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Monday, April 30, 2001

Calendar - 10:24pm April 30 2001
Well as some of you may already know, i'll be leaving back for Malaysia next week. This upcoming 6th of May actually. So this is literally like my LAST week here... with Sophie. Which really really sucks. So we were discussing this unfortunate fact last weekend and we weren't too sure about when exactly the 6th of May will be.

Will it be on Sunday? Saturday? Or heaven forbid, Friday??

We really hoped it wouldn't be on a Friday. Considering the fact that i'd be coming down on a Thursday to see her next. If i left on a Friday, i wouldn't be able to see her. EVER.

So we made an educated guess that the 6th of May would be on a Sunday. Which gives me plenty of time to spend with her if i came down on a Thursday this week.

So this morning, i, being bored out of my freakin' mind, decided to actually confirm this 'educated guess' by looking it up. I looked the 6th of May on a calender and lo and behold... the 6th of May befalls on a Friday!!!

I nearly wanted to cry.

Until i noticed that i was actually looking at the month of April. The 6th of April fell on a Friday y'see... but yeah, the 6th of May does indeed fall on a Sunday so yay me.

Anyway, this post was not meant to be funny and no, there is no punchline.



ICQ cont. - 6:09pm April 30 2001
Okay. Now she's asking me what my house looks like. And how big it is. And why i think it's big.

I want to die now.



ICQ - 6:07pm April 30 2001
I just installed ICQ for my Mac today. And right now, i'm talking to one of the most godawfully BORING-EST persons i've ever met online. I don't even know how she found me. This chick randomly messages me and start asking me about my freakin' school of all things. How boring can you get?

Is it possible to block people on ICQ? I haven't used ICQ in like a year. I hate ICQ. Never talk to me on ICQ. Unless your name is Sophie or if you have breasts the size of Australia.



??? - 5:45pm April 30 2001
Is Antwon really gone? Somebody wrote that he'd died in a car crash. He hasn't updated since the 28th. Is he really dead?

Say it ain't so.

(Update - 5:54pm: Waitaminute...he's not dead! He just updated! Rejoice!)



My bad - 5:03pm April 30 2001
Actually those sites aren't all that hot. What the hell was i thinking?



Best MP3 sites IMHO - 4:13pm April 30 2001
Go look. You'll thank me for it.

Maybe not.



Priorities - 3:55pm April 30 2001
You know... you're probably gonna be hearing a lot of the name 'Sophie' in the next few coupla posts or so. God knows i've already mentioned her name more than enough times in the past week or so. It's probably like a Guiness World Record by now. But hey, what can i say? It's normal. At least i think it is. I mean, Rod mentions Annie alot, John makes lots of references to Angela, and hell, even Thess does it sometimes. Mentioning the names of each of their significant others.

So yeah, cut me some slack if i happen to mention Sophie's name again for the 300th time in any of my upcoming posts. If i had my way, she'd be all that i'd be posting about. But in the fair interest of all you readers out there who may or may not give a shit, i still gotta diversify my posts a lil' bit just to keep up this little known thing called 'variety'.

So maybe i got a little slack at posting over this past weekend. But could you blame me? I mean, i had other priorities to take care of. Believe you me, it's not like i didn't have anyone there to remind me that i had a site to take care of. What with Olivia giving me updates of what you people have been saying in my little abuse box and Dan telling me that i should treat my readers more better and Sophie constantly reminding me to post.... =]

But yeah, i was busy doing other things. So sue me. No doubt my overall hit count has suffered over the past coupla days but hey, it's no big deal. It's not like i get money from the hits that i receive or anything.

Speaking or receiving things. I received quite a number of e-mails over the past week or so. Most of them are outdated by now... if i were to post them up here. Like, they be out of context... you know? Somthing like that. I can't find the right words to explain what i mean. But hey, in the interest of serving you, the readers, your not so daily dose of fubar reader e-mail, here're a couple of 'em anyway:

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To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
Subject: guten
From: Rock Janecek megalob@jps.net
Date: Fri, Apr 27 2001 10:42:29 PM -0700

Hey dude, I currently don't link to your site or nothing but uhh, some other sites do, and they's good people!

http://oblivion.semtext.net/

Anyway, the point is, my site is struggling and blah blah etc, and a redistribution of wealth would be all fantastic.

I think the site is good too, so you could go there and be like "hey, it is a website" and live your life unaffected. But I think it's good.

Oh yeah, if you've read this far, I make terrible music with two other dudes. We've made $7.50

http://www.mp3.com/jizm

Regards,
Rock Janecek
megalob@jps.net/ megalob@stupid.com
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Well you heard the man, go visit his site! It's struggling for god's sake! A struggling website is not a good thing. And check out the man's music too. It's gotta be good for him to make $7.50 out of it.

Okay so maybe i said i'd post up 'a coupla of 'em' e-mails up here and know, i would actually post up but you wanna know why i won't? BECAUSE I CAN'T. And you wanna know why? BECAUSE THEY WERE SENT IN HTML AND MY STUPID E-MAIL SERVER WON'T OPEN THEM UP SOMETIMES.

I'll post em up later. If i can get em to open up.

Please don't send me HTML e-mails.



Crummy - 1:17pm April 30 2001
Actually, i only woke up that early because i had a terrible nightmare. Yes, that's right, a terrible nightmare.

It was terrible.

I'd post about it right here but it's just too terrible to post about. Terrible nightmares are... horrible.



*yawn* - 6:56am April 30 2001
Can anyone tell me what the hell i'm doing up at 6:56am in the morning?

Sunday, April 29, 2001

See? - 9:14pm April 29 2001
I am always right. I told everyone that Run Lola Run was a great movie... but did anyone believe? Noooo...

I just got around to buying Run Lola Run (after Justin's glowing praise, I had been planning to for a while), and damn! What a film! - Simon

What a film indeed. Well at least SOMEBODY bothered to listen. So remember kiddies, always listen to my film recommendations if you know what's good for you.



Phone call - 8:56pm April 29 2001
I got one of the biggest shocks ever (well... not as shocking as finding out that Sophie liked me... but close) when i got this one phone call today when i was on the way to town with Oliver. This girl calls me up and asks me if i was who i really was. Asking me twice as if she couldn't really believe that it was me. Then she goes on to ask if i remembered her. I had totally no clue at the time. I told her that i probably do remember her but it's just that i couldn't recognize her voice. She dropped some hints like the fact that we haven't spoken in like three years etc etc... but i still couldn't remember.

So she finally spit it out.

It was Susan. A really good friend of mine who'd left for Malaysia to study there like 3 years ago. And we'd lost contact ever since. She did send me a letter back then (like a REAL letter, handwritten with fancy handwriting and flowery girly paper and all that, NOT an e-mail) but i just never did get around to replying to it. Felt so guilty about that when she brought it up just now. Haha. But shit, it was great hearing from her again. I mean, i thought i'd never get to talk to her ever again. Apparently she's in back In Brunei for her holidays (just arrived yesterday in fact) and she just decided to call me up. Wow. I didn't think she'd even remember me. Anyway, i told her that i was also studying in Malaysia right now (she didn't know and was equally as shocked as i was of her calling me up) and apparently she lives quite close to where i am over there.

I think she had this crush on me once before. Years ago. She seemed quite eager to wanna meet up with me sometime. She lives up in the city so maybe i'll try to see her there next week if i'm not too busy. It'd be great to meet up with an old friend though.

Shit, i've been meeting up with heaps of old friends this past 2 weeks. And new ones too.

What a great holiday.



Saturday/Sunday - 6:51pm April 29 2001
Saturday was good. In fact, it was a great day. I basically slept in till like 11am or something like that. Sophie had to go to school for her exams so she had to get up pretty early. Probably not exactly something she was looking forward to. Add to the fact that she barely had any sleep the night before.

Caught a bus to the city the day before. Met up with Sophie at this Delifrance place at the Yayasan mall and headed off to Gadong shortly thereafter. I've pretty much already posted about what happened in Gadong so no need to mention that here. Went back to her place later that evening and just basically chilled out i guess. Dan wasn't home because he was staying over at Ewan's place that night. So Sophie and i just basically talked and got to know each other etc etc bla bla bla. Talked for about 4 hours straight really. Or was it 3 hours? maybe even 6 hours in total. Something like that anyway. But by that third hour or so, there was just so much tension building up that it just had to give at some point. And it did. But i won't be discussing the details of that here of course. I'll leave it up to your imagination.

