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Monday, July 31, 2000

ICQ with Shasha/Evil rant - 11:10pm@ July 31 2000
Normally i wouldn't do this being the 'nice' guy that i am but i feel i need to defend myself. Read this and tell me if my response is justifiable:

Shasha: justin! i hate izzati! i hate tazio!
Me: how come?
Shasha: you know after she confronted you or whatever? they started talking about you and stuff.... ugh.... do you know tazio.. like personally?
Me: nope...dunno tazio what happened?
Shasha: nothing! he started calling you lame, pathetic and sad... and i was like... how the hell can he say this when he doens't even know you?! and i was really really angry!
Me: kick his faggot ass. what did you say? what did 9 hour girl say?
Shasha: nothing! whne she came back in, everyone was applauding, and i was just too pissed to say anyhting
Me: what did she say?
Shasha: i don't know. but she wa slike.... i gave him a piece of my mind blablablalala
Me: hah...all she did was mock strangle me and asked what i meant by the 9 hours...thats all. no pieces of mind anywhere
Shasha: ugh. yeah.. well i sort of avoided her the whole lesson after that.
Me: kick her ass....what a crock of shit. Piece of her mind my ass.
Shasha: rant time!
Me: i will...after this I'll give her a piece of my mind...biatch muahahha

For the record, i've explained below about the 9 hour thing earlier and i did it because i was being 'nice' and in doing so, clearing her name. But noooooo...little miss BITCH and fuck face faggot Tazio mutherfucking Lai decides to bad mouth me. Okay, here's the scene...i'm enter room S25 to see Mr. Pasztor to get him to sign my leaver's cert. In the room was Shasha and also Izzati and the rest of their class. I get the signature and leave. I walked away from the class and i see Izzati come out of the class behind me. She calls me over and says "I wanna talk to you". She comes up to me and kinda playfully mock strangles me and asks: "What did you mean about the 9 hour thing? People have been asking me about it! They think i slept with you..!" I just laughed and explained it to her a bit. Then she asks when i'm leaving and then she pinches my arm lightly and says good luck or something like that. And well, you know what happens after that.

Okay, on with the ranting: Hey you fuck face Tazio, i don't even know you and i've never shown any malice towards your faggoty ass and you have the fucking audacity to bad mouth me? Lame, pathetic and sad eh? Haha...have you ever looked in the mirror recently? I don't think you're the most popular guy in school dude. I know i'm not. But you sure act as if you are you ass boy. You don't know me and you seem to think it's okay to bad mouth me so i guess it's okay that i bad mouth you too even though i don't know you. You're fucking lucky that i'm not in school anymore you little shit. You think you know me? You can't even IMAGINE what i'm capable of doing you fuck face. Think what i'm saying here is a bit too extreme? Am i being a little immature blasting you on my site with oh so mean cuss words? Well, fuck you cuz i don't give a fuuuuuuck. The next time i see you...i want you to know that i'm quietly judging you. So what are you gonna do? Run to mommy? Who started this first? Motherfucker.

And as for you Izzati, i've been very very nice to you. Even after we broke up, i never said anything bad about you at all. But you...you little bitch....you just went on and on about how i was the bad guy. You even thought i loved you? Tell me this people...how the HELL can someone fall in love with someone else in the span of 9 fucking hours total of being together? I don't believe in love at first sight. You obviously do if you thought that i was in love with you. What was it that made you think that i loved you? The fact that i once signed off my ICQ messages saying "Luv u, luv u, luv u" ?? Come on.... Jeanne signs off her e-mails saying "Luv Jay" and i don't think she's in love with me. Also the fact that you actually believed what Ben told you about me even proves your naiveness. I mean..who can truly trust Ben?? Shit girl. You suck. So you gave me 'a piece of your mind' eh? You call that a piece of your mind? Well, i'm fucking giving you my whole BRAIN now.

You know what still gets me? The fact that before we broke up, you had a fucking ROUND TABLE discussion with MY FRIENDS and NOT ME on whether or not we should break up. This after the countless times i've told you that if you ever had ANYTHING you wanted to say, just tell me. You said you couldn't trust me? And you trust Ben more than me? HAH. All i have to say is.... WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU BITCH? You'd rather trust a druggie than me? Shit. What's the world coming to? I admit, Ben is a friend of mine...even though he treats me like shit i still tolerate him. But you trust him more than me? Shit girl. You ARE deluded. Also, your fucking hypocrisy disgusts me. I remember vividly about how you said that you hated all the rich Malays and that you'd never hang out with any of them. The same goes for the group of girls who hang out at T block in school. I remember how you said you'd never hang out with them and about how you liked to be alone. HAH. And now what do i see? You hanging out with the T block girls that you 'hated'. Please...You know...i did some research on you after we broke up from your own cousin and your ex-classmates from your old school. You know what they had to say? I quote: "She used to be nice.....now she's a complete psychopath". This coming from your OWN COUSIN.

I've had enough of being nice to you. You suck you little bitch. I know that i myself am not perfect and if you're thinking of using any of the bullshit that i've done in the past...well, you don't know me and you can't really use what you don't really know about me against me. If i had to say at the top of my head right now, only Oliver truly knows a lot about me....and even then...he doesn't even know at least HALF of who i am and what i've done. And you think you know me from the 9 fucking hours and stories of me from jilted ex girlfriends and druggies? HAH! If i sound hypocritical here.....well hey, look at yourself. Unless you're just too fucking blind to see past the fucking 'mask' you put on in school. Hypocritical little bitch. I have no qualms on ripping on people on this site. If you think this is the worst i can do...well...you're sadly mistaken. And know this...the next time i see you...even though it may not seem like it...i WILL be quietly judging you too. That goes for the both of you. Fucking 'complete psychopath'.

ICQ with Jia Ying - 9:28pm@ July 31 2000
JY: poo boy... i saw that funny forum post .. cool.. so have you?
Me: haha..i wish =)
JY: heehee.. im trying to eat a french fry wit no hands
Me: i'm trying to type with no fingers
JY: hehe sille poo. i have a feeling ppl are talkign abotu em.. its scaryy..
Me: about who?
JY: me
Me: what about?
JY: about stuff that isnt supposed to be tlaked abouit don ask so many q's poo.
Me: poo. have you ever pooed out liquid poo?
JY: no.. isnt that sick..
Me: yeah...i know...hehe
JY: ahh,....i am gonna be sick if you keep up wiht all this stuffz
Me: hey jia ying, what do you think of lesbians?
JY: i think they're just normal.. dun think about that kinda stuff but gay guys RULE! they are the BEST guy frensss!
Me: i wish i was gay...haha. i bet you're gonna take me seriously aren't you?
JY: no.. but whywould you wish that? then you.. actually, it wouldnt matter hey.. i dunno.. i dun care if youre gay or not
Me: dammit....i was hoping you'd be grossed out so i can post this conversation on my site
JY: okay okay, ill be grossed out.
Me: woo hoo anyway, hey jia ying....what do you think of liquid poo?
JY: i think iot's completely sick. i mena, who the hell would think of LIQUID POO????? hey, thats kidna like that scene where jim carrey poops on his neighbours lawn. that was funny..
Me: that wasn't liquid poo you poo. i want liquid poo
JY: FUCK WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY ABOUT LIQUID POO!??!?
Me: say you like it
JY: dammit, i dun wanna b known as the gurl who thinks liquid poo is cool?!?!?
Me: say it...... i'll make you famous
JY: you are disgusting.. okay fine. ill only do this becaus eyour never coming back. oh god whyy?!?!? why?!@?!?!?
JY: I lIKE LIQUID POO- quote me justin
Me: i want you to say "i like liquid poo very much"
JY: okay.. I LOVE LIQUID POO!!!!!!!!
Me: cool...now i gtg..hehe i'll be back later =)
JY: ahh!!?!!? jusitnt?>!??!?!?!
Me: i'll be back in about 10 mins
JY: NO?!!?
Me: i'll be back..! really! 10 mins

Jia Ying likes liquid poo. Quote: "I lIKE LIQUID POO"

Interesting signings - 8:55pm@ July 31 2000
Fullname: Cristy Harrison
Email: hippychic43@hotmail.com
Where are you from?: Australia
Homepage Name: Hippyopia
Homepage URL: http://hippyopia.dynamiczone.com
Comments: hey, i like your website...thanks for signing my guestbook i like reading your news its interesting
i dont really have anything to say but you have guts for putting anything you feel like putting on here and not caring about who reads it or what they think
thats cool

Now that's someone who understands what this site's all about.

Fullname: jeanne
Email:
Where are you from?:
Homepage Name:
Homepage URL:
Comments: i feel strange

I doubt that that's really Jeanne.

Anyway, i bought a playstation game last night: The Legend Of Dragoon. Should be quite a good RPG. I absolutely LURVE RPG's. Probably the best RPG's i've played are Final Fantasy 3 and Chrono Trigger on SNES. Classics man. I would've gotten FF9 too but it was in Japanese so i didn't bother. I also wanted to get X-Men Mutant Academy but i playtested it and it pretty much sucked ass. But then again i only did play it for like...half a minute. Oh well. Looks like i'll be preoccupied with playing TLOD and with updating my site everyday during the whole month of August or so.

Suckered - 8:14pm@ July 31 2000
I'm back at home now. I'm pretty hungry. Gonna eat some cheesecake later on. I'm probably going back to visit school again this Thursday to get the last signature that i need from the principal and also to get a refund for the fees that i paid for this term. I have to say again though, my recent posts have been pretty boring. I really gotta stop dwelling on the 'past' and shit and start moving forward but i just can't seem to let go. Expect me to still keep on writing about 'my' school (even though i'm no longer a student there), about Jeanne and about other school related things that 'other' readers (those of you who're overseas) won't 'get'. I'll probably be back in top form soon enough. I've also got some stuff to talk about later. So watch out for that.

Actually, you know what? I'll just talk about it now. I've got a bunch of stuff to clear up. Okay, on my last day of school, i sent an e-mail to the whole school telling em i was leaving and shit. I also did a shoutouts thing to everyone i knew. It's kinda tradition to send out an all school e-mail when you leave in JIS. Anyway, i did lots of shoutouts and said stuff like; John, i know what you did last summer...Shasha, dammit. It sucks to be me...etc etc bla bla. To be slightly funny (as i ever am) i decided to give shoutouts to my 2 (two) ex's who are still in JIS, ex-girlfriend no. 6 and 7. Anyway, i sent out a shoutout to Mira saying thanks for the 2 months (meaning thanks for the 2 months that i went out with her) and one to Izzati saying thanks for the 9 hours (meaning thanks for the total time that i was with her during the 2 weeks i went out with her...have a look in my archives to read about my ex no. 7)

Apparently, some stupid people who didn't get the (sarcastic) joke thought that i'd slept with her....the 9 hours geddit? Sheesh. For the record, i've never slept with her and i barely even know her enough to even DREAM of sleeping with her. Heaven forbid. 9 hours of actually being together face to face isn't long enough to warrant a real relationship...much less a real friendship! (Again, see my archives page and look out for a rant about her to understand what i'm talking about)

Anyway, on the subject of relationships and stuff, i'm actually surprised that some people in school actually think of me as being the smooth player type of person. You know...the kinda guy that 'gets all the girls' and shit. Hah. I can only WISH that i was like that. But alas..i'm not. Really. Jia Ying thinks of me as the pick up guy cuz i pick up lots of girls successfully....to a certain extent. Another friend, Fina, thinks of me as being a 'lucky' guy cos the past 4 (four) girls that i've been associated with were all pretty and beautiful etc etc. I beg to differ though. If i'm so 'lucky', how come i'm still single now? How come i'm not going out with anyone? Oh and that's not the only thing. Word around the school is that i'm 'the most sexually active' guy in school. HAH. Again, i can only WISH.

Also, while on the subject of Jeanne, i just wanna say that i'm not going out with her. Probably never will. She's just a friend right now. I know lots of people have seen me walking around school with her and some people even thought we were going out. But we're not. Sure, yes, i do admit that i like her but not to the point that i'm obsessing everyday about wanting to go out with her. (That would've been like John during his Harriet obsessing period) It would be nice if Jeanne and i did go out but nah...it's just not in the cards. She knows this, i know this and we've even talked about it. And we even had a good laugh about it. So even if she doesn't have the same feelings that i have, it doesn't matter. I can still say that i enjoyed all the time that i've been asscoiated with her. In time, this'll all be just a distant memory. I'll be starting afresh in University and maybe then i'll probably start writing about another girl....and maybe the same thing will happen again: Nothing. Just like what's happening now...nothing between me and Jeanne. But maybe next time it'll be different...who knows though? I don't....

