Who the hell is this?

Some of you may remember me, some of you don’t have a clue. Doesn’t really matter….maybe you will find this rant interesting if you don’t know me….if you do then it will explain why I disappeared.

Not really even sure where to begin….or end for that matter. I am/was married. But apparently around the age of 25 women go through some hormonal bi-polar mind fuck in which they decide that life isn’t quite so grand and they would rather obliterate everything they know. You see, I had one of those relationships that you see in the movies. You know where the guy and girl fall in love at the end and the movie is over. Happily ever after and all of that bullshit. You ever wonder what ever after really turns into after a few years of the same old crap? Well I never let it become the same old crap. We had one of those sickening worship the ground each other walks on type deals. You know, to where you actually have married friends that can’t hang around you because you make them realize they do not love their husbands/wives the way they should? This kind of crap most people in relationships strive for.

And then one day you let your wife get into modeling. Not that modeling was the cause, but I don’t think the sudden attention and ego boost helped any. Couple of photos get taken that you aren’t exactly happy with….but you can’t keep your big mouth shut about it can you. The two of you talk and things are cool again, or so you think. You wake up one morning to her telling you how much she loves you and giving you a kiss goodbye. That night at dinner with friends she says, “I just wonder sometimes if we are just comfortable and that is the only reason we are together.” Ever been hit in the chest by a sledge hammer? Feels about the same. You get kicked out. No idea what you did or where you went wrong. She starts drumming shit up….things that might have been small issues, but nothing a girl, let alone your wife, would ever leave you over. Not to mention every little thing from your past gets brought out. I’m sure you all know what I am talking about there.

So you spend weeks, even months fighting for her back. Going to counseling, reading books on relationships, doing every think you can possibly think of. Until you stumble across……recycle bin. “Now why would she delete a Log folder?”, you wonder.

“I talked to Jeff last night.”
“Wow, that was fast!”
“Yeah, so he is staying at Travis’ house now. Guess I am going to be alone tomorrow. Completely alone.”
“Guess I am not playing ball tomorrow :D”

Have you ever been so mad you burst blood vessels in your eyes? I have. I could continue on about the weeks after where she swore she would never see or talk to him again, about how she yo-yoed me back and forth, about how I “stumbled” across her cell phone text messages to him of “I love you too” and “You are also the love of my life…It’s so scary isn’t it?”, but I will save you the gruesome details. Suffice it to say….I pretty much hate women now. Ok, not entirely true…..but the path of broken hearts and girls that get screwed over in my wake I feel cannot blame me….blame her. Funny how you can go from loving someone so completely you would lay your life down for them without even a second thought, to hating someone so much the very sight of them would make you wretch. Seven fucking years wasted. Oh well….have to go now. Eighteen year old I am banging down to a nub just showed up. And girls wonder why guys are assholes….why they always get fucked over. Cause some bitch somewhere made us like this. Thanks for letting me vent 😀

31 thoughts on “Who the hell is this?

  1. Holy shit…I guess I’m commenting again.

    Holy shit…

    #1 | Comment by Bubba — December 1, 2003 @ 1:38 pm

  2. Damn dude, that sucks. That’s also why I’ll never get married without having her sign a prenup and you’d better believe there will be an infidelity clause in there. Another thing is that I won’t even consider taking that plunge until after 30 so when can be out of her wiggy phase. All girls go through that phase man, yet we are the assholes. But I do have a question of you…why only one 18yr old? I’m sure there are some gentlemen’s clubs in your area filled with hot girls just waiting to smother you with fake boobs and sympathy.

    #2 | Comment by bligityblah — December 1, 2003 @ 1:49 pm

  3. first dikkok now jamlink! weee! i guess that’s pretty much all of the regular fubarbs back together again. unless i’m forgetting a few people.

    first of all, i am thorougly convinced that girls are the devil now. i can totally relate with what you went through. might’ve not been the same situation but but dammit, cheating is cheating. and it really really blows ass. and that’s just me understating it. there probably isnt a word in the english dictionary that can describe how one feels after being gutted like that by way of infidelity. it’s probably the worst feeling in the world. next to getting kicked in the balls. feel free to vent whenever you like.

    btw, killed any deer lately?

    good to hear from you again. hopefully you’ll drop by and post every now and then.

    nub. hehe.

    #3 | Comment by Justin — December 1, 2003 @ 1:53 pm

  4. Yeah, that sucks shit. My ex-bitch crashed my party 3 months after we were broke up, called up some dipshit guy she knows, fucked him on my couch and left her schizzed up size 2 sheer black thong behind as a trophy. FUCKING WHORES!!! Claimed she couldn’t find them. LOL It wasn’t a perfect relationship by any means, but she was smoking hot, and I’m thinking any day now my balls will return home to my scrotum after that kick she dealt me. I feel your pain.