But anyway, we talked some more till like 2am. It was great. Just talking and being honest about everything. I'd told her that under normal circumstances, things wouldn't be going as fast as it was but considering the fact that i'll be leaving next week, i just said why not just cut all the bullshit and just go right into it. No small talk, no bullshit, just being honest and just making the most of what little time we have left.

It was just perfect. Not having to beat around the bush. Just being honest and all. Haven't felt this good in like fuckin ages.

Which brings us back to Saturday. So i'm still asleep, and Sophie comes back with Roger and Dian in tow. And there i am looking like crap. But oh well. Met Dian for the first time ever. Been hearing her name being mentioned like since forever. Finally got to meet her in the flesh. She's really nice. Cute and bubbly some would say. But i thought she was nice. I probably didn't make too much of an impression on her considering the fact that i looked like crap and barely said anything that morning.

I kinda lost my voice y'see... talking all night. Heh.

Which is pretty weird for me. I'm not usually big on words. I can be so fucking quiet sometimes, you'd think that i was uncomfortable or mute or something. But naw, i'm just a really quiet guy. Especially in public. But get me into a room one on one with you and i'll open up. I just realized that when i was talking to Sophie the night before. I only start to really open up when i'm in a private one on one situation. I guess i have a thing about speaking my thoughts in public.

I just go into 'silent mode' whenever i'm out in public with anyone.

Sure i still talk and shit but i'm just not as big on words as i am in a non-public situation.

The four of us went to Gadong again that day to meet up with Ed, Josh, Ewan and Dan. They were all at the fucking counterstrike place playing, oddly enough, Red Alert 2. But anyway, then we had to wait for Annie to arrive so we all just chilled at the Piano Lounge. Talking and shit. Ed basically reenacted a whole episode of an Ali G show.

I have NEVER seen an Ali G show. Quite sad.

Annie FINALLY arrived. Fashionably late some would say. But with a reason because she had to walk all the way from her place to get to where we were. Which is pretty rough i think. Not that she lives that far away or anything but having to walk alone? Felt kinda sorry for her for some reason.

But anyway, we all went to McDonalds to eat. Ewan, Ed and Josh eventually had to leave so the res of us eventually went into town soon afterwards. Went to that Yayasan mall again because Dian wanted to get this jacket that she'd had her eye on or something. The girls went window shopping and doing all sorts of other girly stuff while Roger, Dan and i just stood outside each store the girls went into. I mean, come on, boutiques just aren't our scene.

It's not as bad as having to go into a Lingerie store or anything but still...

Anyway, we all went our seperate ways later in the day and Sophie, Dan and i all went back to their place. I'd brought Starlancer for PC for dan to play around with. So that kept him occupied for a coupla hours while... i did something else.

Of which you do not need to know about.

Skip to a coupla hours ahead: Watched Evil Dead 2 with Sophie. I love that movie. As cheesy as it is. Always manages to was make me laugh despite me having seen it like 300 times over. And watched Army Of Darkness halfway through before we had a slight change of plans.

Of which you do not need to know about.

One thing i forgot to mention was the fact that i unexpectedly bumped into John and Oliver at Yayasan while all of us were just chillin' outside by the fountains. Fuckin' hell it was great to see them. Thought i'd never get to see them what with me always being up in the city every weekend now. We just caught up on old times and shit and just basically bringing each other up to speed and all. Possibly the funniest thing John said, to me anyway, was: "To think, the last time you saw us, i was still a virgin".

I thought that was amusing.

So both John and Oliver'd gotten girlfriends for themselves since i left so it's great for them. But hey, i'm with Sophie now so hey, i guess everything's working out for all of us.

Gosh, i've just got so much to say about how things are with Sophie right now but i can't. It's just too personal. And i don't post up overly personal here on this site. But just so you know, this thing we're having, isn' just a 'fling' or anything like that. It's so much more and it's all good. I wouldn't expect anybody to understand or to even believe me but it's true. As corny as it may sound.

But that's all you need to know.

Woke up to the sound of my mobile ringing this morning. It was Oliver. I'd told him that if he needed a ride back home (he lives just down my street), he could just call me up and we'd get picked up by my parental units some place (they were picking me up). So me and Sophie went to Yayasan... again, and waited for Oliver at Delifrance. He came, like half an hour late or something but it was alright. More time with Sophie it meant. Anyway, Olivia turned up and joined us for a while. So it was pretty cool. At least Sophie'd had someone to talk to while me and Oliver just talked and shit. Went to KFC and got Oliver to spot me a small whipped potato. God i love KFC whipped potato.

Anyway, my parents finally came to pick us up like... an hour later than expected but it was cool. More time with Sophie it meant. But hey, they came and i had to leave eventually so off me and Oliver went. Told Sophie that i'd be back next Thursday so yeah...

I still wish i didn't have to go back though. But she has school next week so yeah, it wouldn't've been realistic if i'd stayed on longer.

Long car ride back. Oliver fell asleep.

Got dropped off at Oliver place. I hung around for a while. Talked a bit more before we decided to go into town because Oliver needed to get a haircut.

So Oliver gets his hair cut at this Pheonix salon that's run by fags but hey, they give good haircuts. Fags or not. I remember me and John driving down into town at midnight with spray cans in our hands and John just pops out of the car to tag the word "Poof" on the wall just outside that salon a coupla years ago. He also managed to tag all the seats of all the bus stops along the side of this one long road with his little inverted skateboard tag of his.

We were very naughty back then.

Talked some more with Oliver just catching up with everything that's been goin on since i left and shit. Yup, been doing a lot of catching up with him. And we both went home after that.

And here i am, writing a post that nobody'll probably even care to read but hey... live with it.

This is a weblog.

Sidenote: i told you that me having a life is bad for the site. I don't get to update that much if i have a life. I'll be up in the city again next Thursday so yeah, too bad so sad if i don't update. This site isn't the center of my universe so there will be times when i'll actually have better things to do than to just update. Like for example, stuff like spending time with Sophie, going to school, hanging out with friends, cramming for exams, sleeping, getting laid, world domination... you know...

The usual stuff.



Monkeys are definitely flying - 4:36pm April 29 2001
Okay, honestly speaking, i have got so much running through my head right now that i don't think i'll be able to post about it all. Obviously i had a really good weekend. Good enough for me to totally abandon the site and not give a shit about posting that's for sure. And some of you are obviously expecting something 'juicy' to read about concerning my weekend with Sophie but sorry to say, there ain't gonna be any of that here on this site. If you want juice, you're just gonna have to go to the supermarket.

As you can see, i let Sophie write a post here on this site. Talk about a contrast in posting styles eh? But just for fun, i'm gonna rewrite that whole post in my own way from my own point of view:

It's Justin here, and no, i don't have breasts the size of Oz (Damn). I just thought i'd update coz everbody's been hassling me to do so and because Sophie told me to. We went to Gadong the other day and i found $50 fuckin' dollars on the ground. It pays to constantly look down at the ground. I picked it and was like, "Holy shit! $50!" and showed it to Sophie. Of course, i was the one who found it so it's MINE. ALL MINE. But i said i've give half of it to her just because... well... i wanted to. I bought a DVD with the money i found. Enemy Of The State.

Played a game of pool. Two games actually. I can't believe she beat me the first time. Actually, i didn't really lose... i let her win. Ha. But i won the second one though. But it was a fluke.

Okay so technically maybe she did win both of them. She would've won the second game too because she was literaly kicking my ass till she scratched on her last shot.

I'd still like to think i was better though.

Saw Olivia at the fucking counterstrike place. I never play counterstrike. You know, i swear, it seems like Olivia actually lives at that counterstrike place. I mean, all the times i've seen her over the past two weekends, was at that counterstrike place. I bet she has a room and a bed in the back or something. She's always there. Sophie nearly fainted that day. She hasn't been eating that much lately and it was definitely the lack of food that got to her. Went to McDonalds and Olivia got her this ugly looking cheeseburger. Brunei McDonalds suck.

Well, since i am on my holidays, i don't have any exams to stress over so um... Haha.