It's funny how the power of suggestion works eh? Especially on this site and the stuff i write about...some people just take em soooo seriously. It's like..."If it's on the internet, it must be true". Sorry people. It doesn't always work that way. Granted, all the stuff i write about is true...but sometimes, i like to screw you guys over a tiny little bit. Not to say that i make things up...but i sometimes write in a way that makes people think that that there's more to the story than there really is. And you all just like to add in your own thoughts and make it what you think is the truth.

A good example would be Jeanne. She's nice and all, it'd also be nice if i ever do go out with her even for just 24 hours but right now we're just friends and nothing more. But all you people seem to think that we are going out and that i'm obsessed with her and bla bla bla etc etc. Oh and the fact that i mention her name everyday is because it's sort of kinda like a running joke thing...except that it's not a joke. It's just a running thing that i like to do. I can honestly say that i'm NOT obsessed with her.

Anyway, all you regular readers kinda expect me to mention her name everyso often now....so i do. It makes you think "Ahaha..he mentioned her again..he must be really obsessed with her". If that's what you think then i guess i've done what i set out to do. Manipulate you. (Cue evil laugh) "Muahahhahaha". But those of you who're smart and know what i'm trying to do....well....what can i say...you're smart. Nothing can get past you. In short, what i'm trying to say is....my writing has many layers to it, Jeanne's just a friend, i'm no casanova, i'm not lucky, this is a long boring post that no one will give a damn about and finally, i'm not 'the most sexually active' guy in school.

That would be ****n.

(Name censored to protect individual)

Explained - 1:41pm@ July 31 2000
Anyway i should explain myself. I wasn't updating at all yesterday because i went to 'the big city'. A friend brought me up there and i called up Shawn and we met up and played pool at..the pool hall i guess. Shawn's ex was there too and apparently she knows my name. Cool. Actually she's from my 'hometown' in KB so she must've seen me around somewhere or something and that's how she knows me i guess. Anyway, we ate at A&W's later and played more pool. Oh i also saw Jeanne over at another pool hall. She dyed her hair black/blue so when i did see her i did a double take. I went up to her (she was with her friend Rosie) and called out 'Jay'. Sure enough it was her. She was on her way back home so we didn't hang out that long. Right, i went back with Shawn and stayed the night. This morning i made my way back to school to get my shit from the dorm and also to get my damn leaver's cert signed. This is a pretty boring post. I'll post more slightly interesting stuff later. I'm kinda under pressure now cos i've got at least 9 (nine) friends leering over my shoulder right now as i type this. Bubye.

Back with a vengeance...for a while - 11:17am@ July 31 2000
Hey sorry for the total lack of updates last night. I was away for the whole day and night. I'm actually back in school right now updating but i'm here just to get my leaving form certificate thing signed by all my teachers and shit. Anyway, i'll write a long ass post later when i get home. I gotta go mingle with my friends now. For what might possibly be the 4th or 3rd or 2nd last time that i'll appear in school again before i leave. Later alligator.

Sunday, July 30, 2000

The final slice - 1:19pm@ July 30 2000
We had a big sleepover at Eric's place last night. That's why i didn't update. It was just Me, John, Oliver and Kristian over at Eric's. We watched half of Reservoir Dogs and half of Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon on VCD while eating 3 boxes of pizza, a bag of Lays, a bag of Doritos, about 20 cans of Coke and Sprite and 3 kebabs. Halfway through the sleepover, John decided to call up his slice Jia Shin. Oliver got kinda pissed because John kinda defeated the purpose of the get together that night but nevertheless, John went upstairs anyway to call up his girl. So i was just us 4 left in Eric's room while John was upstairs on the phone. There was only one slice of pizza left and we all decided to get back at John by 'staining' the pizza. So we all kinda stained it with our ass sweat, armpit sweat, ball sack sweat, saliva, nose pickings, ear wax and other assorted bodily excretions. Ah what a fine slice of pizza that was. Anyway, we put that lone slice of tainted pizza on a plate to make it presentable for John to eat. But when he came down later, he didn't feel like eating it then so we saved it for the next morning. We watched Detroit Rock City before we all went to bed and had a looooong talk about all the foul girls in our school and a fairly amusing debate on who was the hairiest girl in school. Heheh. "All body mohawk". Anyway, the next morning, we all got up and Oliver suddenly remembers the pizza and says..."Is there anymore food left?" Eric says..."There's still one slice left". John says.." Ah...i think i'll have it". So as Eric and John leave the room to get the pizza, Me, Oliver and Kristian pissed our selves laughing. But then...tragedy struck. Eric and John came back in the room with no pizza in hand. Eric had a devastated look on his face. Eric's mom ate the pizza.

Saturday, July 29, 2000

Puzzled? - 12:18pm@ July 29 2000
For those of you new readers to this site, if you're wondering why the hell the name Jeanne pops up in ALMOST EVERY FREAKIN POST, well i suggest you go to the archives and start reading from July 18th 2000. Thank you very much.

It doesn't matter - 11:45am@ July 29 2000
I was just watching Channel [V] for a while and i finally saw the Wyclef Jean/The Rock video. It was pretty funny/good. "IT DOESN'T MATTER!" Anyway, i'm gonna go watch Magnolia again. Haven't watched that movie in yonks (read that as 'ages' for those of you who don't know what yonks might mean). Those of you who haven't seen Magnolia yet well you should. So what if it's a 3 (three) hour movie. It's a fucking good 3 (three) hour movie. It's from the guy who made Boogie Nights if you didn't already know. Now that was a great movie. You just have to watch sometime in your lifetime. PTA (Paul Thomas Anderson) the guy who made those two movies is going out with Fiona Apple. I like her. But none of my other friends do. But hey, Jeanne likes Fiona Apple too. I found that out last night. So that's pretty cool. (Heh. Can't resist not mentioning Jeanne's name in ALMOST EVERY FREAKIN POST can i? It's sad really...BUT IT DOESN'T MATTER!!!)

WTF?????! - 10:44am@ July 29 2000
I just checked my stats4all thing and i got a referral from this page. Now all i have to say is: WHO THE HELL SURFS THE NET LOOKING FOR TRANSSEXUALS AND THEN COMES TO VISIT MY SITE??

Freaky shit man.

Hotmail - 10:07am@ July 29 2000
Woaaah! I just check my Hotmail and i got 2 (two) e-mails from this girl from school. I don't know if you've been following my site from the very beginning or not but i once or twice mentioned about this girl in a blue skirt coming to study at JIS. Well, that same girl e-mailed me and it seems that we 'kinda' know each other..! Shit..! That's a big surprise..! She know's both my parental units' names so i guess her 'rents know my 'rents too. I guess. I also do know that she used to go to the same school that i went to like...8 years ago or something like that. Anyway, the blue skirt girl, i finally found out her name at the beginning of term. Her name's Rafidah. Apparantly there are quite a number of guys who think she's quite...how do you say...hot? Hehe. Anyway, she wrote in her first e-mail:

Ok, So I don't know you but I think I just saw you with your shirt all coloured with handwriting printed what so ever. Hey, that is good for you to further your studies else where! So, Good Luck on that!

In her second e-mail she basically said:

Hey, during chemistry class it just finally clicked to me who you are, well I think that is what I think.

And then she asked if my parents' names were so and so or not.

This is cool. Unexpected and cool. But it's too bad none of you give a damn!!! Cocksmokers.

Up - 10:07am@ July 29 2000
I'm up kinda earlier than usual. The phone rang and it was a call for my mom. Shit. Now i'm all awake all because of that. No matter. At least i'm posting. Oh yeah, i have no idea WHY i posted what i did in the post before this one. Just had to release some tension i guess. My last day in school was okay i guess. I didn't cry or anything. Heaven forbid. I must've gotten like...a million and one hugs from almost all off my friends. John gave me a hug so violent that it almost took my head off. I got my shirt signed by everyone i knew. I'm gonna keep that forever. It does kinda suck that fat Jeff's signing kinda faded out a bit by the sweat on my back. But it's still readable. He told not to rip on the people in the Uni that i'm going to too soon and that he knew i ripped on him only outta love. Faget. Heh, just kidding. I do love you fagetty fat Jeff. (No, we're not gay) Ooh, i got lots of hugs from girls too. Heheh. And of course.......i got a hug from Jeanne. So that was really nice and cool.

=].....|

I don't really know what i'm gonna do now that i'm not gonna go to school for like a whole month. I'll probably just update everyday from home and also try to find a way to visit school and go to the 'big city' to see my friends. Okay, i'm probably losing a lot of my international readers cos my posts have been really boring these past few days but i'll get myself collected soon enough and i'll be my old self again. It's just that i've got a lot on my mind right now and i can't post for shit. Welcome to the end of another shit posting.

A long post - 12:55am@ July 29 2000
Sorry for not posting last night. My dad was hogging the PC again and i was pretty tired and feeling down. Friday was my last day at JIS and i was pretty emotionally drained. I had to leave fat Jeff all my friends, Jeanne and basically everything i had when i was at the school. All the memories and shit. Anyway, i was pretty quiet on the final bus ride back home. I went home to find Angela and Shasha on ICQ. They cheered me up a bit. But i was kinda boring to them cuz i was tired. Anyway sorry for being boring you two. I was just...tired i guess. I called up Jeanne after that and we talked for almost 2 (two) hours i think. Maybe less...maybe even 1 (one) hour...but nonetheless, we found out a whole lot about each other. Some good stuff, some bad stuff. But in the end of the day, even after what i know about her, i still like her. Even more actually. Because no one's perfect. Not even me. Did you know that if i were to stay on at JIS, i'd probably be going out with her right now? That's what she said anyway. But seeing that the situation is pretty FUBAR, it's just not logical to do so...to go out with her i mean. There's another reason but i don't wanna say why. I guess you could kinda say that we're just 'kinda' seeing each other but not really going out....does that make sense? It's just that the situation is so FUBAR, we're both kinda confused and dunno what to do. Under normal circumstance, we'd probably be going out now. But this isn't normal. I'll probably never get to go out with her officially but it would be nice though......even if it were only for 24 hours....kinda like that movie 'Before Sunrise' with Ethan Hawke. I liked that movie. Anyway, Over the past 2 (two) days, i've been pouring out my heart and soul to Jeanne on the phone and she kinda has done the same thing too to a certain extent. Due to time constraints, we're taking it not slow but very fast. You know how normal relationships takes lots of stages to get through before it can truly develop? Well we're just going full speed ahead through every stage. Hyperspeed. Under normal circumstances, this would be called 'rushing into things'. But this isn't a normal circumstance. So it is kinda okay that we do rush things a bit. She's understands it. I understand it. So it's all good i guess. Basically i've done and said things that i would NEVER EVER do and say normally. I'm just going all out with her. Nothing to lose you know? It's great that she understands all of this. And i admit it's all a bit weird for me because i've never actually done anything like this but she hasn't too so this is all new to the both of us. A little excitement in our dull lives like she said. We're not going out though...i don't think we'll ever get to go out and be boyfriend/girlfriend. I'm gonna see her on the weekend and we're gonna go out and see what happens after that. I'm actually a bit reluctant to post about all of this on here but then again i'm not really telling much. Basically Jeanne and I aren't going out. Probably never will but right now.....it's just really weird. Like we're stuck in limbo between friendship and going out-ship. Anyway, we talked and got to know each other more. I'm probably gonna call her up more and get to know her even more as the days pass by...before i get to see her next weekend. If things turn out good....it's good. But if not.....then it's not. We'll just have to wait and see.

Anyway after that i got a call from my old friend Tim. She's actually a girl but her nickname is Tim. Don't ask why. She's my good friend from my old school (the one before i went to JIS). No, don't get any ideas...we're just very good friends. She called me up and invited me to go out to dinner. Her treat. So we went out....ate and then went back to my place and just hung out in my room. I showed her all my photos and stuff of when i was in JIS. We just basically talked and caught up on recent events and shit. I sent her home at around 11:30 pm. I took out the car and drove around a bit after that. I hit 200 kph. What a rush. Anyway, i headed back home and what do i see? My dad STILL on the fucking computer since like...7 pm. Anyway, that's why i'm posting so late. This post pretty much sucks. But hey, i don't give a fuuuuuuck. I love you all.