    #4 | Comment by spliff — December 1, 2003 @ 2:54 pm

  5. I have experience in this field. It really sucks, that’s about all you can say. Your heart gets ripped out and you’ll never be the same again. You’re bruised, dude, but don’t let her break you. Infidelity is one of the hardest things to go through when you think you’ve got the best thing going.

    Best of luck….

    #5 | Comment by error404 — December 1, 2003 @ 2:56 pm

  6. Hoooooly crap. Women.

    #6 | Comment by whoa — December 1, 2003 @ 3:20 pm

  7. Hasn’t happen to me – yet. But literally two of my good friends’ wife said one morning – "Hey, not sure I want to be married anymore…"

    3 months of counseling, books, etc. followed just so she could go back to, "…I don’t think this is working for me.".

    Now, you could easily dismiss this as, hey the fucker must have done something, but let me tell you that’s not the case. These guys are about as good as it gets. Just fucked up chicks…

    #7 | Comment by sexcrazedweasel — December 1, 2003 @ 3:29 pm

  8. Whatever you do, DO NOT LET HER COME BACK! No matter what she says to do it – apologizing, begging, saying she’s learned that she was wrong, etc. She is lost to you, m’man. The only lesson she learned is that she lost the best thing she had.

    #8 | Comment by error404 — December 1, 2003 @ 4:01 pm

  9. hey it’s about time you post again..
    I was reading those way back before I started leaving comments..

    #9 | Comment by radish01001 — December 1, 2003 @ 4:12 pm

  10. Wow. I could’ve wrote that because the same thing happened to me last year. If we were women we could start some kind of support group. I was I had some advice for you, but I can’t think of anything other than what you’ve tried already.

    #10 | Comment by Messenjah — December 1, 2003 @ 5:47 pm

  11. I thought of something. Spend lots of money that you don’t have that you would’ve spent on her and the 18 year-old is a good start. Oh, and video games…lots of video games.

    #11 | Comment by Messenjah — December 1, 2003 @ 5:49 pm

  12. wooow jamlink is also back!

    well as I read the story I just had to think of a few posts justin made on similar subjects only he wasn’t married (yet) so Justin I guess you have a soulmate!

    #12 | Comment by WP — December 1, 2003 @ 5:58 pm

  13. i’ve been dealt a blow before, too. it hurt for a long time; people will give you tons of advice but in the end it takes time…keep your mind on other things, although everything will remind you of her. don’t call her, although i always did. but someday you will realize that its been a long time since you’ve thought about it and that is a great feeling (and then she’ll wanna come back – don’t let her)

    #13 | Comment by metternich — December 1, 2003 @ 10:02 pm

  14. That really sucks, sorry to hear it. Wouldn’t it be great if this was the 1600’s and you could have her put to death for it? And women say us men are the cheaters and f*cked up ones.

    #14 | Comment by Azrael — December 1, 2003 @ 10:44 pm

  15. Damn man. What a bitch.

    #15 | Comment by grud — December 1, 2003 @ 11:50 pm

  16. I vaguely remember a deerslayer by the name of Jamlink…but back then he was a happily married man.


    Glad to see you back, man. Sorry to hear about the problems.

    #16 | Comment by smash — December 2, 2003 @ 2:06 am

  17. I feel your pain, but, having been married and divorced myself at an age not too far from yours, I think you are fooling yourself mate.

    Women don’t stray on a whim and a fancy……I think you just had no clue of the shit you were feeding her.

    Of course yours may very well be the exception, in that case, good on ya for not being violent.

    #17 | Comment by Discommode00 — December 2, 2003 @ 2:06 am

  18. OH MY GOD!!@!@!….FREAKING OUT!@!@!@!….GIRLFRIEND IS 25!@!@!@!@!….
    *sigh*…..my days are numbered

    #18 | Comment by EverSnow — December 2, 2003 @ 2:09 am

  19. Of course women go through a wiggy-phase. Uh huh. So I guess men do that too when they get violent and beat their wives. Or molest their daughters. Or cheat like rabit dogs. If women have a wiggy phase, then men never grow out of theirs. I’m sorry your marriage just fell apart Jamlink and I’d love to jump on the women-suck wagon, but sadly a relationship takes two and each takes 50% of the responsibility. At least she left you instead of lying for years about cheating on you like my mom did to my dad.

    #19 | Comment by eve — December 2, 2003 @ 2:17 am

  20. Wow, that last line is hilarious;) Banging down to a nub…I’ll have to remember that.

    #20 | Comment by stussy — December 2, 2003 @ 2:23 am

  21. Eve usually I love reading your comments but on this one I’m going to have to disappoint you again. I recently read a stat in a men’s magazine that’s staggering, 90% of divorces are initiated by women and 70% of those women are between the ages of 30-35. Women do generally go a little crazy after a few years of marriage, especially once they approach 30. I think it stems from having a repressed youth that in a small way can be blamed on men in general. It’s ok for a man to nail anything that moves but not for a chick. But even that isn’t really an excuse to throw away everything you know and destroy a man that loves you. I thought women were supposed to be the better communicators, if you’re bored or upset then tell us, that hits thing is childish. I, for one, will totally ignore hints on purpose so I can train people to talk to me openly. Also, I’ve never cheated on, molested, or hit any women yet every girlfriend I have ever had at some point treated me like dirt. But thank god for major traumatic events, they tend to change ones attitudes and outlooks on things. Never again.