Friday, April 27, 2001

I see monkeys flying! - 8:24pm April 27 2001 - Posted by Sophie
It's Sophie here, and no, i don't have breasts the size of Oz (thank God!). I just thought i'd update coz Justin is over and we're just chillin. We went to Gadong today and Justin found $50 on the ground, so he picked it up (scab! j/k) and he is now $50 richer. Well, $35 now, coz he bought yet another DVD - Enemy of the State. He said he's gonna give me about half of the rest of the money, but i know he won't.

I kicked his ass in a game of pool, but then he won the other one. We ran into Livie at that counterstrike place - i hate that game! Oh yea, i nearly fainted today, coz of lack of food. Livie tried to feed me a cheeseburger, but just looking at it made me sick. I think i'm just stressed about my malay exam tomorrow morning though. That's all from me, if you wanna read more, go to mine and livies site (unless you think it's shite). By the way, i wanna thank all of you who wrote stuff for me in the abuse box!



I am always right - 11:44am April 27 2001
I got up ridiculously early again today. Did the usual. Checked my mail. Got some mail. But guess what? I COULDN'T READ MY MAIL. You know why? Because my e-mail server fucked up again and wouldn't allow me to read HTML encoded e-mails.

WHICH IS WHY I'M IMPLORING YOU ALL TO NOT SEND ME E-MAIL ENCODED IN HTML.

For the love of Kirsten Dunst PLEASE.

Had my usual early morning tormenting session with Evil Suzi. Which is always something to look forward to. Now a coupla months ago, when i was really into my 1995/1996 music craze, i kept on buggin' Suzi to download this one song.

The Freshmen. By the Verve Pipe of course

Suzi, being evil incarnate herself, dismissed the band as sounding, and i quote, "Gay", and saying that it sounds like a sucky song.

So anyway, she IM's me this morning asking me in her cute little evil internet AIM 'voice' saying something like, "Do you know who sings that 'We were only freshmen' song?"

And i say, "The Verve Pipe".

Then she's like, "No no nooo!!!"

And i'm like, "Oh yes yes yes..."

It goes on like that for like 87 million years. You see, Suzi actually likes this 'gay sucky' song. She proclaims, "No!!!! They're supposed to suck!!!". She doesn't wanna admit that it's a good song you see. She didn't know that that was the song i was talking about. I told her it's a good song. But noooooo, she said it was sucky. Hahahaha. Who's laughing now?? =P

She was wrong and i was right. It is a good song. She likes it, i like it and you should too.

Go download it. It's good.

I am always right.



They fuck you with the cellphones - 11:15am April 27 2001
So last December right, i'm in Singapore for my holidays, and i buy myself the new Ericsson T20, which is like better and newer than the T28. Okay so maybe, it's a little fatter but hey, it's a funky lookin' phone. I like it. And i'm thinkin', "Haha, new phone. Won't go obsolete in at least a year"

And now, 4 months later, what does Ericsson do?? They come out with the fuckin'T29. Which is essentially the same as the T20 albeit slimmer. Not as fat you see.

I hate Ericsson.



I am funny - 8:23am April 27 2001

AtreLeGis0143: i need a hand
psykotik2k: use your left one

Thursday, April 26, 2001

Change your clothes - 9:28pm April 26 2001
You know, it's Zil's birthday today. Y'all should like, say hi to her or something. Leave her message. Or e-mail her even. It's the least you can do.

But be gentle though. She's getting quite old. 20 to be exact.

Halfway there towards her mid-life crisis. =]

Happy Birthday Zil. Lotsa love. <3 <3 <3



Ache? - 9:21pm April 26 2001
So i've been having this headache right... for like...the past 2 hours or so before i last posted. And so i pop a pill just five minutes before i posted the last post that you seen below this one. And like fuckin' ten minutes later... bickety bickety BAM... it's fuckin' gone!

Like... woah. That's a pretty fuckin' strong pill man. Whatever's in that thing sure is some good shit to be gettin' ridda that headache like that.

I AM CURED.



Head - 7:32pm April 26 2001
Oh boy. What a perfect time to have a splitting headache. I need to lie down. I'm feelin' a lil woozy here...

Wooo... *plop*



7:00am - 3:10pm April 26 2001
I actually did like... wake up RIDICULOUSLY early this morning. Would've posted but i was too lazy. So i just checked my mail (NO MAIL BY THE WAY. Didn't i just tell you all to E-MAIL ME?), took a snapshot of the poll results (BEFORE IT WAS FUCKED UP BY SOME MORON) and well... 'tormented' (It's fun) Evil Suzi on AIM for a while. Before i went back to sleep.

Exciting stuff no?

You know, personally, i don't know WHY Suzi keeps saying that she looks ugly in her posts. I mean, i'd totally just go all out right now saying how i think she looks fairly hot and all that kinda crap but i don't want to jail.

Ha.

What? Me? Cool? Surely there must be SOME mistake...

Say hi to her sometime.



Ass - 1:50pm April 26 2001
Watched Out Of Sight on DVD earlier this morning. That is one heck of a stylish movie man. Steven Soderbergh is a fuckin' genius of a director. But believe it or not, i still haven't watched Traffic yet despite me getting it on VCD like... months ago. I must watch all of his movies.

I still think J.Lo has a big ass though. There's this one side on view of her in the movie that just shows how big of an ass she has. Shit, it's almost big enough to form it's on website. She should go on a diet. Cut down her food intake in half or something. Or just not eat at all. When you don't eat, your body doesn't have anything to feed off of so with luck, J.Lo's body might just start feeding off her ass and redistributing that fat to her breasts or something.

But yeah, Out Of Sight. Sly, sexy, vastly entertaining film.



*shakes head* - 1:03pm April 26 2001
Tsk tsk tsk. Obviously SOMEBODY'S bitter about this whole Sophie thing to vote like a million times no in the poll just to make it look bad. But luckily i actually saved a snapshot of the results (which is kinda sad really... me actually saving a snapshot of it... but then again, i was gonna use that snapshot in a post but hey, still...) just before 'Mr/Ms i have a problem with that and i will resort to doing childish things like voting a million times and posting up phone numbers in the abuse box' so yeah, the results are back to what they were before.

Oh well, that's just part of the package that come with having a website. Having idiots like these reading it. Which is one of the reasons why Bence quit his site. Too many idiots reading it.

*shrug*

But hey, it's not my problem that somebody has a problem. Deal with it. Go look at some porn or something. Jack off. Relieve yourself. You know you want to.



Just thought i'd post it up here - 12:11am April 26 2001

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Fullname: Annie
Email:
Where are you from?: sorry, still in the throes of a cultural identity crisis
Homepage Name:
Homepage URL:
Comments: Hey Justin, remember me? Well, i'd pretty pissed if u had already forgotten.You have a site here that is constantly interesting. To quote Oscar Wilde, "I love to talk about nothing, it's the only thing i know anything about." I'm teasing of course. Do you update at every oportune moment? Oh, and on the whole Sophie thing...Stop being so nonchalant about it and CALL HER already. Take some advice from a person who has inside information...who knows, the attraction may be mutual after all. try and tear away at the ambiguity.
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The Freshmen -The Verve Pipe - 12:05am April 26 2001

For the life of me I cannot remember
what made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise
for the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins
we were merely freshmen



Glory glory hallelujah... - 12:02am April 26 2001
Well i did get some e-mail yesterday. Thank god. And joy! at least ONE of them was from someone who's never e-mailed me in his entire life. So i am content.

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To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
Subject: debbie does jerudong
From: Wasabi Horse wasabihorse@yahoo.com.au
Date: Wed, Apr 25 2001 10:47:44 PM +1000 (EST)

i know lots of women who have breasts the size of australia. probably cos i live there. it would make sense, but that would imply that all the women in brunei would have small breats, and the women of the vatican city would have no breasts at all.

and probably inverted nipples too.

however, living in a country surrounded by those of heavy chest is not all fun and games, i can tell you! they also tend to have egos the size of australia, and tend to go out with men who walk around in tight jeans and big puffy shirts.

not a good look.

there was a point to this email, but i forgot it.

oh yes, my site has an even weirder name than yours. or that evil suzi chick.

i'm bored.

if a woman actually had breasts the size of australia, what letter bra cup would they have to buy?

i think i need a coke.

minja ninjarama
http://wasabihorse.blogspot.com
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I've actually seen this guys site from a coupla days ago. Popped up in my referrals. Read the whole thing. It's fairly new so there wasn't really that much to read but hey, that's understandable. He's really vague about his identity but i have a feeling that he once lived in Brunei or something. Or at least visited it once. I dunno. I mean, he's gotta've been here at least once to actually know where the hell Jerudong actually is (It's a place in Brunei by the way).