Friday, July 28, 2000

Left - 5:45pm@ July 28 2000
I'm back home. I'm REALLY fucking tired. I'll post later. =(

Depression sets in - 8:30am@ July 28 2000
Hi. Today is my last day in school. I'm depressed.

Thursday, July 27, 2000

Depression - 10:23pm@ July 27 2000
Expect me to be quite depressed and reluctant to post in the next coupla days. I'll probably post but with less 'personality'. I want to die now.

Post - 10:19pm@ July 27 2000
Fuck, i don't feel like posting tonight. I'm actually kinda happy right now and sad too. The phone conversation i had (with Jeanne) was very very very very weird. It's good but it was very weird in the sense that i said stuff that i'd NEVER ever say under normal circumstances. (There's that phrase again Jeanne....) =]

But anyway, i don't feel like posting. I've got a lot on my mind but i don't wanna post. I'm not posting. Nope. I'm not. Not posting at all. Not tonight. Nope. Not posting.

Bugger - 3:50pm@ July 27 2000
Shit. I left school early today forgetting that i promised Shasha that i'd hang out with her after school. Shit shit shit. Dammit. It sucks to be me.

Okay, i've actually got a whole lot to post but i can't post all that stuff up because the ending of the post depends on a very important phone call that i'll hopefully be receiving by 8:30pm tonight. Actually i'm not even sure if i should post all the stuff that i have on my mind right now because it's kinda a bit insensitive if i do (I think. Yep, this is one of the few times where i actually DO give a fuuuuuck). Again, the post, whether i'll be posting it or not, depends on the fateful phone call that i'm expecting. Shit, this'll be big (potentially bad....potentially) news. We'll just see how things work out first. (Yes, i'm being cryptic again)

Oh and i hung out with Jeanne again today. But....you probably already 'knew' that. Also, my hair looked like shit again.

Nathanism - 8:44am@ July 27 2000
I was just checkin out my stats4all thing and i saw that i got some referrals from Nathan. You should check out his site. It's good. Thanks for the plug dude. Heh. I think i like posting up screenshots.

Bittersweet symphony - 8:25am@ July 27 2000
Boo hoo hoo. This is my second last day. =(

Wednesday, July 26, 2000

Sap - 11:55pm@ July 26 2000
Shit. Why did the first half of my 'Happiness' post sound so sappy? I'm going to sleep now. Bye.

Bang - 11:44pm@ July 26 2000

Happiness - 11:30pm@ July 26 2000
Okay, i feel better now. I got 2 (two) e-mails from Jay (more popularly known as Jeanne....she's become somewhat of a celebrity on this site having her name mentioned almost everyday. Wait...it is everyday that her name is mentioned. Silly me). Anyways, it did suck that i didn't get to talk to her tonight (like Sam told me: "Time is of the essence man..") and i only do have less than 48 hours left till i never ever get to see her again (well...not really but...you know what i mean) so... yeah.....this sucks. Anyway, i need a little ego boosting. Here we go. I'll make a link to something that will please me. Ahhhh...much better. But not by much though. Did i mention that i only probably had like 3 hours of sleep last night? Why? Because i was up all night thinking. Thinking can be bad for you health sometimes. I have no idea why but i just felt like saying 'thinking can be bad for your health sometimes'.

Anyway, i'm probably gonna go to bed after this. But before i go...Jeanne, START WORKING ON YOUR GEOGRAPHY PROJECT ALREADY!

=)

Dilemma - 10:27pm@ July 26 2000
Godammit i feel like shit tonight. Less than 48 hours till my last day in school. This sucks. And i've got such a big dilemma to resolve. I won't bother mentioning what it's about but for those of you who think you know whats going on through my mind, just e-mail me and give ANY suggestions on what i should or shouldn't do in my last final days in school here. I was so bored tonight that i tried calling up everyone that i knew just to have someone to talk to. I was supposed to call up you know who but i called up at the wrong time (she was having a shower) and when i tried calling up again later..it was engaged. Arrrgh. So i called up Mordiana and basically talked out of my ass telling her my apparent dilemma. She must've thought i was out of my mind or something. Heh. Anyway, i know i'm being quite cryptic here. But if you get me, then you get me. If you don't, then you don't.

Dammit. It sucks to be me.

For sale - 5:10pm@ July 26 2000
I took a screenshot of my school e-mail's inbox. Fat Jeff's girlfriend, Valerie, sent an all school e-mail with a very funny subject heading (if you take it out of context). Everyone thinks it's one of the funniest things of the day. Click here to see the screenshot.

Monotony - 4:47pm@ July 26 2000
Dammit, i really REALLY must stop writing about her.

Whoopie - 4:24pm@ July 26 2000
Hey i just thought i'd post again cos i'm like so bored you know? Oh and i wanna give a shoutout to Camilla for being so nice just now. Anyway, i got a little story for you. It happened just now.

It's computing class and the class next door was Jeanne's class. Again, we could see what was happening in the other class though the glass window and it seemed Jeanne was late (She had Cello lessons or something). Anyway, she came a few minutes later only to find that her class was full and all the chairs were taken. So she had to come into our class to borrow a chair. She knocked, she came in, she asked for a chair from our teacher, she had to wait for like a minute, she got the chair and she left. While all of us guys that were in the class were just like looking/staring at her. We must've been totally silent for at least a whole minute while she was waiting for our teacher to get her the chair. After she left we were all still silent for at least another 10 seconds or so until our teacher snapped us all back to reality by saying: "Well, is anyone going to give me an answer?" We were all like.."Oh yeah...um....ink".

Apparently Keeran whispered to Sam later on saying: "Damn...she pretty hot". Sam just responded: "Oh just shut up will you".

It's more funnier if you were there.

Lazy/Busy - 3:17pm@ July 26 2000
Yeah a pretty late update eh? I've been pretty occupied today. Hey smelly Pat came to visit us in school today. He came with a video camera and took shots of us acting like fools. Majid forced me to give him a mock blowjob (sick...i know). I have no idea how that'll turn on video but it'll probably look really gay. (I'm not gay) I also did like a blair witch spoof with his camera. It sucked. Oh i hung out with Jeanne and Camilla for the whole of lunch time. So that was pretty cool. Shasha lent me her digital camera today but i barely took any interesting pics. I also forgot to give it back to her at the end of school so i guess i'll just do it tomorrow. Man, i really feel lazy right now. Just got too much on my mind right now to be funny in this post. Maybe next time eh?

Tuesday, July 25, 2000

6 digits - 9:41pm@ July 25 2000
Don't bother reading this post if you're not interested in what'll happen next in this ongoing Jeanne saga. But for those of you do give a damn, here's what happened just now:

Well, she replied to my e-mail and guess what? She gave me her phone number. Woo hoo. (You have no idea how ecstatic i am right now. Even though i'm not expressing it out right now....just know that i am) Anyway, she said that it was cool if i called before 9 pm. I was kinda reluctant to call her because it'd probably seem like i was desperate or something but time is of the essence and i'm leaving school in about 3 (three) days so i thought i'd just better make the most of what little time i have to talk to her while i'm still part of this school. So i called her up at bout 8:30pm and we talked for about 27 minutes 38 seconds (It was on my 'duration of call' thing. Yes, i'm sad for even posting this on here). Anyway, i probably sounded like a total ass because i must've said the words "like", "um" and "you know" like um...a million times you know? Yeah, um....anyway, it was like...um...cool you know? Um..yeah.

I'm an ass.

Word to the wise: - 6:40pm@ July 25 2000
ALWAYS proof read any e-mails you send out to any important people or you might sound like an illiterate dumbass in that said e-mail. I re-read the e-mail i sent Jeanne AFTER i sent it to her and found at least 5 (five) big dumb ass spelling mistakes. Now she'll think i'm illiterate. Hehe. Oh well, i hope the meaning does gets through.

Dammit. It sucks to be me.

E-mails - 5:11pm@ July 25 2000
I just wrote what i think is a long ass e-mail in reply to Jeanne's e-mail. (Okay okay...even though you damn dirty apes voted me NOT TO write about her anymore, i'm still gonna write about her because, quote unquote, "I don't give a fuuuuuuuck". Ooh...her friend Katt from New Zealand e-mailed me too. Very cool, very unexpected and very pleasing to the soul (I need to expand my use of phrases. I've been repeating stuff that i've already used one too many times now). In terms of news, what did i do today? Nothing much basically. Just hung out with my friends, *whispers* talked to Jeanne *end whisper* (yeah i bet you all were just dying for me to mention that weren't you?) and um....yeah...basically that's it. Nothing majorly interesting happened. Oh, Jason keeps asking me to introduce him to her. Heh. Anyway, dammit. It sucks to be me.

Down - 1:56pm@ July 25 2000
Man, i feel like my posting 'skills' have gone down nowadays. I've just got so much on my mind that i can't even write anything remotely interesting right now..! Besides, at the vunerable state of mind that i'm in right now, i just might post something that i'll regret later.

Things never change - 7:05am@ July 25 2000
It's already been a week and my hair still looks like shit.

Monday, July 24, 2000

*Sigh* - 10:05pm@ July 24 2000
=]

I'd just like to quote myself and say: "It's allllll good"

Bonanza..! - 8:17pm@ July 24 2000
Ooh..! She even e-mailed me..! I just checked my inbox. Sorry though. I won't be posting up her e-mail here. Too bad, so sad.

Phew - 8:08pm@ July 24 2000
She came, she saw, she posted in the guestbook. =)
Yessssssss....! (Imagine me doing what Macaulay Culkin did in Home Alone when he went "Yesssss...!" and you're pretty much there. Just kidding. Really.)

What will happen next? - 7:44pm@ July 24 2000
I re-read my previous post and only now do i realize how GAY i sounded in that post. I apologize for that. It's just that due to the event of me telling Jeanne about this site, i just gone all empty in the brain. I've partially lost some of my posting skills and proceeded to sound like a total ass (not that i already am). Anyway, this is basically what happened just now. Something i failed to mention due to my apparent brain freeze and tiny moment of gay sounding-ness.

I'd arranged with Jeanne earlier on to have a little chat because i had something to tell her. So there i am and there she was. We agreed on kinda meeting at S block. It was just after the school day ended and everyone was still around. Including all the people from my school that visit my site. And just so that they can feel happy reading their names on this site, i'll list em out: Angela, John, Oliver, Sam, Jason, Kristian, Eric, Jia Shin, Jia Ying and a whole bunch of other people that i didn't know who were also looking. So basically i walked over to Jeanne. Camilla was next to her and i think she kinda knew that was her 'cue' to leave cuz she kinda stepped away so that i could like..talk to Jeanne and all. So there i was, talking to her, while EVERYONE else was looking at me. I told her everything that i had to tell that was on my mind at the time. She took it pretty well actually. I was half expecting her to just run off or something. Anyway, after i gave her the URL of this site, i turned around only to see that Angela, John, Oliver and everyone else kinda lined up in a group just watching me 'do my thing'. So i walk over to them and i think it was either Sam or Jason...they were clapping and like saying "Congratulations..!". Bloody hell. Anyway, and Kristian and Eric came up to me and Eric was smiling like there was no tomorrow. Jia Ying was like...dammit...EVERYBODY was smiling. It was freaky. The whole situation was like something out of a movie.

Knowing me i probably looked like a fool. Heh. I have no idea if she's read everything yet but if she did, i just hope that she doesn't like wanna kill me or anything tomorrow. Heheh.

