I was actually gonna post this up this past Monday and i had it all written up on BBEdit until the fucking app decided to quit itself and return to it’s default demo state. And i had to fucking re-register the fucking serial number* over again. It’s fucking gay. It does that every like coupla days or so. It never used to happen with the old 6.X version. BBEdit 7.1 BLOWS.

Anyhow, i’m gonna do my best to rewrite the whole post word by word without any changes. Well. Maybe just a few. Oh. It’s going to be boring so skip it if you hate my blog posts.

So i had a fairly enjoyable day yesterday (Sunday). Spent pretty much the whole day with a bunch of my old highschool buddies, Tim, Maslina and Nikki, the same 3 girls i went out with about a month and a half ago (which i posted about here). Oh, except Joel was with us this time. So it was the 5 of us all cramped into one car, driving halfway around Brunei visiting other old highschool friends’ houses. I think we hit up about 6 or 7 houses that day. Fun times.

Nikki looked especially good that day. I mean really good. And i’m not just saying that because she was my first girlfriend ever or because i know she stalks my site silently from time to time (LURKER) but it’s a fact, she looked damn good that day. I’ve come to the realization that i really admire her as a person. She’s smart, funny and fucking weird/goofy/kooky as hell. She’s what i would call a really great catch. Which is a pretty funny thing for me to actually say, “a really great catch”, because back when i was still at JIS, i had a girl friend of mine, Michelle, calling me a ‘fisherman’ and that i liked to catch ‘big fish’ (whatever the hell that meant).

(okay actually i do know what that meant. but really, it wasn’t my fault i was going out with a girl that had breasts the size of australia at the time)

Anyhow, there were times when i was just sitting there in the car with the four of them just listening to them goofing around and i just couldn’t help but think, “damn, whoever ends up with Nikki one day is gonna be a very lucky guy” (as cliche as that is. but it’s true). It actually makes me proud of the fact that she was my first girlfriend ever. Even though it was just an admittedly silly fifth/sixth grade ‘relationship’ (loosely put). Although i can’t really say if the feeling is mutual on her part. I hardly think the dubious ‘distinction’ of having someone like me as her first ever boyfriend is something she would be proud of. Haha. Especially since i was such a fucking UBER nerd back then (and i probably still am today). Sillyness notwithstanding, and for what it’s worth, i really am proud to be able to say that she was my first ever girlfriend.

What’s really stupid though is the fact that after we broke up, i didn’t speak to her for like 5 years. Not a single word. It was only after 5 years when i was walking around with Tim and Maslina and we bumped into her during this thing that was going on at school and we stopped to have a chat with her (i just stood silently off to the side of course) when she said to me “Do you want something to drink?” (she was holding a tray of free drinks at the time) and i said “Yeah”.

And that was it. The only thing i ever said to her after 5 years. Nothing else. Just one word. lol. And it was only after another 3 more years before i would ever speak to her again. This was when they (Nikki, Tim and Maslina) came over to visit me at my place just before i was about to leave for Michigan back in December 2001. But that time, i actually did talk to her (more than just one word this time. shocking. i know) and i remember feeling REALLY awkward about it. Hahaha. It wasn’t really much (just about school stuff) but hey, at least we were talking. And that was 2 years ago. It really hasn’t been until about a month and a half ago when we actually started TALKING talking (it was the night after that last outing we all had, on MSN). I actually kinda regret the fact that i’ve been missing out on fucking 10 years of friendship with her just because i have this thing about not EVER trying to stay in touch with any of my ex’s after breaking up with them. I guess she’s the first exception. We still talk every now and then and it’s always been a pleasure whenever we do. Even though it’s mostly just on MSN. She’s a really great girl and it’s hard to find someone who’s and equally SIB* * like her here in Brunei.

I spent most of the day sitting in the back seat of the car right behind her and staring at the back of her head. I don’t know what but i had this really incredible urge to give her a noogie. But i didn’t.

I’m so fucking weird like that.

Plus she probably would’ve kicked my ass if i’d done that.

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* perhaps it’s because i’m using an illegaly obtained serial number? hehehe

* * SUPERIOR INTELLIGENT BEING (which is what she thinks we are apparently)