But hey, i could be wrong.

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To: "webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com"
Subject: Purchase Order #0124040
From: antwon@antwon.com
Date: Tue, Apr 24 2001 11:04:49 PM -0700

To whom it may concern:

I would like to order one (1) unit of being made famous. Please send me all materiel necessary in order to fulfill this endeavor. I thank you for your time.

Sincerely,
Anthony J. Youhas
CEO, antwon.com Industries
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Always the smartass.

And i still can't believe that Antwon actually reads my site. It just strikes me as unlikely. Odd even. I do not know why but i just do. Actually i'm amazed that anyone even cares to read this site. Much less visit it.

My hits have gone down these days. But it's understandable i guess. Me being a GUY with NO WEBCAM.

The fucking search engines still haven't recognized my new URL so i'm not getting the hits that i usually get from the wacky search engine referrals that i used to get from people searching for kooky things.

I want more hits dammit.

Sophie called. At around 10pm-ish last night. Talked for little while. I'll be seeing her this weekend. But yeah, i was actually gonna come down to the city anyway, this weekend on Saturday, and sleep over at her place for the night while i was there, i mean, she did kinda invite me to earlier this week and all but it seems... that the plan... has changed. She wants me to come over this Friday instead... and sleep over till Sunday.

I am raising my eyebrows right now.

Wednesday, April 25, 2001

Ooh... he's doing his 'thang' - 9:30pm April 25 2001
Okay so i bet you're all just dying to know what i think of all this "GO ASK SOPHIE OUT YOU STUPID LUGNUT" business so yeah, i guess this'll be the post to read. For those of you who do give a shit anyway.

Contrary to what some people are thinking, no i'm not pissed off nor am i angry about all of this. If it seems like it from the way i'm posting about it, then well, you just gotta understand that that's just the way i like to post. Call it a style if you may. You know... bitter, cynical, pessimistic, Bruce Campbell-ish...

But naw, honestly, what i think... well... for one, this whole thing comes to me as a bloody big shock that's for sure. This i would put under my 'not in a million years will it ever happen' folder... if i was a filing cabinet. And number two, i still stand by my 'only when monkeys fly out of my ass' stance. Which in layman's terms means that i don't think she will EVER wanna even CONSIDER going out with me but hey, i also do always say that stranger things have happened. So yeah, if it ever does happen, her going out with me, well you can put this all under your 'Holy crap! Monkeys are flying out of his ass!' file.

But i doubt it.

But then again, that's just what i think.

You know, i really would like to know what she thinks of all of this. I mean, from what i've read from here, she seems to be freaking out. Haha.

Although i have no paperwork to officially back that up.

Which is why i'd really like to know what she really thinks about all of this. I mean, i'd call her up and all. But i don't know her number. Sure sure, i know what you're thinking. You're thinking, "But you gotta know her number! You know what Dan's number is right??"

Well, you see, i don't know what Dan's number is. So yeah, there you go.

Haha. Fuck. I don't even know my own friend's number. Ha. Some friend i am. =P

But hey, in response to what Sophie said about something like, how bad can it be to go out with her, or something like that... well, to be truthfully honest, it's not that bad at all actually. I mean, i know there's like literally HUNDREDS of guys out there that'd probably KILL to go out with her so yeah, i guess it's not bad at all to actually have the chance to go out with her. I think.

I wouldn't know. I've never gone out with her. Ha.

But seriously, no Sophie, i don't think that it's at all BAD or anything for me to go out with you. Or for anyone else for that matter.

So yeah, if you're reading this. Just uh... gimme a call or something. Because i don't know your number.

In other news, check out my poll:

Ask out Sophie?!
Should i ask out Sophie? What do you think?


Current Results



Goobita - 5:11pm April 25 2001
So i'm online and i'm checking my stats like i normally do every like coupla seconds or so (i exaggerate of course) and i get a referral from goobita.com's stats thing. Now i don't know how in the world i ever got to be on her referrals list since i've never even heard of the site before but hey, i guess it must be fate. Or something.

Anyway, it's a pretty nice looking site. Probably gets a shitload more hits than i do because she's a girl and she has a webcam but hey, that's life.

But no really, it's a nice lookin' site. I must admit. But then again, i'm always kinda attracted to anything that has any semblance of the color purple in it (of which her color scheme does kinda have... a bit) so yeah, no surprise there. There's a shitload of webcam pics in the gallery. I tell you, waiting for all them thumbnails to load up on a 56k modem is like waiting for Zil to respond to one of your AOL instant messages.

Takes fucking FOREVER.

There's um... a pretty interesting sub-section of the gallery page (the 'random' link) of Laura's site (that's her name by the way) where... uh... you can find numerous shots of her cleavage and of her in her underwear(?!) and seemingly hundreads and hundreads of butt shots... which i kinda find a bit out of place. But hey, who am i to complain? I sure all you horny guys out there are delighted by this particular bit of news. Me? I was just like, "Eh? Ohhh... Hmmm".

Heh.

It's still a nice site i suppose.

Personally, i think she kinda looks like Rachel Leigh Cook. From the three pictures of her that you first see when the page loads up i mean.

Boy did that Josie And The Pussycats movie SUCK or what?

Anyway, check out her site. Not just for the cleavage and panty shots. Do actually make an effort to read it. It's the least you can do.

Well, besides looking at her cleavage and panties i suppose.



I'm postin' i'm postin' already! - 12:56pm April 25 2001
Okay so i know i haven't been posting much today but honestly, i've really got NOTHING to post about. I could tell you that i just finished watching Bring It On on DVD for the... i don't know how many'th time... with my mom of all people but honestly, why would anyone wanna be reading about something like that?

I see that the poll's been... quite successful to say the least by my low standards. BUT WHY IN THE HELL ARE YOU ALL VOTING FOR ME TO ASK HER OUT? Damn you people. I bet some of you even voted twice.

Cheat.

People E-MAIL ME. I'm on my holidays and i'm bored out of my mind. Enlighten me with your thoughts. On anything at all. JUST E-MAIL ME SOMETHING.

I'll make you famous.

And for once, i'd like to get at least ONE e-mail from someone who's never e-mailed me before please. I mean, i have close to 300 different people reading this site at times and i usually always get e-mails from the same 3 people.

I exagerrate of course but you get my point.

I got a pretty... um... 'encouraging' e-mail today concerning this Sophie thing of which i wish i could post up. Unfortunately, if i were to post it up, somebody's genitals will be ripped off.

Just my luck.

I downloaded Santeria earlier today. You know. Sublime. I've been really into music circa 1995/1996 these days. Just trying to re-live those days i suppose. The 'good old days'. I'm gonna try look for some songs from that band, Ash, later on. Good band.

Ooh. And i gotta get Popular. Nada Surf.

For some reason, i keep thinking of Thess whenever i think of Nada Surf. Maybe it has to do with the fact that Thess' AIM screen name was nada000000.

That's right. Was. Until some retarded kid who wouldn't leave people well enough alone started annoying the bejeezus outta her.

Thank god for the block button. I can't be bothered changing my screen name if something like that happens to me. I'd just block their ass.

Oh you know who i'm talking about. The kid i mean. Here's a not so subtle hint:

snikers smells: when kel-vin heard you were home
snikers smells: i said, i gotta give the guy a call sometime
snikers smells: and he's like OOH! WHAT'S HIS NUMBER?????
snikers smells: and i was like..
snikers smells: uh
snikers smells: i don't know
snikers smells: i have to ask..
snikers smells: john.
psykotik2k: oh good
psykotik2k: never EVER give out my number to anyone

Unless if they have breasts the size of Australia of course.



Outcast - 11:43am April 25 2001
Why aren't Bence's, Thess's and fubar's link on Solo's sidebar anymore?

Boo hoo.