Ohhhhh shit. - 3:56pm@ July 24 2000
I did pretty much the unthinkable today. And i'm also expecting a very important person to visit this site later. Yep, i did it. I went up to her and told her about this site. So this post is especially directed to Jeanne (Okay so i did say that i wouldn't write about her anymore but this is just too good for me not to mention to all you loyal readers that i oh so care about...besides, it's a good opportunity for me to make a complete ass out of myself). Well, Jeanne, if you're reading this, well all you have to do is scroll down and start reading from Tuesday the 18th of July. This is pretty much embarassing for me but i just had to tell you bout this site because i wouldn't want you to misunderstand if you ever did find out about this site from someone else. But basically, i told you pretty much what i had to say at the time just now to you. I just hope you won't get offended or think that me and my friends are weirdos or anything. Heh. I admit, it is a pretty 'weird' situation this is. But it's all in good fun basically. You'll have to read the posts from the bottom up starting from Tuesday the 18th of July to get the whole story. It's really embarassing but i just had to tell you because it's my last week of school and i guess i just didn't want you to get offended or anything if you ever found out about all of this from someone else. =) (Whoa, did i just say that twice? I swear i did.....whatever..)

E-mail me at webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com if you have anything to say. Or we could just talk tomorrow morning or something.

(Other readers: "Uh oh....Justin's trying to 'pull' her")

No i'm not.

Anyway, i've got more to post later on but this'll do for now.

Dammit. It sucks to be me.

He shoots, he scores! - 1:29pm@ July 24 2000
Oooh. I've got some news for later. It should be goooooooood.

The numbers are in - 8:18am@ July 24 2000
I'm in school now and so far i've gotten 3 (three) hugs from 3 (three) different people, 1 (one) pinch and 5 (five) hits to the stomach (from the same person alone) and ooh about...4 (four) people coming up to me and saying "You ass...! Why didn't you tell us?!" or something like that so far.

Oh and my hit count went up by an absolutely incredibly high 3 (three) hits from 141 to 144 hits yesterday.

Sunday, July 23, 2000

Couldn't have said it any better - 8:39pm@ July 23 2000
Here you go you damn dirty apes. For your convenience, i present to you Sam's post.

Hey
I gotta first of all give some huge ass kudos to Justin This guy rocks ass!!! Who else would come up with the fiendish plan of insulting people, stalking the most talked about girl in school, and generally getting people to his site so he can make the "BIG ANNOUCEMENT". All of that other shit was bullshit, and we all fell for it! WE all came, in our tribes to see what was happening with Justin, how is was going with Jeanne and what else he had to say about dan bell. All a ploy, and it worked a treat!

This guy is a true genius! I have to give it to him, I wouldn't have thought it up, and I didn't see it coming. By appearing to be interested in the most talked about (and STALKED about) girl in school, he created an audience who cared. In insulting Dan bell, he created another audience who cared, in tell of my pathetic attempts to communicate with Jeanne, another audience was created. With the world listening, he could finally make his announcement when he knew it would be read.

Justin, my hat is off to you.
I am not saying all this to kiss his ass, just to let him know that he will be missed by the 141 people who read this site the other day.

Justin, I don't care what you, or anyone else says, Justin...You're a legend. Rock On.

PS - I AM NOT STALKING HER!!

Dead Horse: ......

Dorm - 7:12pm@ July 23 2000
Well shag me with a rusty nail....i'm back in school at my dorm. I don't really have anything major to say. Um...so go take a look at my forum. A good post worth reading by S(am). Or just click here to get to it straight away you damn dirty apes. I might just post the whole thing here later or tomorrow.

Awww - 4:26pm@ July 23 2000
I just got ICQ'ed a message from Audrey (a friend of mine). Also, in other words.....IT'S EGO BOOSTING TIME!!

You have received a message!
Hey..
Has visited ur page and damn! wow...
Just only if i ever get my page done....IF EVER...u sure gonna be a under this page that says A tribute to a legend .... though we're not THAT close..... I dunno what has made me say this, i've also known u as a beautiful living person and nothing has changed u...
cya..

Awww....i'm so full of myself right now. Thanks ODDrey. (I like to call ther that)

Plug - 4:00pm@ July 23 2000
Dammit. It sucks to be me. It's nice to see that i've, in a small way, kind of inspired at least 3 of my friends to start running their own e/n sites. Although they're still kinda stuck in between the hybrid 'homepage - e/n' stage of things. Basically they're still not 100% e/n but will probably get there someday.

Oliver's

John's

Shasha's

Again, they're not 'true' e/n sites yet mind you...i'm just plugging them because i'm nice. *Grin* In other news, due to the overwhelming number of votes on the "Should i stop writing about Jeanne?" poll (A total number of 4 votes so far) with 3 yes's and 1 no well i guess that says it all then. No more mentioning of the name Jeanne anymore. *Sob sob* Terrible isn't? Unless of course the poll results change.....

Dammit. It sucks to be me.

It's long, it sucks. - 3:37pm@ July 23 2000
For those of you who live overseas that don't know me personally, well i'd like to take the time in this post to clarify a few things to those who do know me personally. Sorry if some of you don't 'get' this post. If you haven't noticed recently, i've been taking names and kicking ass on my site which i don't normally do to the, what some would say, extreme level that it already is. Well, i know that in my recent posts that i mentioned something of a bombshell to be dropped, well, here it is. My last day of school will be this Friday the 28th of July. To tell you the truth, all of this so called hype about Jeanne and Dead Horse and naming names is just part of a 'marketing scheme' to generate hits for this site of mine. And as you can see (if you're not blind), it has worked. If you click on the circle thing above my counter, you'll see that my hit rate has gone up from 85 to 141 which i think is pretty good for a small site like mine. It'll probably dwindle down once all the hype has died out and everything'll probably go back to normal 30-49 hits a day like i used to get. Granted, while getting lots of hits isn't really what an e/n site is all about, it sure does please the soul knowing that there are people out there who actually give a damn reading what i write everyday. I mean, it'd be pointless to update everyday and having only 4 people read it. By generating all this controversy, i've given myself hits, i've given Oliver hits and i've probably even given thefatwebsite a couple of hits from eager people wondering if Dan Bell will retaliate. On the subject of Dan Bell, i'd just like to say the guy pisses me off sometimes. I'm sure i piss off a other people too (Cough.. cough.. OLIVER!.. hack.. cough... hits for you Ol) but that's the way it is. But as a sign of good gesture to Dan, i've decided to give him my copy of Tachyon: The Fringe (A Freespace kinda PC game) before i leave school. He can also keep my Freespace 2. No hard feelings. This site is kinda like my 'diary' and i like to vent my rage over people on it sometimes. You're not the first Dan. About Jeanne, well, she's a nice girl but the fact of the matter is that i don't know her very well. And for those of you who think i'm trying to 'get with her'....think about this...why would i even bother trying if i know i'll be gone by next Friday?

So basically this Jeanne incident isn't all that you thought it'd be (i.e. Me actually liking her and trying to get with her....you're all wrong.). I do admit, she is quote unquote "..hot.." but realistically speaking, i could never get with her even if i tried even if i really WAS that into her. (Read the forums about this even though i sound like an ass whenever i reply to a message). Why do i have a feeling this'll be a long post? Hope you don't mind reading it.

I'd like to quote Oliver (while giving him hits..haha..running joke about hits coming up this next week.) on something he said: "(in) a simple twist of fate you could be stripped of friends especially if you keep up also this dodgy behaviour Justin!". Ol, i'm leaving. Noone will give a fuck after i'm gone. I'm no legend. I won't be on anyones 'tributes to legends page' like i have on my old site. Legend i'm not. Joke i am. Admit it.

So this'll be my last week in school with all you guys who know me. It probably won't be the last time you'll see me yet but i certainly will be absent from the next next Monday. I don't know if i've explained my motives well enough but basically here's a summarized version of what i'm meaning to say: I'm leaving, no one will give a damn, i'll go out not with a bang but with a whimper, don't take this site too seriously, controversy is good if you want more hits to your site (which is what i've been basically doing), don't eat yellow snow, the truth will set you free, don't judge till you get the facts right, e/n isn't all about hits (but they're nice nonetheless), the Jeanne thing was blown way out of proportion by you guys..! All i did was state what happened. =] It's true...it's true. Anyway, basically....what i'm trying to say is that i'm leaving and that's why i'm kinda adopting this take names and kick ass i don't give a fuuuuuuck attitude. Ya dig? Any comments should be directed in the forum.

Snoogans.

The truth will set you free - 12:35pm@ July 23 2000
There will be a very big revelation later on. Stayed tuned.

Saturday, July 22, 2000

Poll - 6:08pm@ July 22 2000
There's a poll in my forum that all you 'loyal' readers should take.

Ass - 5:12pm@ July 22 2000
Why do i always sound like an ass whenever i post replies in my forum? You know what? I think this is only one of the very few (?) e/n sites that does it's updates using HTML and not cgi. Oh well. For your convenience, i'm gonna post what Sam wrote in my forum.

Subject: That hot chick
Comment: Hey I just wanna make one dammn thing clear. Contrary to what you might believe from reading Justin's webshite, I am not actually interested in Jeanne at all. Okay, she's hot and all, but a little outta my age limits... I sure as hell am not stalking her...well..kinda...heh heh Just a glace here and there, u know what I mean? heh heh Infact, i think she is stalking me! Okay, I'm dreaming, but what the hell, let me enjoy my own little fantasy world. I have no interest in getting with her....as cool as that would be!! heh heh Oh well, I'm wierd, And sad...and lonley heh heh She's hot, and thinks I'm wierd...cool ROCK ON WITH THE STALKING STYLES!! Sm0kL3Y

Quote: "She's hot"

Post any replies in the forum.

Bence - 4:07pm@ July 22 2000
I just e-mailed Bence to ask if he could plug me. Sad. I've got nothing else better to do. I wonder if he'll do it. I'm aslo gonna plug Kris cos i think he has a nice new site.

Posts - 12:15pm@ July 22 2000
I implore you to come check out this site every few hours or so to get the latest updates and such because i've got very unpredictable posting times (as if you didn't know). Also i apologize for my more recent posts because they're leaning more towards stuff that happens in school. But i'll try to keep them as generalised as possible so that everyone can 'get it'. Hey my forum is kinda heating up. Cool. (Wow....another oxymoron....Heating up yet cool. Dumb.)

Dad - 11:37am@ July 22 2000
Dammit, i couldn't update yesterday because my dad was hogging the PC the whole bleeding night. I had a whole lot of ideas on my mind but now i've probably lost about 69.8% of all those ideas. I was gonna do a serious post but then i thought...hey why not do some reverse psychology shit but then i thought....nah...i'll do a funny post. Now i just don't know what to write. But i'll try. Let me begin by saying that i've never thought of Dan (this 'asshole' in school) to be annoying. Little did i know that within the first 4 days of the new school term, he has transformed into one of the most gut wrenchingly annoying person i've ever encountered. I don't wanna elaborate on what he did but i sure do have the balls to set up an imaginary interview with an imaginary being that i'd like to call 'Dead Horse'. This article can also be called 'An imaginary interview about a non-imaginary person that pissed me off big time with Dead Horse.

Me: So Dead Horse, what do you think of that whiny sod Dan Bell?
Dead Horse: ......

Me: Any thoughts on his annoying showing off of his personally composed music everytime there's people around?
Dead Horse: ......

Me: Who do you think he'll hang out with in school now that all of his friends are gone? (E.g. Rod, Pat, Mike, Jassa etc etc) Won't he be oh so lonely?
Dead Horse: ......

Me: Do you think he'll take this interview seriously and start retaliating in the forums or guestbooks or even on his shit part of this 'co-owned' part of thefatwebsite which i won't bother linking which i would normally do but not on this occasion?
Dead Horse: ......

Me: Do you think he'll ever find another girlfriend apart from his last psycho girlfriend who used to stalk people? (E.g. Me, Dan Fanselow, Marcus...)
Dead Horse: ......

Me: Why does he always have to put down everything that everyone ever does when he himself doesn't do a good job himself and anything he does but fails to realise it?
Dead Horse: ......

Me: Do you think that we need Rod back beacuse he used to be the best person to ever rip on Dan?
Dead Horse: ......

Me: Thank you dead horse. You've been very kind with your words. I'll look forward to interviewing you again about some other person that might piss me off in the near future.
Dead Horse: ......

And that concludes the interview. If he asks me why i did that, i'll just say "i dunno". If he wants to talk i'll just talk (bullshit) but i'll still be pissed but i won't show it. In other words, "I don't give a fuuuuuuuuuck..."