    #21 | Comment by bligityblah — December 2, 2003 @ 3:25 am

  22. "At least she left you instead of lying for years about cheating on you like my mom did to my dad."

    Someone correct me if I’m wrong. Didn’t Jamlink say that he "caught" her… so it’s not like she wouldn’t have lied about it "for years", hadn’t she been caught first.

    #22 | Comment by sexcrazedweasel — December 2, 2003 @ 4:42 am

  23. bligityblah- trust me, not the only one….just the only one I have broken off so far, just started you see 😀

    Justin- will try to stick around more often now…need somewhere to vent anyway right?

    everyone- thanks for the support and similar situations. Seems like the year for women to be fucked in the head. Guess they have more options these days.

    eve- you used to know me to some degree. Let me clear one thing up….I have never abused (physically or emotionally), never disabused (ignored or pretended), never been an alcoholic or substance abuser, never gone to strip clubs (without her that is), and in no way was a demented human being (molestation, pedaphilia…until recently with the 18 year old…., necrophilia, or any of the other aphilia’s). You think I am joking when I say I treated her like an angel….you have no idea. One day maybe you will.

    I will say that I did get some immense amusement tonight from going out to dinner with her while some hot little 21 year old Christina Ricci lookalike girl I am talking to was sitting at the table next to us. Very funny. And she is getting kicked out of her parents house. Very funny. Oh, and his (her new boyfriend that she left me for) house burned to the ground. Very funny. Karma is a bitch isn’t it.

    #23 | Comment by Jamlink — December 2, 2003 @ 2:02 pm

  24. Jamlink, about the physical abuse and alcoholism I was refering to what the general cliches for men are, I wasn’t refering to you – I was reacting on your general "all women suck" remarks. I don’t doubt that you treated her like an angel. Hey, divorce sucks, Jamlink. I’m just relieved in your case that you found out about her cheating rather than having to live with it for years. I’m sorry if my comment above wasn’t expressed the right way.

    bligityblah – that may be true, but you should never trust statistics in magazines. Generally only a small percentage (say, 4000) of people will be questioned about how their marriages ended. And the person who files for divorce isn’t necessarily the person who wanted the divorce.

    #24 | Comment by eve — December 2, 2003 @ 9:05 pm

  25. i’m sorry. i’ve experienced that rage and pain…caused by men. but you can’t blame all women for the assholes out there. otherwise it would be just as justified to say that every stone cold bitch out there was created by an asshole guy. and you CANNOT blame the women you will hurt on the ones that came before. pain is no excuse for cruelty to others. hurting innocent people to make yourself feel better will make you a worse person than the woman who crushed your heart. you should know this. only you have responsibility for your actions because they come from your personal choices. no one can mane you do anything.

    you have my compassion. and as trite as it may sound now, "love is as perennial as the grass." maybe not right away, but eventually. whether or not you choose to let yourself feel love again is, as before, your personal choice.

    #25 | Comment by INFP — December 2, 2003 @ 11:14 pm

  26. Eve- on the same page now thank you.

    As for the women that may or not be hurt…as you said that is their choice. If nothing else, I am honest. They are all fully aware of my situation or will be made aware and that I have no intentions for any kind of relationship. If knowing this they still choose to be a spoda reservoir, their choice. If they fall for me…they know full well what will come of it…more spoda and no feelings. Maybe one day I will choose to love again, for now all I see is walking vaginas.

    #26 | Comment by Jamlink — December 3, 2003 @ 1:04 am

  27. "Maybe one day I will choose to love again, for now all I see is walking vaginas."

    Nyahaha. My cousin Johnny did the same thing…it works. After a while, he found a girl and got into a relationship again. Wish you the best mate.

    #27 | Comment by Bubba — December 3, 2003 @ 7:25 am

  28. Holy shit, bubba posted in here….post whore.

    #28 | Comment by bligityblah — December 3, 2003 @ 7:42 am

  29. Boy I wish I was that 18 year old girl, with all that frustration you have inside I bet you would be a good time!

    #29 | Comment by girl — December 4, 2003 @ 10:38 am

  30. I mean, I’m really sorry about your relationship troubles.
    …I know what I am supposed to say… but sometimes I like saying what I really feel…see above.

    #30 | Comment by girl — December 4, 2003 @ 1:14 pm

  31. Man this fucking sucks!!!
    this happenned to me one time, only she cheated on me with guess who…?
    my fucking best friend i hope they catch an STD that rotts their genitalia and still live 30 years before it completely kills them…

    well it was 2 years ago so fuck it i dont care anymore, this post just reminded me of that.

    #31 | Comment by Charlioso — October 22, 2006 @ 8:55 am

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