If you love us, you will demand Solo to put all of our links back.



This Sophie thing - 12:08am April 25 2001
Okay. WHAT IN THE HELL IS GOING ON? I come online, log onto AIM and suddenly i've got all these people DEMANDING me to ask Sophie out. What the hell?

I mean, look at this! It's insane!

ELLzbth: have u asked sophie out yet?
psykotik2k: wtf?
ELLzbth: HAHA
psykotik2k: psssh
ELLzbth: common
ELLzbth: Justin
ELLzbth: ask her out!
psykotik2k: no!

It goes on forever.

ELLzbth: why not!!
psykotik2k: no! she's dan's sister!
psykotik2k: anyway, that's besides the point!
psykotik2k: no!
ELLzbth: i tell you what. you manage to get one date with her. one kiss from her (like a real one) and ill umm like reward you with something
psykotik2k: haha, we'll see....although it'll NEVER happen =P

A million years later.

ELLzbth: yeah so ask sophie out!
psykotik2k: nooooooo!

And it's not only with her:

Thess: So, when you gonna ask Sophie out?
psykotik2k: WHAT?

Hell, i mean look at how far it's going!

snikers smells: whoooooooo fancies sophie?
psykotik2k: what??
psykotik2k: what the hell?
snikers smells: heehehee :P
snikers smells: the other day, well yesterday even
snikers smells: dan came up to me and john in the canteen
snikers smells: and john said, "Has Justin fucked your sister yet?"
snikers smells: and i laughed.
snikers smells: ahee hee
psykotik2k: i have no idea what to say to that =P
snikers smells: heh heh.... sure you do. you just don't want to expose the truth.
snikers smells: ;o)
psykotik2k: psssh
psykotik2k: naw
snikers smells: ohhhhh yeah. you know it baby.
psykotik2k: oh shut up you

It never ends.

SiIIyZiIIy: u gonna ask sophie out?
psykotik2k: haha, for the last time, no =]

Honestly.

psykotik2k: hey zil
psykotik2k: i gtg
psykotik2k: i'll be back later
psykotik2k: gotta write a post
SiIIyZiIIy: sure sure
SiIIyZiIIy: make it a good one
SiIIyZiIIy: i know its gonna be bout SOPHIE
psykotik2k: NO
psykotik2k: damn you people!

And have you looked at TFW lately??

Geez, man. It's fucking EVERYWHERE. And i don't even know how the hell it even got started!

But hey, how bout a little poll? I'm just doing this for kicks so don't be getting no fucking ideas or anything.

Ask out Sophie?!
Should i ask out Sophie? What do you think?


Current Results

Tuesday, April 24, 2001

Gummie bears - 5:51pm April 24 2001

Personally, i like the red ones.

Hm. Cute.



What in the...? - 1:16pm April 24 2001
Okay, i just couldn't resist. I just have to comment on this:

I swear right now ... reading from interesting stuff ... I can put down $10 that Sophie would go out with Justin. - Olivia

Bwahahahaha!! Shyeah RIGHT. But seriously, no Olivia. I'm telling you... the day that'll ever happen will the the day monkeys start flying out of my ass. I'm telling you.

Geez, what do you girls talk about on the phone anyway?

There's more to that post if you care to read and there's even a post there written by Sophie herself (!).

Me, i would never let anyone else post on my site. Unless if it was a girl and she had breasts the size of Australia.

Which brings me to this e-mail:

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To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
Subject: Hey
From: SIMBI444@aol.com
Date: Mon, Apr 23 2001 6:57:43 PM EDT

Can I PLEASE post on your site with you?I will make great Post and I can post alot of times because you know I am on Alot.If you dont want me to post then is there anyways or something I can do So I can earn the right to post:)I will link your site to a bunch of other site and give it out in AOL chatrooms so you will get hundreds of more hits.
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One question. Do you have breasts the size of Australia?

More commentary:

Contrary to what Sophie says in her post, we have actually met like dozens of times before in the past. Albeit not formally. Sorta like a 'There i am with my friends and shit and oh look! There's Dan's sister Sophie! I would say hi but i don't have the balls to' kinda thing. So yeah, i guess we only formally met and talked for the first time that night at that yacht club. During Rod's going away dinner type outing thing i suppose.

And for those of you wondering, she oh so fucking does know all the dialogue to Bring It On. Well... not ALL of it but yeah, the 'important' ones anyway. I should know 'cause i was there. I'd be there watching the movie all all and listening in anticipation to the dialogue to hear all the 'punchlines', if you may, and then Sophie'd just chime in and fill in the blanks. I kept doing double takes whenever she did that. I was like thinkin', "Shit, she's probably seen this movie more times than i have...!".

Dan had never seen the movie before at the time so he didn't really say much during the movie. Except for the fact that he thought Eliza Dushku looked better.

I think not.

And oh, Sophie so does too look like Eliza... like from a real far off distance... to me anyway. With my fucked up eyes. But then again, that's just me.

ONLY WHEN MONKEYS START FLYING OUT OF MY ASS OLIVIA.



Love - 8:04am April 24 2001
You know, i'd really like to expand this site's reader base more. Sure i get around 500+/- hits a day and while it ain't much, it's still fairly okay i guess. But to try getting more than that'll mean that i'll actually have to work harder at it. You know, like with the site, like making a new layout maybe, coming up with better material etc etc. Shit like that. But considering the crap that's been put up here everyday, getting 500+/- a day ain't too bad. in fact, i'm pretty surprised that i actually get that much for all the poo that i've been writing about as of late. So i am content. For now.

I kinda notice that i've been like... plugging/mentioning the same set people over and over again in my posts as of late. Not just within the past few weeks either. I mean like, within the past few months. You know what i mean, like me linking to Thess's or Liz's or 'I never change my clothes' Zil's site or whomever's whenever i mention their names in my posts.

I really don't want this site to come off as one of those 'clique-y' sites where all they ever do is post about their online friends and shit like that. I mean, the new yahoos visiting this page for the first time might read a couple of the posts and think, "Oh no... not another one of these 'clique-y' sites where all they ever do is post about their online friends and shit like that".

I know that's what i'd be thinking.

Not that it's a bad thing linking names to sites. I mean, i'm all for it if it'll help those people i've linked get at least a few clickthroughs. Call me lame but i like helping people out.

Okay, it's 8:04am and i know i said i'd be going back to sleep but hey, SINCE I CARE FOR YOU ALL SO MUCH, i decided to write this post. Sure it's a crappy post but that's not the point. The point is to SHOW YOU HOW MUCH I CARE.

Somehow i don't think that point is getting across. I'm going back to sleep.



Yawn - 7:18am April 24 2001
What the hell? It's 7:18am and i'm already awake? I feel like Suzi. She gets up at ridiculously early times everyday you know... like... 6:30am or something like that. I swear to Kirsten Dunst.

Remind me never to get up this early EVER again. What the hell was i thinking yesterday?

I'm going back to sleep. It's way too early to go on the net.



Fucking lame ass man - 12:12am April 24 2001
So close yet so far away. Circumstances be damned. If only. As the old saying goes, "Once bitten, twice shy". Yet i'm allowing myself to be bitten once again. And for what? More pain? Is it worth it? It gets unbearable at times. If only for a few brief moments. Outside thoughts ease the pain. Escape. Serenity. Until it surfaces once again. Cope.



Stop it with the kooky posts already - 12:08am April 24 2001
Reality: what would become of it? Certainly not as it is now. And even then, certainly not what i would like it to be. What i wish it to be. A lost cause. Futile. Worthless.



Oh crap he's at it again - 12:04am April 24 2001
Avoidance. Shame. Uncertainty. Unwanted.

Monday, April 23, 2001

Hi - 9:49pm April 23 2001
Over the last weekend, i actually saw quite a number of old friends. And i mean A LOT of friends. One thing i did regret not doing was going up to Tom and Sam to say hi or something during that party. They stopped by for a while and hung out downstairs. Actually saw those guys for a brief second but i didn't actually go up to them at the time. Had to hand Angie's cellphone back to her at the time and rush back upstairs to Majid to tell him something (this was at during the party by the way). I came back downstairs a while later to hopefully say hi to Tom and Sam but they were gone. Oh well. Guess i was just too late. Anyway, they've both left the confines of theFATwebsite's network of sites and they've got their own new nonFATwebsite site up. Well, it's not exactly that new as it's been up for a coupla weeks now. Used to be on some shitty free server but they're hosted by the guys over at Gearfactory now.