In other news, i've decided that i'm going to talk to Jeanne and tell her about what's been going on with us 'guys' and about what's been written on this site. If she does take everything in good humor, that'd be very cool. But if she gets offended i guess that's that then. But..heh...there's still the case of 'if' and 'when' i'll approach her to talk to her about everything. I'm a bit of a chickenshit you see. Also, i've got a bit of a bombshell (news) to drop (tell) all my friends in school that give a damn. But i won't write it out here just yet. I wanna see how many people will inquire me about this 'news' in school first. Then i'll tell.

Um...i've run out of things to say. All of what i've written was probably only 73.567892001% of what i had in mind last night.

Oh well.

Friday, July 21, 2000

Home! - 3:08pm@ July 21 2000
I'm on my way home for the weekends after i'm done writing this post.

It's done now so i'm off. Seeya later.

Fire drill - 1:00pm@ July 21 2000
So i'm in geography class right and then the fire alarm goes off. So everyone had to assemble at the field behind the gym. So i'm walking and walking and who do i see in front of me? I need not say but what was cool was that when she saw me she said "Oh hey, it's you..". Coooooooooool. Anyway, since she was new i told her what was going on, about the fire drill and all, a little bit of chit chat here and there about math and class and timetables and stuff while walking with her trying to find where our tutor group was. Apparently a bunch of people saw me and her and they (Shasha especially) started like...you know giving those 'knowing' "hey hey hey..!" looks. Jason came by soon later and he was probably thinking like..."Dammit" coz I made a better 'move' that he was supposed to make today.

"Do you wanna play?"

Hilarious. Anyway, during lunch i've got like at least 4 (four) people come up to me and say "Hey, i saw you talking to....". WHAT'S THE BIG DEAL?? Sheesh. Anyway, Sam is currently posting in my forum so check that out. i'm outta here.

Finally - 9:20am@ July 21 2000
Jason finally said his first words to Jeanne. Picture this:

It's tutor group. Jason and David are playing 'Bloody Knuckles'. It a game where you have to keep a coin spinning by flicking it repeatedly turn by turn. The guy who knocks over the coin will have to put his knuckles on the table and have the coin flicked as violently hard as possible into his knuckles causing...bloody knuckles...eventually.

So anyway, what were Jason's first words to her?

"Do you wanna play?"

She said no.

Thursday, July 20, 2000

99 red balloons - 8:50pm@ July 20 2000
I've downloaded the English version of the song and it's still pretty damn cool...for an 80's song. The German version sounds more aggressive but i guess that just due to the nature of the German language itself.

Oh and it IS spelt Jeanne, not Jeannie. I should know because that's what Jason saw her write into her diary during that whole MINUTE that he was just looking at her. Haha.

God, i better start writing about something else other than Jeanne coz i've been writing about her ALL THE FREAKIN' TIME. It's insane. People are gonna start saying things...oh wait. They already have. Haha.

Sad.

Oh and... - 5:25pm@ July 20 2000
...yes i do realize all my recent posts have been very pathetic. Please direct any comments to my forum.

Proof - 4:50pm@ July 20 2000
For those of you who STILL doubt who's actually doing the 'going for' go take a look at my guestbook. Read Jason's post.

Failed...again - 4:24pm@ July 20 2000
Yet again, ANOTHER failed attempt at...well, all you regular readers of this site should know by now what the topic of the week is....well anyway, picture this:

It's the end of the school day. A long hallway. Nobody around. Just me and Oliver walking down the hall talking about....you know....and in the distance...there she is walking towards us with her friend Camilla i think (Probably the wrong spelling knowing me). Okay, so there right in front of us was a window of opportunity to just make any kind of contact perhaps just even say "Hey Jeanne" and guess what happens, OLIVER apparently freaked and darted off in another direction towards the gym. I have no idea why he of all people did that. I mean, in a normal situation, I would've been the one who'd run away and hide. Anyway, i was like: "Why the hell did you do that??". I found it pretty funny that HE was the one who tried to avoid her and not me but regardless of that we continued arguing about his actions and my intentions and later Jia Ying intercepts us and interrogates us about what we were arguing about. We didn't 'exactly' tell her what happened at first but she caught on (Apparently EVERYBODY knows about this Jeanne 'thing') and she came to the conclusion that Oliver liked her too. Haha. Oliver then kinda panicked and tried clearing his name and blaming it on me. But i wasn't even the one who ran off! Hehe. Anyway, now everyone thinks that all us 'guys' are like 'obssessed' with Jeanne. God, it's funny and really scary as well. I mean, what'll she think if she ever gets a hold of all our exploits?? Ahhhhh..!! She'll probably think we're psychos or something.

Sad.

Failed - 1:07pm@ July 20 2000
Sam decided not to stalk her today and not to give her the URL of this site cuz he's now afraid. Another friend, Jason (who's also in my tutor group) tried oh so hard to strike up a conversation with her this morning to no avail. He just couldn't do it. It was pretty damn funny. She was looking down at her diary and Jason just turns to her and looks at her. After about a minute of just looking, he turns back to me and just shakes his head. And as expected, even though i've not even done anything, people think that i'm like trying to go for her. Sheesh. Anyway, prepare for a whole week of all this dumbass failed approaches. I'm currently downloading the english version of 99 luft balloons called 99 red balloons. I've been singing that damn song since last night. And the only words that i know to the song is '99 luft balloons'. So it gets pretty annoying when you hear "99 luft balloons" over and over and over again. I need the lyrics.

99 luft balloons - 7:42am@ July 20 2000
I downloaded this really cool 80's song last night. It's called 99 luft balloons by Nena. Too bad i only got the GERMAN version. Duh. I'm gonna try look for the english version later. Fuck it's a catchy song...

"...99 luft balloons..."

Wednesday, July 19, 2000

Sam the stalker - 9:40pm@ July 19 2000
Sam is planning to stalk her tomorrow. He's also threatening to send her the URL of this site. That'd be funny.

Shit - 5:47pm@ July 19 2000
It probably is spelt Jeannie.

Ego boost time - 5:40pm@ July 19 2000
Fullname: SJ
Where are you from?: New York
Comments: Yo man~ I come to your site all duh time~ Great stuff you got here!~Considering it's "Bruneian" work~ Chill~~~~~~~~~~

Ooooooh yeaaaaah. Boost boost boost. Thanks dude. That was from my GB. "Bruneian"...that's funny =) And a weird post in my forum...to me anyway:

From: snikers
Subject: her name
Comment: justin... it's jeannie. and she used to go out with ben. is that sucha good idea???

Uhh....what idea? Anyway, OH NO! I 'might' have spelled her name wrong! Aaaaah..! (Angela'll probably laugh when she reads this)

Oooh..aaah... - 4:51pm@ July 19 2000
Yes, i know i'm sad. You don't have to tell me. Some people STILL don't 'get' this site and the stuff i write about. Think 'tongue in cheek' people. If you don't have the sense of humor or intelligence to break down the many layers of meanings and intentions within my writings, then don't read it. You'll just be misled. It's my site, my life, my writings. And i have the balls to actually write about 'stuff' whatever it may be. But some people just take it so damn seriously. And that's just sad.

All i have to say is.....many times reversed psychology is really fun. On stupid people. Read my about page. I am here to amuse youuuuu. Don't take me too seriously. Oh, this post is directed to all those who know me personally who still don't 'get' this site and it's intentions. I'll have to say it: Dumbasses.

Obsession? - 4:04pm@ July 19 2000
Ah yes, another fun filled post by yours truly. So what did 'we' do today in school that's oh so interesting? Take a guess. Did you guess that it had to do with.....Jeanne? (Ah, the wonders of knowing how to spell out someone's name) Well yeah. But anyway, a little update. As you can see, i've got a new counter. It looks like crap but it's gooooood. I generated quite a number of hits yesterday. So that's good. It's nowhere as huge as some other e/n sites but i'm happy i guess. Tell your friends bout this site if you're reading this. So anyway, onto the 'juicy' parts.

Picture this: A bunch of depraved guys in computing class (Myself, Keeran, Sam, Shawn, Shafiee, Danny, Ed, Josh and Francis) and a class next door which we can see into through a glass window on the wall. Jeanne was in that class next door. So basically there we were, the whole class basically looking through the window trying to sneek peeks at her while pretending to do work. Yes, basically the whole class. We all even huddled around Keeran's desk which was right next to the window which separated the class pretending to 'discuss payroll systems' while infact...well...you know. Anyway, we have a class full of semi-obsessed guys and then our teacher walks out of the class to go to the next room where she was at to check on the class or something. As soon as he was gone, you guessed it, everyone was talking bout her. With Sam going on about how she was 'stalking' him to questions about her origins.....needless to say, the whole class was hooked on her. But i get the last laugh cuz i'm in the same tutor group as her. Haha. So anyway, our teacher comes back in to our class and says:

Teacher: "Boy, it sure is hot in the room next door"
Sam: "Yep it sure is"
Whole class: (Bursts out laughing/giggling/smiling)
Teacher: "Come on you guys. I know what you're talking about"
Class: (Hehehhehehehhehheheh)

That was very cool. Very very cool. Anyway, class ended, it was the end of the school day and Me and Sam decided to be stalkers. So yes, we waited, we looked around, we 'discussed', we saw her, we followed from a distance looking like fools, we waited at corner where she had to get past us. Angela was there with us. She thought that we were being really funny/pathetic (We were. It's a guy thing.) Sam says: "She's coming..!" I turned around and fucking looked. (Dumbass move) I quickly improvised and did like a swinging exercise motion. (Sad and very painfully obvious) She passes by and i actually looked at her pass by. Sam just stared at Angela. But as soon as she was a considerable distance away, he full on watches her walk along the corridor....while Angela is pissing herself laughing at us both. Then i heard someone shout out: "You suck!" It was John. He was watching from afar. Anyway, Me and Sam start doing all the typical 'guy' stuff like "Oh i'm gonna talk to her tomorrow", "No, i am" bla bla blah...

You know it'd be really funny if she does read this someday. She'll probably avoid us like the plague then. Haha. I wanna see if Sam does go through with any of the stuff he said he'd wanna do. Yeah, him and everyone else. Everyone in my computing class that is. Why i'm even writing out all of this on my site i have no idea. I'm so fucked if she ever reads about what me and my friends' did today. Make that - We're so fucked...

Kill me now.

New day - 8:31am@ July 19 2000
Nothing to post yet.

Tuesday, July 18, 2000

I can spell.... - 8:41pm@ July 18 2000
....Jeanne's name. (Sounds like 'genie')

That's her name. Now i'm going to bury my head in the ground just in case she ever reads this. =]

Counter - 7:33pm@ July 18 2000
My counter is fucked. I got this stats4all counter installed and i'm currently trying to find a better counter to go along side with the stats thing. Thecounter.com sucks ass.

Dog - 5:42pm@ July 18 2000

Girl Weds Dog in Puppy Loveless Marriage

A four-year old Indian girl has married a stray dog in a traditional Hindu service -- and it wasn't a case of puppy love at first sight.

Four (4) year old + stray dog + marriage = me speechless

Name - 5:37pm@ July 18 2000
Dammit, i wish i knew how to spell out her name so that i can type it out here on this site for the whole world and her to see and so that the people who go to my school that also visit this site can laugh at me to my face when they see me for being such a loser for having nothing else to write about except for wishing that i could know how to spell out her name so that i can type it out here on this site.

Woah, i think that's the longest sentence i've ever written so far. Bet it doesn't even make sense. Baaaad grammar there.

Blah blah blah - 1:02pm@ July 18 2000
Okay, it's precisely lunchtime right now as i'm typing all this shit out. Like i said, i'd do a rant of sorts about the past 2 (two) days or so when i was free right? Well, i'm free now. First order of the day:

1. They took out the PC in my room at the dorm type thing.

Now i can't do my work, i can't e-mail, i can't update my site, i can't surf and i can't watch anymore VCD's in the comfort of my room. So that pretty much sucks ass man. Now i'll just have to go to the damn study room to do all my shit after school.

2. New students

Ah yes, always something to look forward to on the first day of school. Yeah we got alot of newbies this term. And yes oh yes, one of the hottest new girls to come to this here school of mine IS IN MY TUTOR GROUP. I know her name, i showed her around school for a little bit but i have no idea how to spell out her name...yet. But she's nice. Very nice. Of course, i probably won't do ANYTHING at all to advance my 'status' with her because i suck. Oh and if she ever does read this post well i guess that's pretty much it with all this 'advancing' crap. If you know what i mean. Oh well. Anyway, Daniel was assigned by our tutor to be her 'buddy' for the day and show her around. But because he's a dumbass, he told me to take over. Am i happy? Yes. Do you care? No. If she reads this will i kill myself? Most probably.

