seriously. It’s like…”If it’s on the internet, it must be true”. Sorry people. It doesn’t always work that way. Granted, all the stuff i write about is true…but sometimes, i like to screw you guys over a tiny little bit. Not to say that i make things up…but i sometimes write in a way that makes people think that that there’s more to the story than there really is. And you all just like to add in your own thoughts and make it what you think is the truth.
A good example would be Jeanne. She’s nice and all, it’d also be nice if i ever do go out with her even for just 24 hours but right now we’re just friends and nothing more. But all you people seem to think that we are going out and that i’m obsessed with her and bla bla bla etc etc. Oh and the fact that i mention her name everyday is because it’s sort of kinda like a running joke thing…except that it’s not a joke. It’s just a running thing that i like to do. I can honestly say that i’m NOT obsessed with her.
Anyway, all you regular readers kinda expect me to mention her name everyso often now….so i do. It makes you think “Ahaha..he mentioned her again..he must be really obsessed with her”. If that’s what you think then i guess i’ve done what i set out to do. Manipulate you. (Cue evil laugh) “Muahahhahaha”. But those of you who’re smart and know what i’m trying to do….well….what can i say…you’re smart. Nothing can get past you.
In short, what i’m trying to say is….my writing has many layers to it, Jeanne’s just a friend, i’m no casanova, i’m not lucky, this is a long boring post that no one will give a damn about and finally, i’m not ‘the most sexually active’ guy in school.
That would be ****n.
(Name censored to protect individual)