So drop by their site sometime.

Maybe i'll see em around again next weekend or something.

Sam looked strangely like Eminem that night. Well... from what i saw of him from the corner of my eye that is.

And Tom.... Tom was still Tom.



Makeover - 9:27pm April 23 2001
Man, i am in some serious need for a new layout. I had this one since what? September 2000 or something? It's getting pretty stale. hell, it is stale. I gotta start working on a new one sometime. I'll try whipping up a simple new layout in the next few days or so. See how it turns out. It's probably gonna suck ass and i'll probably just kill it before it's even born but i've got nothing else better to do so hey, why not stretch my creative muscles for a bit?

Besides, a new layout, i gotta work on the site some more. Maybe a change of concept or something. A change in posting styles maybe. I don't know. I just feel a change would be good right about now.

A fresh start.

Downloaded more applications today. Got this really great Mac FTP client, Fetch. Good interface. And i got an HTML editor too. BBEdit Lite. Just as good as Windows wordpad.

For those of you wondering, i'm using a Titanium Powerbook G4 to do most of my posting. A 500 Mhz PowePC G4 processor laptop, 1MB backside level 2 cache, 20 Gigs, 256 MB of PC100 SDRAM, slot loading DVD-ROM drive, external floppy drive, 15.2 inch monitor running at a widescreen 1152 x 768 resolution with Photoshop 6.0, Illustrator 9.0, GoLive 5.0 installed. Among other numerous programs of course.

Good shit.

And all i use to manage my site's HTML is BBEdit and Fetch FTP. Very old school. No scripts, no news publisher, no blogger, no greymatter, no nothing.

It's all manual.

I am not showing off.



Ooh - 8:09pm April 23 2001
Nice.



Unexpected - 7:33pm April 23 2001
Woah.

I just got a phone call from the last person i'd ever think of even wanting to call me. Like, ever.

It was Sophie. For some strange odd reason of which i do not know why.

I was literally like... "Eh?" (well... yeah okay so maybe i didn't exactly say 'eh?' but i had an 'eh?' kinda look on my face when i picked up the phone that's for sure).

She just basically asked if i was coming down to the city again this weekend (which i am... probably) and told me that if i ever needed a place to stay, i could stay over at her place.

Now i would've expected Dan to call me up to tell me this but... Sophie? WTF? Are monkeys flying out of my ass? There surely must be some mistake there. Not that Sophie calling me up is a bad thing or anything, but yeah, it's just TOTALLY unexpected.

Oh i dunno. Maybe Dan was taking a shit or something and got Sophie to call me up instead. Haha.



MP3's - 7:04pm April 23 2001
Spent the better part of the day downloading applications for MY MAC. Downloaded the mac version of Napster. It's pretty cool actually. Better than the Windows version. I like the interface. It's so small.

Downloaded The Freshmen by The Verve Pipe. Great song. Even though the lyrics makes absolutely no sense at all. Ha. But still, it's a nice song. Download it. Give it a listen. Who knows you might even like it.

I wonder what happened to The Verve Pipe. I never really followed that band after their Villains album. Did they make another one? It's been 6 years since Villains. Maybe they have a more recent album out? I dunno.

One of the best bands to ever come out of Michigan i say. The Verve Pipe.

I did a search for Bring It On using Napster and i got a like shitload of results. Downloaded one of the cheers from the movie.

I'm sexy, i'm cute! I'm popular to boot!

I'll download more cheers later tonight. I am obsessed with that movie. It's the greatest movie of all time. And goddamit, Kirsten Dunst is NOT ugly!

She's hot.



I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby - 1:44pm April 23 2001
Since when did i have a crush on Sophie?

Actually, now that i think of it, it wouldn't really be that bad of a thing if i actually did. Haha.

Adi is a legend. Why? Because he likes doing things like this. The stuff of legends i tell you. I need to see that guy man. Haven't seen him in like a year. Anybody know when he's coming back here from Australia again?

I woke up late today. Around 12:30pm i think. I should make more of an effort to try and wake up earlier during the day because i don't wanna waste my precious time here back home just fuckin' sleeping all day long. Sleeping all day i can do when i get back to school. I'll get up earlier tomorrow so i can post more. Good idea no?

I'm gonna take a picture of my cat soon. And post it up here. It's been 8 months since i last saw the little bugger and now he's grown up to be... a big fat lazy bugger. Kinda reminds me of that cat, Snowbell, in that Stuart Little movie. That was a great movie.

Hey man, don't be knocking Stuart Little. It's a good movie. Co-written by that guy who made The Sixth Sense and Unbreakable you know. That alone makes it cool.

But yeah, my cat is cool. I like my cat. My cat is cooler than most people i know. Haha.

Speaking of people, WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH KELVIN? I thought he quit. Oh wait wait.. i get it, he was just ripping me off again and miraculously 'coming back everytime' despite him 'quitting'. Will he never ever go away? He's like... the least liked 'e/n personality' around. Wait wait. I take that back, because he's not an 'e/n personality'. Hell, he doesn't even have an 'e/n personality' much less his OWN! He just rips off from me! And even if he does try to make 'special' in his own way, it's usually fucking lame ass. I mean take a look at this:

"it was pretty much a pizza but only sandwiched between two corresponding halves of baguette"

I've written about some pretty shitty things in my time but that sandwich thing pretty much takes the cake. Not only is he writing about things that people wouldn't give two shits about (even worse than me), he's also STILL using those ridiculously long inane words, which he can't even spell right half the time, in his freakin' posts. They don't add anything to his posts. They just make em painstakingly longer to finish reading. In fact, it just makes him come off as pretentious. I mean, Rod and Dan can get away with posting like that, using big words and such, because they actually do talk like the way the post in real life sometimes. And even if so, it's not as bad as what Kelvin churns out. Hell, Kelvin doesn't even speak like the way he posts. In fact, he doesn't even TALK in real life. He just asks questions. Questions that he already knows the answers to. Over and over and over again. Till your head explodes.

Thank god for the block function on AIM. He keeps on trying to fucking AIM me every single time he can get. Obviously to ask me such stupid stupid things like "How's it hangin?", "How's life?" and "How the hell did i ever get to be this annoying little 13 year old or 15 year old or whatever the fuck year old kid who keeps asking stupid questions that i already know the answers to?"

For fuck's sake man.

I swear, the next time i see his ass trying to AIM me, i WILL fucking WARN him to death. And block his ass too.

Somebody should start a fuckin' petition or something to try and get him off the net. In fact, you can start helping right now. By e-mailing him a sternly worded e-mail (ooh) or... write all kinds of shit in his stupid little abuse box type thing that he's recently installed on his site (Which i will NEVER EVER link to. You can get the URL off of TFW).

Phew. It's good to let off some steam once in a awhile.



I think he's on crack - 1:08am April 23 2001
She just had to ask. And i just had to answer. Why couldn't i just say no? Do i put too much trust in people? Sometimes i trust those who clearly do not trust myself. And to what purpose?



He's scaring me... - 1:04am April 23 2001
Unfortunate as it is, it is true. For i have fallen. Will i be able to pick myself up? Eventually yes, but the laughter still echoes on forever. As i walk away with my head down.



Eh? - 1:02am April 23 2001
Why do i have these feelings? Why must they be there? They only hinder me. I want to be free.



WTF? - 1:01am April 23 2001
The whole world is reading. I get scared sometimes. Of what people might think. No doubt i will be misjudged. No doubt i am ridiculed. But you don't know me. You don't.

Sunday, April 22, 2001

Blah blah blah - 9:32pm April 22 2001
Is anybody still even reading this site? Despite me slacking off and not posting as much as i used to? I guess so... because i'm still getting about 300 or so hits a day. Which is understandable considering my slackness.

But anyway, at least i'm posting now.

Like i said, i got my counter working again. I somehow kinda screwed up the URL address in my stats' HTML coding. I am a dumbass. But it's fixed now so yeah, happy day. I can access my stats once again.