3. My hair looks like shit

Self explanatory.

The end.

Hey - 9:13am@ July 18 2000
This isn't that bad a day after all. There's a very very nice slice in my tutor group. And i'm assigned to be her buddy...by default. I'll write about it later.

Lesson - 7:55am@ July 18 2000
Get kicked by a donkey once and it's your fault. Get kicked by a donkey twice and you're the ass.

And guess what? - 7:25am@ July 18 2000
It seems like my counter isn't working at the moment. Damn what a day it's already been.

First hour of school.... - 7:21am@ July 18 2000
...and i hate it already. I woke up and looked in the mirror and what do i see? I've got red eyes. Sleep deprivation. This sucks. I guess i'll just have to look at the ground all day and not make eye contact.

Monday, July 17, 2000

Britney - 10:27pm@ July 17 2000
I've got a really good fake of Britney Spears. It's really good but i don't suggest you view it from school......if you are at school. Like i am.

Sorry - 9:06pm@ July 17 2000
Sorry for the lack of updates today. I'm back at my school dorm and i've been really busy unpacking and shit. Going back to school sucks. But oh well. That's life. Normal posting routines will commence once i'm free. Tomorrow perhaps. I have a rant planned for tomorrow. So watch out for that.

Crack - 9:54am@ July 17 2000
It's weird how i get e-mails from people that i never really expect to get e-mails from (e.g. the guys over at Project Vulcan). I never thought they (and other people) actually bother to come here and read all the bullshit that i write everyday. Anyway, that's not the purpose of this post. The purpose of this post was for me to tell you this:

I like it when the water runs in between the crack of my ass when i'm taking a shower.

I'M JUST KIDDING. Sheesh.

I watched The Kid - 9:02am@ July 17 2000
Okay i'm eating my words right now. The Kid, even though it's a Disney movie, was very very good. It's not great but it's very very good and very worth seeing. Normally i never like watching Disney movies. And when i say Disney movies i mean live action movies like The Mighty Ducks and other countless crap kiddie Disney movies. Disney cartoons are different. I like watching them Disney cartoons. That Ariel chick from The Little Mermaid was hot. So was Belle from Beauty And The Beast. But hold on a sec, i'm getting sidetracked here. The Kid was a good movie. Hell, i must've laughed at least 6 or 7 times. That's quite an accomplishment on my part. I barely laugh out loud while watching movies unless it's really something funny. The Kid has lots of funny moments. Moreso than Scary Movie i might add. Both of them are good funny movies. Damn it feels good after watching a good movie like that.

Sunday, July 16, 2000

Impression - 10:10pm@ July 16 2000
"Woahh"

That was my Keanu Reeves impression.

School - 7:40pm@ July 16 2000
I'm going back to school this Tuesday. That really sucks. We only got like a four (4) and a half week summer holiday. I guess starting this Monday (when i actually get back to the dorm) i'll be updating the site from school. It should be pretty interesting how different the updates might be when i'm updating from on campus. Or maybe not. Four (4) and a half weeks of holidays sucks. People in the US probably have like..what? 3-4 months of bumming around. I still wanna bum around too. Dammit. This sucks.

Moved - 6:20pm@ July 16 2000
Just another little update. I've moved servers. I'm now hosted by stas.net. They don't allow cgi or anything but at least they have no popup banners whatsoever. And they provide INFINITE webspace. I love stas.net already. Anyway, all the pages have already been uploaded but there are still some jpeg's (pics) that i haven't uploaded yet. So if you run into some broken links, well, sorry bout that. I'll get it ironed out soon enough. Thanks to the guys over at Project Vulcan for pointing out this spiffy little server.

Crap - 3:56pm@ July 16 2000
Dammit. this site won't work with Netscape. Oh well. Just have to use IE i guess.

Okay so i lied - 2:40pm@ July 16 2000
I know i said i wouldn't touch the layout of this site yesterday but i guess i lied. So sue me. Anyway, i went online to a HTML tips and tricks site (can't remember which one), learnt about iFrames, made a new layout which is actually a variation of my old site Planet Psykotika (what a shitty name) with less bullshit, and slightly changed the color scheme. I decided to use grey in the background because i use grey as the background for my e-mail service. What that has to do with this site i dunno. The font sizes are smaller. I dunno why i did that. If you can't see the fonts then you need glasses. I still havent moved servers and i'm still updating using raw HTML and no cgi scripts. I have no idea if anyone has a layout like this and i really can't be bothered if they do. It's the content of the news that matters in an E/N site. I've tried to make this new site layout neat and simple for now. I might add tiny little 'improvements' here and there as time goes by. All in all what has all these changes done for the site? Nothing. It still sucks.

What is the Matrix? - 11:00am@ July 16 2000
I watched The Matrix again last night. Damn that was a good movie. I remember being so obsessed with that movie last year when it first came out. I swear i watched it at least 17 times. Fuck, i even had Neo's freakin haircut for a while (It was bad. I look nothing like Keanu Reeves). My friend Rory even started calling Neo to his amusement. Believe me it gets pretty embarassing when Rory shouts out "Neo!" to me while i'm standing in the lunch line. Anyway, yeah, i was obsessed. The Matrix was a fucking great movie. And i still do think Carrie-Anne Moss is the the best looking woman to ever wear leather. Anyway, on my list of movies to watch before i go back to school next Tuesday are Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon and The Kid. I have a thing for hating to watch any Disney movie. The Kid is a Disney movie. But i think i'll just watch it regardless of its Disney movie status since its got Bruce Willis in it. It better be good. Or i'll just be wasting my time. Like you'd care anyway.

Saturday, July 15, 2000

Eminem - 6:35pm@ July 15 2000
Click here to download this really cool song by Christina Aguilera dissing Eminem. It's basically her talking trash about Eminem to the tune of 'The Real Slim Shady'. Don't know if it's really her though. It'd be oh so very very cool if it really is her. You'll need Realplayer to listen to it though. If you don't have it, well, get it. It's worth it.

Update crap - 5:20pm@ July 15 2000
I've decided not to move servers yet because:

1. It's a pain in the ass
2. It's a pain in the ass

and finally beacuse:

3. It's a pain in the ass

Hypermart.net was my best bet at finding a server that allows cgi scripting but they have big ass pop up banners ON EVERY PAGE. It's also really annoying having make up a new layout for this site. What i want is a page layout that's 80 percent text and 20 percent gifs/jpegs and shit. Should i go with tables? Frames? Iframes? Should i stick with raw HTML? Should i use scripts? Well fuck all that shit because this site is going to stay like this till i can get a good host that allows cgi scripting and also till i can think up a good enough new layout and color scheme. Updating is...

...a pain in the ass.

Dissed - 3:48pm@ July 15 2000
You know, i was kinda disappointed that Scary Movie hardly had any (female) nudity in it. Not that i want nudity in every movie that i see but i mean seeing that the recent trend of teen comedies nowadays have gratitious nudity in them (American Pie, Road Trip), i was kinda expecting to see some in Scary Movie. Sure there were lots of dicks and asses but no actual breasts and stuff. Considering that Shannon Elizabeth is actually in the movie for a considerable amount of time (unlike in American Pie) makes it even more slightly disappointing that there isn't any nudity (by her at least). It's still a good movie though. I was laughing out loud at the Dawson's Creek joke. Man that was good.

Sucky - 12:12pm@ July 15 2000
Headaches are such a bitch. They don't allow you to watch Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon, it makes you not bother to pick up phone calls, it makes you turn off your pager, it makes you go to sleep early, and it makes you be in a pissy mood therefore pissing other people off at the same time too. I hate headaches. I need a haircut. I look like Sasquatch.

Friday, July 14, 2000

Headache - 9:09pm@ July 14 2000
I'm not in too much of a chatty mood right now. I got a headache. Sorry. I'll be fine tomorrow.

Scary Movie - 6:42pm@ July 14 2000
I watched Scary Movie. It was good. But i only really laughed three times in the whole movie. I laughed at the Matrix stuff, the Blair Witch stuff and the part where Ms. Man exposed her balls. (Oh boy....there's that word again) Not the laugh fest that i was expecting but it was good nonetheless. You'll only really get the jokes if you've watched all the movies that it parodies like i have. If you haven't then you'll be lost throughout most of the scenes. Gonna watch Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon later tonight. Should be gooooood....i hope.

Road Trip (of sorts) - 6:30pm@ July 14 2000
Yeah so you may've noticed i was gone for bout 2 (two) days. Me, Oliver and John went to the 'big city' to meet up with Adi. We stayed over at his place. Boy that room brought back lots of memories. The room of decadence we called it. Anyway this will be boring but i'm just gonna write about what we did regardless anyway. That Wednesday night we went out to Taurean Cafe and met up with the legendary Gina and also with Angela. Had a coupla laughs listening to Gina's impersonations and stuff. John also broke a glass trying to pull off some Mission: Impossible 2 shit like when Tom Cruise kicked up that gun. Well, John knocked over a glass and tried to save it by kicking it back up before it fell. Instead he kicked it into the wall. Dumbass. Anyway, we went to play some pool at this pool hall nearby. That was a good night out. Went back to Adi's after that and watched...um...Animal Tricks. I won't elaborate on that coz Oliver told me not to but lets just say it was the most disgusting thing we've ever witnessed. After that we had an hour of 'deep' conversation. (In-joke there. Sorry. You just had to be there.) Went to sleep soon after. The next Thursday morning we all went to the beach at bout 11 am. It was fucking hot. We met up with Sophie, Suzanna and Aaron at the beach. We also picked up Pete on the way. Had a 'picnic' (another in-joke) and went swimmin in the sea for a bit. John got fucking sunburned so bad (dumbass) that he actually suffered from sunstroke today. Anyway, after the beach everyone kinda agreed that Suzanna was hot. Adi could've got with her he was gonna leave the next day. At least he got to give her a piggy back ride to Pete's dismay (He wanted to give her the ride but Adi beat him to it) She was wearing this 2 piece bikini. So that was cool i guess. Very cool actually. *Sigh* Anyway, after the beach we met up with Mohammad and we all went to Gadong minus Adi who had to stay home and spend time with his family before he left. So we all rang up fat Jeff to give us a lift to Gadong. So he did. But he left as soon as we got there. Oh well. (Dumbass) Anyway, it was me, Oliver, John, Pete and Mohammad. We stayed in Gadong, got a bite to eat, met up with Angie there, played lots of pool, got stranded there at night when a misunderstanding occured of how we were gonna get back (Adi was supposed to come get us but he couldn't) so we had to call up Nori to send us back to Adi's. Damn. For a moment there we all thought we had to walk back to Adi's. At one point after a lot of arguing about all the possible ways of getting home, i just blurted out

"Aw come on guys, let's just do this"
Pete says, "Do what man?"
And i go, "I dunno man"

Then we all burst out laughing. (You just had to be there to get the humor of this all) Anyway, we all got home eventually. We all stayed over at Adi's. We watched The Wedding Singer and went to sleep after that. This morning, we all had breakfast and later on i found John passed out in front of Adi's toilet. (Dumbass) Sunstroke. Oh well. We said our goodbyes to Adi there at his place cos we weren't able to see him off at the airport or we'd miss the bus back home 100km away. And that's basically it i guess. Of course there's more that happened but i'll just save those little stories for later posts and shit. I'm tired. This is probably boring to you all. I don't really care anyway. Normal postings will resume shortly hereafter. Till then.

Hello earthlings - 3:36pm@ July 14 2000
I'm back and i'm very very tired. Full details about what happened the last few days later on okay? So stay tuned. Blah.

Wednesday, July 12, 2000

Goodbye cruel world - 9:35am@ July 12 2000
I'l be gone soon! (I think i've stressed this enough don't you think?) Anyway, the site is probably gonna move servers soon after i get back. So till then i guess. We'll see what happens.

Yawn - 6:30am@ July 12 2000
Shit i'm up early. I'm just trying to get in as many posts as i can before i'm gone i suppose. It's as cccold as hell right now (wow, what an oxymoron) and i'm shivvvvering like a fraail litttle monkey in the north pole. Can'tt even work the mouse rigghhthtt.

