For the safety of your own thoughts and feelings, if your name is Zoe, you DO NOT want to click on ‘more’. If you choose to, then it’s your choice. Just don’t say that i didn’t warn you.
For everyone else, you’re probably better off not reading this post either. I just wrote it for me. But hey, it’s your CHOICE. Read it if you want to. Just don’t give me any shit for it if you don’t agree with what i have to say.
So. Almost a month later, and i’m finally moving on, actually taking my mind off of her by thinking about other girls, and she proceeds to mindfuck me AGAIN, for the third time, giving out these fucking mixed signals again on her fucking LJ. And it’s not fucking fair.
….I smiled non-stop up until last night, which is when I read his site… hm… sure, it stung a little… but that’s expected, isn’t it? If anything, it just proves that this has all been for the better. See, I found myself thinking about it all, and wondering if I had made a mistake… if I should have taken him back… I almost called him up. Then I read that… and well… *shrug*
ANYWAY, lets move on to MY love life. Isabel once said something along the lines of good sex making everything more tolerable. I guess she’s right 😉 LOL What a whore.
WTF is that? Seriously. How can you wanna call me up and wondering if you should’ve ‘taken me back’ after all the things you’ve already done with that fucking limey cocksucking alien bitch. I mean fucking hell, you officially get with this fucknut like within 2 weeks of us breaking up. Not to mention the fact that he stayed over at your place a week before that. Oh sure, you didn’t sleep together at the time but he’s probably already fucking you by NOW. How can you even be THINKING and WONDERING about getting back together with me? That is fucking NOT fair to ME and it’s not fair to that shithead. Not that i give a fuck about what he would feel like. He could fucking die for all i care.
So let’s see. Hm. Fucker stays over with her a week after we break up. Hm. She makes things official with the fucker a week later. Two weeks after the break up. It’s been a month now, they’re definitely sleeping together and probably already fucking each other. At this point, i really don’t care anymore. In fact, i hope he fucking knocks her up or something. I hope she cheats on him someday. Just like how she cheated on me TWICE and lied to me about it. I should’ve just broken things off with her after she told me she cheated on me. She told me fucking 3 days before our 1 year anniversary. She kept that little secret to herself for fucking 4 months. And it wasn’t like i didn’t suspect anything either. I did, and when i confronted her about it around the time of the incident, she came down on me for not trusting her.
BALLS.
It stings huh? What stings? The fact that i’ve finally gotten over you? After a whole month of me being MISERABLE no less. Over the fact that i’ve started to have a silly little crush over a girl i probably don’t have a chance in hell to even be FRIENDS with? Would that finally justify you not feeling guilty for finally being able to fuck some other guy? And to sleep with him?
Don’t give me all this “hm maybe i should take him back” shit. Not now. Because it’s bullshit and it’s just more MINDFUCKING on your part. I told you once before. NO MORE FUCKING MIXED MESSAGES.
Yeah go ahead and fucking shrug things off because i have a fucking CRUSH on another girl. I mean, it’s not like i’m sleeping with her or anything. “Oh no. He has a crush on someone. Now i feel better about sleeping and fucking this new guy i have”
Like it didn’t sting even more for me knowing that some cuntface is staying over with you. And eventually sleeping with you. And fucking you.
Seriously. I’ve had enough with girls like you. Enough of this fucking 19 year old teenager bullshit with your fucking goth angst alternative lifestyle i hate my family i hate my life immature teenage HORSESHIT.
The next girl i’m going out with is going to be at least 21 or over. I’d like to have a NORMAL adult relationship with someone for once.
Hindsight is a wonderful thing.
Anyhow. For those of you who actually read this, comment. And maybe answer this question for me. Have you ever been mindfucked by someone? Especially after a breakup? IT FUCKING SUCKS.
I hate mindfuckers.
I was fucked big time by a girl I was into. I had liked her for a year without any reaction from her, then she asked me out and cancelled 5 minutes after.
I went from hysteric fucking bliss to crying myself to sleep.
#1 | Comment by Kingolf — April 20, 2003 @ 6:26 am
That’s some really disturbing post. Anyhow i should think it put u on the relieve side a little eh? Been mindfucked a couple of times before. Not usually on breakups though..usually through arguements…is sucks yes
#2 | Comment by tiberian_x — April 20, 2003 @ 6:27 am
Nobody fucks my mind, because I don’t let them. You could go as far as saying my mind is unfuckable, but…..don’t. Just because it would be really stupid if you actually said that out loud.
Girls are stupid evil dumbs, I suggest you become a monk. Monks are fucking cool; they get to have really stupid haircuts and wear dresses and nobody gives a fuck, because they’re monks. Sweet…
#3 | Comment by Bubba — April 20, 2003 @ 6:47 am
Don’t be monk. Monk’s don’t get laid (at least not by women).
Stop reading her fucking site you big ilk! CUT THE TIES!!!! Only then, when you reach the state of true apathy will you find peace and really move on.
#4 | Comment by grud — April 20, 2003 @ 7:09 am
Women are stupid, they can lay themselves! Monk power!!!
#5 | Comment by Bubba — April 20, 2003 @ 7:17 am
i will go chow yun fat on her site! bulletproof monk!! haiyah!!
#6 | Comment by Justin — April 20, 2003 @ 7:19 am
Oh, and hey, she at least said you were good with the sex. That’s a compliment. Of course, it’s a partial backhanded slap, but also a compliment.
Actually, it’s great advertising…..i.e., the sex was so good, I put up with a lot of b.s. from him.
#7 | Comment by grud — April 20, 2003 @ 7:20 am
Yes, monks can fly! Reeee!!!!
#8 | Comment by Bubba — April 20, 2003 @ 7:20 am
i think she meant with him.
not that i wasn’t good though. haha.
or maybe i’m not. sigh.
I AM TEH SUCK IN BED. =(
#9 | Comment by Justin — April 20, 2003 @ 7:22 am
You’re pretty good in bed actually….I mean, not that I would know. Just…that’s what I’ve heard….around….the….house….or…in my head…or my fantasies. ='(
#10 | Comment by Bubba — April 20, 2003 @ 7:28 am
I’m a virgin…..so I guess I am also bad in bed. 🙁
#11 | Comment by pangwinking — April 20, 2003 @ 7:49 am