You know, during that period of three days where i couldn't check my stats, it was like fucking TORTURE i tell you. Not knowing how many people hit my site for that day. Not knowing if people even visited my site.

I wanted to cry.

Anyhoo, so i'm back home now. Had a pretty good weekend i guess. Nothing truly special or anything. Not like i got laid or whatever. But a fun weekend nonetheless. It was great seeing Rod again even though it was only for a day.. just like the last time in Singapore. It's funny, i've seen Rod more times than any other ex JIS friend of mine since i last left Brunei. Met up with him in Sinagpore and back in Brunei, met up with him AGAIN. Before anyone else (e.g Dan, Majid, John etc etc) i might add. he's always been the first person that i meet up with. I like Rod. No, not in that way but as a good friend. You know? He's a great guy. Always has these great stories to tell. I tell you, there's rarely ever a boring moment when you're out hanging about with Rod. Fuckin' hilarious that guy can be.

I am kissing Rod's ass aren't i?

Well i stayed over at Rod's place the other night and we got to talking and shit. Mostly about trivial useless things like how Pulp Fiction couldn't use the 'My Sharona' song in their butt fucking scene because Reality Bites used it in their movie. Rod initially though that song was supposed to be used in Reservoir Dogs but obviously he's WRONG. It's Pulp Fiction buddy. I should know because i am the worthless movie trivia king. Did you know that Kirsten Dunst was only 17 when she filmed Bring It On?

Well there you go.

I found out that there's only like 17 of these Titanium Powerbook G4's shipped to Brunei. They cost about BN$6000+ over here. Well the 500 Mhz 20 gig 256 meg ram ones anyway. Which is what i have. Which is what i'm using to write out this post on by the way.

Okay okay i promise to cut down on the TITANIUM POWERBOOK G4 name dropping from now on. I know i know, a G4 ain't that big a deal but hey, i can't help but mention that i have one IN EVERY SINGLE POST.

So there're only like 17 of these things in Brunei. I think. That's what i heard anyway. I've got one of them and the other 16 have probably been bought by like... filthy rich people and members of the Bruneian royal family and shit like that. Me? I'm not filthy rich. No sirree Bob. Nope. Just your average regular Joe.

I'm poor.

By the way, i bought two more DVD's today. The 6th Day and Out Of Sight. I should update my DVD list.

Well, i've been gone only a coupla days and i see that Suzi and Thess have become fast 'friends'.

*snicker*

Really you two, why don't y'all just kiss and make up or something? Haha.

Oh boy am i ever gonna get it from Thess now...

Want to see Melanie Griffith flashing her breasts?

Moving on. I'd like to apologize for all the people who've been e-mailing expecting a reply of sorts. Well, you can't really blame me... i've been busy this past coupla days. Well. Yeah. Busy sort of i guess.

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To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
Subject: poo on you
From: "Liz Z"
Date: Sat, Apr 21 2001 2:34:46 PM -0000

shame on you Justin,

now that you have a life, you have forgotten about ur site and your readers. tsk tsk

remeber
love
me
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See? It's not a good thing for me to have a life. I don't update my site as much as i usually do as a result. So yes, me having a life is a BAD thing for this site. And for those of you who've been wondering if i actually do have a life outside my site, the answer is yes. But don't worry though, i probably won't have that much of a life come this Monday to Friday. I'll be at home watching DVD's and stuff. No parties to go to, no friends to meet up with etc etc... basically, i'll be doing SHIT ALL for the better part of next week. Which'll give me plenty of time to find my 'groove' and start posting normally once again.

I bet all three of you are excited by that prospect.

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To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
Subject: its suzi
From: BoRDeMKWeeN@cs.com
Date: Fri, Apr 20 2001 10:34:13 PM EDT

that chick was right..im not one to talk ..but kirsten dunst is one ugly female..she looks old in bring it on...the other ones were prettier..she tries too hard..haha
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Dammit Liz! Look at what you've got people thinking now! Eliza Dushku being prettier than Kirsten Dunst! Blah! First Dan, then Sophie and now Suzi? I swear, if i get another e-mail telling me Eliza Dushku's better lookin' than Kirsten Dunst, i am going to cry.

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Fullname: Kel-Vin
Email: k_2712@hotmail.com
Where are you from?: Malaysia
Homepage Name: weezer
Homepage URL: http://enoas.nathanism.com
Comments: Hey Justin,

I just though i'd sign your guestbook. I went through each and every archive and page.

Nevermind.
Kel-Vin
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If that isn't sucking up, i don't know what is.

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To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
Subject: hell yea
From: "Omar Alquaddoomi" osa@ucla.edu
Date: Thu, Apr 19 2001 7:33:42 PM -0700

Justin,

Your page is good. I think you should attempt to take over whatever continent you currently reside upon. In the interest of fair trade, here is an interesting site (upon which I dwell): http://lunarbeam.ath.cx/

If you've ever played FF2, make sure to check out the "Ciro" interactive melodrama.

It was done entirely by my evil-genius younger brother, handle = Lunarbeam.

Have a non-fucked up day,

spectral
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Woah. A reader from UCLA. How cool is that? Not very? Well... i happen to think it's cool so there. I once had a hit from Harvard i remember. And one from the Mayo Institute too. Smart people are reading my site. Although i have no idea why... but hey, who am i to complain? Keep the hits rolling in aye? Har har.

I am hit whore yes?

Final Fantasy. Of course i've played that game. I've played almost all the FF games in the series. Even the crappy Gameboy ones. I am, after all, a hardcore gamer.

Anyway, UCLA. Cool.

Okay, i'm gonna leave you all with this. A little skit that one of my stalker fans sent me. You know the type. The kinda fans that'd do practically ANYTHING for you. Like writing up skits such as this:

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To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
Subject: Suzi. Vs. Thess mudwrestling! The countdown!
From: Melvinthejerk@aol.com
Date: Thu, Apr 19 2001 2:28:19 PM EDT

Here's the play by play for the millions...and MILLIONS of you who didn't see it live on pay per view.

Live from the Staples Center in Los Angles it's the 1st annual Intelligent Smartass Kids who spend to much time behind their computers Fightamania! I'm your host, Micheal Cole and joining on commentary is infamous claymation figure, Nick Diamond from Celebrity Deathmatch! And tied up behind me for everyones safety is French Stewart. We have a hell of a card tongiht, with an amazing amount of talent! Let's take a quick review:

Match 1: Lone Korean vs. Kip, the Slacker Jedi for the Intercontinental Championship!
Match 2: Tag Team Action! The Z Geeks, Rick Bishop and the Pirate vs. Skr4ped and Triz, The Digital Assasains! It's Immature vs. Grown up!
Match 3: e/n Rookie sensation, Melvin the Jerk vs. The Spud w/ Spudgirl in a Ladder Match!
Match 4: Suzi vs. Thezz in a Mudwrestling match!
Match 5: Antwon vs. "The Prototype" Proton! and the Main Event!
Match 6: "Psykotic" Justin FUBAR vs. his mentor, Solosier for the Wold Title!!
Nick Diamond, your thoughts and predictions?

Well Micheal Cole, I expect to see people die. Also, I'd like to be a real boy!

But you're just clay, Nick...oh no! That's Ultramania by Seo Taiji, available on the e/n the music volume 1! That's theme music of the Lone Korean, kicking off what is sure the be an explosive pay per view.

"Making his way to the ring holding a large bowl of Kim Chee, he is the Intercontinental Champion, the Lone Korean! And his opponent, currently asleep in the corner wearing a preppy sweater abd cluthcing an empty bag of Pringles, Kip, the Slacker Jedi!"

My God, Nick! Those thunderous shots to the head with that bowl of Kim Chee aren't even phasing him! And there's the bell, offically starting this match.

Good lord, Cole! That is the single largest Korean I have ever seen. And there's a cover on the sleeping man! 1...2...kickout?! How in the hell? He was asleep!

Somehow he managed to dig deep, with the heart of a lion...

That's Jericho, Cole. This is Kip.

Don't make me slap you, Nick. And look at this! While we're mindlessly jabbering, Jedi has gone to the top rope, but Korean catches him with a thunderous Tae Kwon Do kick the mid section!

And another thing! It's the nuts, not the mid section! He kicked him in the balls! And why is everything thunderous?