Won't be here - 1:02am@ July 12 2000
I'll only be posting till about 10 am then i'm gone till Friday.

Tuesday, July 11, 2000

Busy and gone - 10:50pm@ July 11 2000
I haven't been posting much today. Been busy. I'm gonna be pretty busy these next few days too. I've got a payroll case study assignment type thing to complete for school next week for Computing class. That sucks. I'm also not gonna be here from tomorrow onwards till Friday as i'll be away and i wont have net access (i think) to update this site. I'm current looking for new hosts to host this shit site of mine. If all else fails, i'm just gonna go with hypermart.net. If any of you big boys out there who think that this site is worth hosting on your servers then e-mail me cuz i really need to be on one that allows cgi scripting. If this sounds like a desperate plea well....it is. I'll even be your bitch if you host me. Haha. Anyway, so basically i'll be gone from most of Wednesday till Friday. But i'll try to update from someplace if i can.

Cat - 1:30pm@ July 11 2000
I once had a gay cat. His name was Moggie. Obviously it was male cat since i referred to it as 'his'. I also had another cat at the time also a male. Anyway, Moggie was gay. There were no other female cats around and it was that season where cats get horny and try to fuck any female cat in the vicinity. I don't let my cats out so they were both mostly confined within the house walls. So Moggie just started getting really queer and proceeded to bite the other cat's neck to get into the cat humping position. Of course, the other cat who was straight probably found the whole scenario pretty disturbing and he'd 'break the hold' and run away while Moggie kept chasing him trying to hump him.

Gay cats are weird.

I'd tell you the story of when Moggie took a shit on my right foot but i'll save that for another day.

I'm up - 10:18am@ July 11 2000
I'm awake. And school starts next week. That sucks. Heheh. It's seem like i inadvertently pissed of some people. That's good. It gives me more hits and stuff. Controversy is goooooooood. Anyway, to answer all your queries, if you go take a look at the 'about' page, it'll basically tell you why this site is the way it is. And, if you haven't been following the new these past few days, the site is going to change when everything's in place. Told ya it's shit. In more ways than one =) Think 'placeholder'. And no SiC, i don't hate you. =P I'm hungry.

Monday, July 10, 2000

88 fucking minutes??? - 8:37pm@ July 10 2000
X-Men: Where'd it go? In a Summer where most movies are clocking in at around two hours or more in length, the upcoming actioneer "X-Men" bucks the model with a final running time of 88 minutes. Movieheadlines talked with a source who revealed the film's original cut ran 2 hours and 15 minutes but around 45 minutes was removed to make it faster and pacier. A lot of slower, non-action, character development scenes were chopped - and because many involved were parts of various subplots, scenes involving those subplots had to go as well explaining why so much was removed. One of the stand alone scenes definitely removed was a part from the opening Holocaust sequence.

88 fucking minutes????! Shit. That's a short movie. How the hell are they gonna flesh out all the characters subplots and shit in just 88 minutes?? I mean, Men in Black was short but it worked. Basically only two characters to follow. X-Men has what? At least 8 main characters and villains combined, Prof X and Senator Kelly. How are they gonna divide up the screen time for everyone? They better not screw it up. Guess we'll just have to wait till the premiere.

49 - 7:39pm@ July 10 2000
The magic number.

Statistics for F.U.B.A.R

Account number 1186011 had a total of 319 visitors lastweek. Visitors for last week divided per weekday:

2000-07-02: 49
2000-07-03: 49
2000-07-04: 39
2000-07-05: 45
2000-07-06: 40
2000-07-07: 48
2000-07-08: 49

Shit - 5:53pm@ July 10 2000
Shit. I'm having trouble with the damn News Publisher script for this site. Help me. Spaz? Squrrelboy? Anyone? Boo hoo. Since i'm in the middle of my site upgrade, this will be yet another day of boring lame ass posts. Mostly technical posts about how much i suck at configuring shit. If i can't get this cgi thing to work then i'm fucked. I'll just have to stick to raw HTML updating. To relieve my stress, i'm gonna install my newly bought Thief Gold after this. I'd get Thief 2 but i couldn't find it anywhere. Oh well. Anyway, if you're bored of reading todays posts, just go ahead and read the posts on the 7/8th of July. I posted a picture of my balls then.

Oh yes - 12:58pm@ July 10 2000
Guess what? I'm working my way upwards in the e/n scene. I'll start off small but soon i will rule the world! (Cue Dr. Evil laugh) Anyway, i'm a guest poster over at ::Vis.Net:: now. Not to say that i'll be abandoning this site though. I just need to be recognised dammit! That's what all upstarts like me need to do to make a mark in whatever scene you're in. I'm also gonna be upgrading this site technically speaking with more 'advanced' thingamabobs. (CGI and shit to make my life easier) Or whatever. So look out for anything new. Go visit ::Vis.Net:: dammit.

Format change. Sucks huh? - 9:10am@ July 10 2000
How sad is it when it's such a slow news day that you actually have nothing else better to do than download a Mandy Moore MP3? Well, that's what i did last night. Anyway, i wanna watch Scary Movie soon dammit. I bought The Thin Red Line, Office Space and The Game yesterday. Office Space is some funny shit man.

Right, it's time once again to inflate my ego:

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Comments...
just calling to say i'm a moron

great page!!

Ooooookay......
Oh, the format change just adds a headline before each post. Told ya it was small. Hey go visit ::Vis.Net::

Sunday, July 9, 2000

10:42pm@ July 9 2000 E/N site. Everything/Nothing site. This site is one of them. I'm going to change the format of my posts a tiny little bit tomorrow. So...um...be ready for a miniscule change. Check this out.

10:15pm@ July 9 2000 Crap posts today. I'm just tired from the damn road trip i had to 'the big city'. Just read yesterdays posts. They were goooooood.

9:00pm@ July 9 2000 Well spank my ass and call me Charlie, i'm back. Later than expected but i'm back. And what do i have to say for now? Nothing.

3:00pm@ July 9 2000 I need more posters. Anyone of you wanna be a poster on this site? Anyway, i'm going out now. I'll be back later in the evening. Not that anyone will be missing me or anything. E-mail me: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com or post in the forum.

2:18pm@ July 9 2000 Hello. Look what i found in my guestbook:

Comments: hey Jus..so bloody bored so I thought I'd sign in here again. Hope u dun mind. A request here: since you're so nice and cute (i'm sucking up to u here) would you like to create another page for me? hehe j/k. Anyway, great page...cya round

That's number 5 (five).
5 (five) and a half if you count Oliver (I only helped, didn't make. See his acknowledgments page).

Saturday, July 8, 2000

7:52pm@ July 8 2000 Did you like em?

7:09pm@ July 8 2000 Seeing that the topic of the day seems to revolve around balls i've decided that i'm going to post a picture of my 2 (two) balls. After this, there will be no more mention of balls anymore.

If you click here, you can see that the right ball is slightly droopier than the left one in this picture.

The end.

5:20pm@ July 8 2000 Okay, another guestbook signing pertaining to the issue of balls. What is it with you people and balls? Rod also signed my guestbook asking me to stop abusing Jeff. No.

10:29am@ July 8 2000 It seems that i've freaked out at least 1 (one) person yesterday with one single comment. If you reread yesterdays posts you'll know which one it is. Case in point, Dana who signed my guestbook wrote:

Comments: Hmmmm...Jus What to say....when the fuck did your page get so screwed...by all means i think it good...but gosh Jus..you are very not there....not that it's bad...but it makes one think...Jus is a sick pervert....maybe a provert in your case. Hmmm...can you get any worst? or have you peaked....? Did you say moist left ball....can i see? Please...pretty please....I wonder why....are you sure it's not BLUE BALLS..? Jus my darling good naughty boy...may you be as psykotik as ever and scare me away...hehehe....YOU're Fucked UP! :) HAVE A NICE DAY!

My response would be: It got screwed the moment i thought it up. And yes, i do know it's good(/shit). What me? Pervert? A little American pie/Dumb and Dumber/Kingpin/Road Trip/There's Something About Mary/Me, Myself and Irene kind of humor won't hurt. Get worse? Um. Probably. I'll moderate myself. You wanna see? No. And nope, it's not blue balls. Yes, i'll try to scare everyone away from this page. Me? Fucked up? Wrong. FUBAR more like. Heheh.

8:36am@ July 8 2000 Remember how i said that i got 4 (four) requests from people asking me if i could make a site for them? Well, out of the 4 (four), i carried out one of those requests and fixed up her site. Her original site's at stop.at/lianaradzak (banner hell) and her newly 'improved' site (courtesy of me) can be found at lianaradzak.cjb.net (bannerless). The content is all hers. I just fixed up the layout and the HTML. Very generically. Nothing fancy. Crap really. My design i mean. Not her site.

Friday, July 7, 2000

7:52pm@ July 7 2000 These instructions are for Jeff because he's an internet newbie and he doesn't know how to delete his history. (In case he ever surfs porn using his brother's pc)

First if you're using NETSCAPE, look up and click on EDIT
You should find PREFERENCE somewhere there. Click on it.
Once in, look under navigator and you'll find CLEAR HISTORY and CLEAR LOCATION BAR. Click on those if you want.
If you wanna go deeper (uh huh huh) look under ADVANCED and click on CACHE. You should know what to do then.

If you're using IE, then....you're fucked. But you should know how to work IE. We use it in school. You surfed shannonelizabeth.com in school using my account you bastard. But that was when we were still using Netscape. But you're still a bastard.

7:32pm@ July 7 2000 Squirrel Boy of uptohere.net fame left a somewhat pleasing post in my guestbook prompting me to visit uptohere.net and request them to host my site. Of course, we all know that the request will most likely be denied. We'll see what happens. Oh, Rob from Australia never replied to the e-mail that i sent him. Oh well. The fun's over i guess.

"Snootch to the mutha fuckin booooooootch!"

5:11pm@ July 7 2000 I feel like picking on Jeff today. Why? Because i can. I'd like to present to you a gallery of 'doctored' pictures of Jeff that i've made over the past year or so.

* This is Jeff during the day.
* This is Jeff during the night.
* This is Jeff trying to do something to Catherine Zeta Jones.
* And finally 'Blair Jeff'.

Jeff is my fat tubby bitch.

3:57pm@ July 7 2000 Ga ga goo goo

3:39pm@ July 7 2000 All of you who are old enough to remember surely do remember the Smurfs right? Okay, this is what got me thinking: A whole village of Smurfs. You got your Papa Smurf, Granpa Smurf, Baby Smurf and a whole lot of other Smurfs. (Jokey, Brainy, Vanity etc etc) Since there's a Baby Smurf, it does prove that Smurfs can have children right? (Hence having sex) And in the whole little village of Smurfs, all of them are guy smurfs and only ONE (1) of em is a 'grown up' girl; Smurfette. A whole village of guys and only one girl.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. Think reeeeeeeally hard bout it.

2:25pm@ July 7 2000 My left ball feels moist.

12:25pm@ July 7 2000 I'm a very very busy little bee today. I'll try to update more later in the day. But then again, i update more than i should in one day most of the time.

Thursday, July 6, 2000

11:30pm@ July 6 2000 Burglar Fingered by His Own Finger

Police investigating a burglary in southeast Spain came up with more than just fingerprints to help identify the culprit -- they found one of his fingers.

Woah. Talk about shocking headlines. That headline had me doing a double take the first time i saw it. Full story here. Anyway, in other news, within just 24 hours of today, i've gotten 4 (four) requests from people asking me to make websites for them. Woah...

9:30pm@ July 6 2000 It's a weird feeling when your ex-girlfriend and her cousins/sisters give you a prank call using a fucked up indian prank call voice. It happened to me at exactly 4:13pm today when my ex no. 6 called. Why i didn't bother mentioning it earlier on escapes my mind. Anyway, they fessed up in the end, told me that they 'like the site' and that i should post more 'funny' stuff. Did it boost my ego? You damn skippy it did. Oh yes, i'm so full of (sh)it. Sign my guestbook and i'll be even more full of (sh)it.

8:16pm@ July 6 2000 Oh yeah, some of the image links may be broken. Sucks doesn't it? It'll all be fixed very very very soon. Things like this happen when you make huge ass updates. Oh and look what i found out. You know the guy who signed my guestbook using the name Rob? Well, i got his IP address thing or whatever.

async158-mel-isp-16.nas.one.net.au

Anyway, it's somebody from Australia. I wonder if Rob's in Australia. This is fun. But it can't really be Rob of stickdeath.com fame. The guy who wrote in my GB is an illiterate little shit with bad nonsensical english. =)

7:22pm@ July 6 2000 Well, i must be superman or something (not) cos i totally redesigned this FUBAR site in just under 5 hours or so. Don't like the new look? Well, i don't care really! Changes? Well, i totally got rid of the pics page because if you wanna look at pics of people and such, just go to my other site. The banners at the bottom of every page if you're blind. Oh there's quite a good posting about blowjobs for girls in my guestbook. Oh and, if you ever wanna post something long like that, just do it in the forum okay Sam's cousin from England?

6:35pm@ July 6 2000 It's coming! It's coming! Tonight the surprise is coming!

3:12pm@ July 6 2000 Speaking of which, i've been getting lots of messages and new contacts on ICQ from people that i don't even know. Apparently they all have been to this site and they 'like it'. Ooooh...aaaahhhh....Anyway, there's probably gonna be a 'little' surprise coming tomorrow for all you 'loyal' readers. I'll see if it can be done or not. Oh and i actually e-mailed Rob just before this. Oooh..this'll be FUN!

3:03pm@ July 6 2000 Hey guess what? I just recieved my very first abusive guestbook signing. And apparently it's from someone who's actually semi-famous. Claiming to be Rob Lewis, the webmaster of stickdeath.com. Wow. Didn't think that someone like him actually visits this site. Funny. Anyway, if it is him, i'm very very happy. If it's not then i'm very very amused. =)

Wednesday, July 5, 2000

11:45pm@ July 5 2000 Funny enough but i watched The Patriot again instead of The Perfect Storm. I am gonna go watch it after this though. Just thought i'd tell you this. For no reason. Oh and i also switched around my two guestbooks. The one from HTML Gear is really fucked up and i don't like it. It's become my backup GB now. And my backup GB has become my main GB. Go sign it. In fact, i'm begging you. Sign it even if you've already signed it once or twice or three times. Enlighten me. Give me a bigger ego. =P.....|

7:56pm@ July 5 2000 For some reason there's a picture of a man with a very erect penis in my forum. And no i didn't put it there.

7:50pm@ July 5 2000 Hey i'm gonna be watching The Perfect Storm tonight. You're not.

7:00pm@ July 5 2000 I was watching Wishmaster 2: Evil Never Dies last night. That was a good bad movie. I mean it's so bad that it's good you know? Anyway,i found it pretty amusing during the part where this lawyer fucks himself after his client wished to that wishmaster for his lawyer to 'go fuck himself'. That was funny/sick. I'm gonna go out to town now and buy me a coupla movies on VCD.

4:21pm@ July 5 2000 Now for a nice look at an Thora 'American Beauty' Birch, click here.

4:13pm@ July 5 2000 How cool is it when someone wants to play ' I'm Natasha Henstridge' with you? Very cool especially if it's a girl. What's 'I'm Natasha Henstridge' you ask? Well, it's like this: You need two (2) people in order to play. First, you close your eyes and pretend you're Natasha Henstridge. Then the other person closes their eyes and pretends they're Natasha Henstridge. Then you both touch each other. Keep your eyes closed though or it'll spoil the whole effect.

Cool huh?

12:55pm@ July 5 2000 Hmmm. I'll actually be expecting a nice slice of pie to be dropping by my place for bout oooh say...2 hours or so later on in that day. I don't know what we'll be doing though... =)

If i have nothing else better to do later, i'll just post more naughty pics.

Tuesday, July 4, 2000

6:50pm@ July 4 2000 Finally completed Soldier of Fortune. Now i can uninstall the damn 700 meg beast. As if you'd care. Anyway, here's preview of what Scary Movie is gonna be like:

Scary Movie (July 7th): From a guy being stabbed to death by an erect penis, to another guy diving into his girlfriend's pubic hair with a weedwacker, the jokes in this promise not only to be the most controversial since the "South Park" movie, but also potentially steal the crown from the Farrellys because it makes fun of the two fields which are entirely fair game - sex and movies.

Can't hardly wait. I'm psyched.

4:32pm@ July 4 2000 Apparently fat Jeff bought me a Bruce Campbell movie from Singapore. I like Bruce Campbell. I've been wanting to write about him on my site a week ago but never had any excuse to. Now i do. He's also voice starring in my Tachyon-The Fringe game that i bought last week. I've basically seen all his movies and played all the games that he voice starred in. If you don't like Bruce Campbell then you suck ass.

"Hail to the king baby"

3:53pm@ July 4 2000 I must say that i do like how Mandy Moore kinda like...touches her left boob towards the end of her Center Stage video.

3:45pm@ July 4 2000 Woah. Just woke up. I have no idea if Rod ever came today. I doubt it though. But if he did then i suck for sleeping in so late. Hey, ya can't blame me. I didn't sleep AT ALL last night. Anyway, those chickens i must say are really funny lookin. Anyway, i think it's about time i post another nude pic. Here's a real gem. I got Reese Witherspoon topless pics. Woo hoo. You know, the girl from Cruel Intentions. Heheh. Man, i need a life....

6:50am@ July 4 2000 It's independence day today in the US or better known as the Fourth of July. Anyway, as you might notice, i'm up pretty early today eh? Well, actually i didn't even sleep at all last night. Been watching movies all night. Watched Chicken Run. That was a good one. Them chickens were freaky. Constantly smiling and all. See for yourself. The Patriot was very good. I guess Devlin and Emmerich didn't fuck it up this time. Stargate was good, ID4 was very good, Godzilla deserves to be in the hall of ass but The Patriot is up there with the very good. Good job guys. I also didn't expect the comedy bits in Patriot to be there at all. But what was there made me laugh. Also watched Rules Of Engagement. That was an alright movie. Considering it was made by one hit wonder William 'Exorcist' Friedkin. The next two (2) movies i'm looking out for now are The Perfect Storm and Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon. Damn...the way that cannonball took off that guy's head in The Patriot...musta reeeeeaally hurt. And that fucking redcoat, i've never hated a bad guy as much as i hated Kefka from Final Fantasy 3 on SNES....until now. Watch The Patriot to see what i mean.

Monday, July 3, 2000

9:57pm@ July 3 2000 - Wow. I've written so much bullshit today.

9:30pm@ July 3 2000 - Ah...looks like i won't be going to 'the big city' this Wednesday after all. Well, not THIS Wednesday anyway but the probably the next. Also it seems like Rod might be coming down here to KB tomorrow. We'll see if that's happening of not. Should be great if he does though. Tonight, i'm gonna be having a 'Mel Gibson's night out' of sorts. Gonna be watching The Patriot and Chicken Run back to back. Pretty cool that i'm gonna be watching The Patriot seeing that the fourth of July's tomorrow. Anyway, i had two (2) hot dogs for dinner tonight. With sausages so big that they put the size of my dick to shame.

1:10pm@ July 3 2000 - Just called up Oliver and he's getting a medical at 2 pm. haha. And yesssss...! Adi IS back. Called him up and i guess me and Oliver are gonna all meet up with him this Wednesday in 'the big city'. Oooh. I don't know how long i'll be away from Wednesday onwards and i don't know if i'll have access to a PC to update on those days but hey, nobody'll miss me right? Anyway, i'm actually supposed to help Gina (A very very very fine slice of pie)out with her site but as of yet, i haven't even touched on it yet. It's a pretty freaky site. Don't say i didn't warn ya. Anyway Gina, i'll work on it as soon as i'm free.

12:19pm@ July 3 2000 - I could be really mean and post up her pic here on this site but i'm wondering....should i? I'll leave it to you. Just post something in the forum here with the subject line: POST HER FUCKING PICTURE. All other subject lines not acceptable. And if you really don't give a damn what she looks like, i won't bother posting it. Haha.

12:01pm@ July 3 2000 - There's a nice little rant i did about my last (failed) relationship on the 28th of June if you're even interested and if you haven't already read it.The people who did read it have all commented on how, 'funny' it was. One slice even said, "What kind of relationship did you two have anyway?!". I guess that's what i get for going outwith a forbidden slice.

11:45am@ July 3 2000 - You know what? A really great friend..no wait, a really legendary friend of mine Adi will be back in the country soon if not already. Heck, he might already be in the country (back from Australia) for all i know. And i really wanna go meet up with him sooner or later. Thing is he lives in the 'big city' and i live like...100 km away. Which pretty much sucks...transportation wise. Yep, you could could even say i live in the hicksville part of this country. In fact, some people actually do refer to KB as the Texas of Brunei. I think i'll go ring up Oliver and make some plans and...

(ooh...gratitious swearing time..)

...shit.

Sunday, July 2, 2000

5:50pm@ July 2 2000 - Mariah in a bikini. And no i'm not obsessed with her. I just don't have anything else to do.

4:34pm@ July 2 2000 - Really. Go take a look. They really do seem to get bigger everytime. I swear.

2:44pm@ July 2 2000 - Is it just me or does Mariah Carey's breasts get bigger in every new music video she makes?

1:30pm@ July 2 2000 - Oh god no. I have nothing to do today. I watched a supremely shitty movie last night. Ghost Dog. It was beyond shitty. Never eeeeeever attempt to watch that movie. I'd rather be raped by a broom than watch that abysmal movie again.

Saturday, July 1, 2000

11:20pm@ July 1 2000 - I've decided i'll just miss out on Conan again just so i can stay onlineand update. Even though i've got absolutely no new ideas since i last updated. Anyway, there's a can of Coca-Cola light on my desk. And a copy of PCXL magazine next to my mouse.Interesting huh? Hey, to all of you out there who actually do bother coming here can you please answer me this:Why do you come here? What is your reason? Email me:webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com

I'm just gonna go watch Conan now. Be back tomorrow.

10:55pm@ July 1 2000 - Went to sleep at around 6 pm and i just woke up. I feel like crap. Anyway, i missed Jay Leno on TV. Guess i just gotta settle for Conan O'Brien at 11pm. I have actually no idea what to write about right now. Guess i've got a case of 'just woken up' syndrome. Anyway, for your enlightenment, i'm on IRC right now and i'm gonna post up a snippet of what someone said:

{`LiLDeviL} u the webmaster of fubar?
{psykotik} yep...
{`LiLDeviL} ur site ROCKSS mann..

Oh boy, nothing like a big ego boost just right after you've woken up.

5:10pm@ July 1 2000 - Once upon a time a few months ago a friend of mine came over to my place with a bunch of her friends. One of her friends, who i swear looks exactly like Neve Campbell but with shorter hair, is a lesbian/bisexual. (Cool) At the time, i had a cat. For lack of a better name, my cat's name was Kitty Kat. Anyway, i brought out my 'Kitty Kat' and showed it to said lesbian/bisexual. She was so taken aback by the cat that all she could do was hug it, pet it, squeeze it, kiss it etc etc. She loved it so much that she wanted to take it home. So much so that she actually lifted up her shirt, exposing the red bra that she was wearing, and actually put the cat inside under ther shirt. Damn lucky cat i say.

7:13am@ July 1 2000 - It's way too early for me to be fully awake so i'm going back to sleep.

6:52am@ July 1 2000 - "No really, don't."

6:19am@ July 1 2000 - Hoooo boy. I'm up reeeeealy early today. Those of you who are in the US reading this are probably still stuck in June 31st when it's the 1st of July already here. Independence day weekend this is. Looking forward to watching The Patriot starring Mel Gibson. Should be Braveheart-y. So it should be good. Unless Devlin and Emmerich screw it up again like they did with Godzilla. Size Does Matter? How bout Plot Does Matter. As usual, i still have some gunk up my throat that i haven't yet disposed of. And whenever i cough, i can feel the shit just jiggle, wobble and pulsate about my throatal regions. If there even is such a region. I haven't been updating my other site since i first opened this one. In fact, you could even say it's dead. Think of that one as the 'resource center' or whatever. This site is now the official site for news and updates within my so called life. And if you ain't down with that, i've got two words for you: suck it. (*Groan*)