Completely ignoring my clay cohert at ringside, Kip has pulled out a lightsaber! The Ref doesn't see a thing!

"This is not the community college you're looking for!"

"Hah! I don't go to community college! Your mind tricks are worthless!"

He seems to be having trouble with his lightsaber! He can't get it up, Cole!

It's because of lack of concentration as a Slacker. If he can't concentrate, and his mind isn't focused, he can't get it up!

You'd know a lot about that, wouldn't you Cole? Ha ha!

Why you little...! Wait! There is! The Take 1! The Take 1! This match is over! 1...2...3! The Lone Korean retains the title!

Next up...

Match 2: Tag Team Action! The Z Geeks, Rick Bishop and the Pirate vs. Skr4ped and Triz, The Digital Assasains!
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Kooky guy.



I promise - 3:27am April 22 2001
Alright. I swear i'll write better posts when i get back home. Which will be today. Or later i mean. Later this afternoon. Yeah.

It's fuckin' 3:27am right now. I should be getting some sleep. More tired than a very tired thing i am.



Holy crap! I didn't update for a day! - 2:20am April 22 2001
Okay. Dan and i are at Majid's place now. Just got back from the free pool and food party that cost $20.

Alright, i would write like a full in depth review of the party but i won't because Majid is my friend and on the whole despite it being not a very successful party, it was just great to see old friends and play some pool.

Okay. That whole last paragraph... Majid told me.. no wait... forced me to write that. I actually would write a full review of the party but he's right next to me reading every single word that i'm typing right now. In other words, the party was a COMPLETE DISASTER OF EPIC PROPORTIONS.

Okay so maybe i'm exagerrating.

But anyway, don't worry, i probably will post about it some other time. Maybe when i get back home or something.

So anyway, yeah yeah, i know i haven't updated like for a whole entire day so i guess i should make up for it right now. So i'll tell you what we did last night. And what we did today. FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO CARE.

So we watched Se7en like i promised Sophie we would. And just as i expected, she did freak out during that Sloth scene. Man that scene is just so good. One of the biggest scares in movie history i reckon. We pretty much watched the whole of the second DVD with the extras and stuff. The alternate endings and shit. Good stuff.

And yeah, Dan did get to watch Bring It On that night because i put it on... mostly because i had a craving for some Kirsten Dunst. Anyway, Sophie watched along with us and i gotta say man, Sophie's probably watched Bring It On like... even more times than i have. I mean like, shit man, she practically knows all cheers and most of the dialogue from the movie by heart! Oh my god, a girl who actually likes Bring It On. I must marry her. But no seriously, i swear, she knows practically every single cheer in the movie. I find that pretty amazing actually. For some odd reason.

The extras features on the DVD are fucking cool. I especially like the one part where Kirsten is actually talking to the audience and saying something like, "Hey audience!! If you wanna see my butt yell 'BUTT'!!!"

That was great.

Anyway, thanks to Liz's e-mail about Eliza Dushku being hotter, both Dan and Sophie now think that Eliza is better looking than Kirsten. Blah.

Well, i still like Kirsten better.

You know actually, Sophie kinda does look like Eliza Dushku. Like... from really really far away...

Okay so maybe she doesn't and maybe i'm just saying that but hey, it's not like anybody'd believe me even if it was true.

You know, i actually let Sophie read my posts for that day. Which is kinda weird considering that there's stuff there about me wanting to sleep with her and shit like that... and the fact that i was right there next to her when she was reading all that stuff. Haha. But hey, she gets that i'm just kidding around so it's cool.

We all left their place earlier today to meet up with Ed and Josh who were at this cybercafe playing fucking counterstrike. Oh and i saw Olivia around too. You may remember her from a few weeks back. The one that stole Thess's layout. Heh. But anyway, we went to Coffeebean and had some shit to eat and stuff. Damn the strawberry milkshakes there are good.

I bought a coupla DVD's today. Got myself Lethal Weapon 4 (guilty pleasure) and Stuart Little (fucking loaded DVD).

Oh yeah, Annie was there too. She met up with us just before heading off to that Coffeebean place. Or whatever it's called.

Anyhoo, we headed off to Annie's place (minus Ed and Josh) to get ready and stuff for the 'big' party.

And we went to the party.

As for how the party turned out, well.... it's better left unsaid.

Majid will kill me when he reads this.

Friday, April 20, 2001

Site update - 8:37pm April 20 2001
Man i need to think of better post titles for my posts. They SUCK. Anyway, i'm still here at Dan's place and we didn't go out anywhere. Basically just did shit all. I slept while he updated TFW. No doubt all his females 'fans' will be elated to finally be able to read another post by the brown one himself.

But anyway, party tomorrow night. Whooptie doo. I'll be the one hiding in the corner doing nothing.

So Dan wants to watch Bring It On. But Sophie and i made plans to watch Se7en tonight. Hmm. What an awful dilemma. We're gonna watch Se7en i guess. Because hey, that was plan. Who cares what Dan wants to watch. Haha. I'm such an asshole.

I can't believe Dan told Sophie i wanted to sleep with her during dinner. What an asshole.

But anyway, i got my counter working again. They actually changed the server IP address for it or something. So i had that little glitch fixed. So my counter should be working fine from now on. I took off the abuse box because i found the 'automatic scrolling down' thing that it caused to be quite annoying in some respects so yeah. Off it goes. But anyway, if i miss it too much, i'll bring it back. Maybe with an even better one.

Oh and a remider for everyone, PLEASE DO NOT SEND ME E-MAILS ENCODED IN HTML. Just send me regular mail. My stupid e-mail server can't open up HTML e-mails sometimes. So yeah, whenever possible, do NOT send me e-mails in HTML form. Or else i won't be able to read it. Sometimes.

Anyway, Dan is playing Sonic on his crusty PC and he sucks at it.



Understatement of the millennium - 8:00pm April 20 2001

"You are so polite" - What Sophie said to me during dinner.



Ooh look i'm posting - 4:22pm April 20 2001
OKay okay, i know i haven't really been posting as much as i usually do these past coupla days and that i've probably been boring as hell but you just gotta understand that it's kinda hard for me to find time to just sit down and write a proper entertaining post. Okay so maybe that's a pretty lame excuse. Between hanging out with my friends and moving around all over the place, i just can't seem to find a good time to just sit down and collect my thoughts.

But anyway, on to the boring weblog part of the post (i promise i'll be more entertaining once i get back home)

So i'm at Dan's place now. Annie and i tagged along with Rod to the airport to see him off earlier today. Sophie met up with us at the airport too. Anyway, we all saw Rod off on his way to Singapore in transit to England. It was the usual 'seeya soon' kinda seeing off. No biggie. Nothing too special. Not like we won't be seeing him again. I'll probably see him this summer or something. But all in all, it was good seeing him again. Even if it only was for a day. Kinda like the last time when i saw him in Singapore.

Anyway, Sophie and i got a ride back to her place courtesy of Annie's mom so that was cool. We didn't have to take a bus or anything and i didn't have to spend ANY money. Woo.

My dad gave me BN$100 spending money yesterday. That's like more than 200 Malaysian dollars. I was expecting him to give me like maybe about 30 bucks or something but hey, if he wants to give me 100, i'm not complaining. =]

Well, i'm still stuck in Dan's place right now. I'm in his room i think. Or maybe it's Sophie's room. I dunno. It seems kinda girly to be Dan's room. Haha. I could ask him if it's his room but nah, i won't bother. He's on the bed reading a newspaper right now.

AS IF YOU'D CARE.

We're probably gonna go into town later and meet up with Majid or something. Probably have a bite to eat somewhere. I dunno. We have NO idea what we're gonna be doing tonight.

Tomorrow night, i will probably be staying over at Majid's place. Yeah, that'll mean that i'd be posting from three different houses three nights in a row. There's also that party that i'll be going to tomorrow night. Hopefully something interesting will happen there so that i'll at least have SOMETHING better to post about. God knows i need better material for my posts.

I forced Dan to watch Run Lola Run just now. On my Mac of course. Oops. There i go again. Name dropping. Ha.

"It was very clever, very intelligent" - Dan on Run Lola Run.

SEE? IT'S A GOOD MOVIE. GO RENT IT OR SOMETHING. BETTER YET, BUY IT ON VIDEO OR DVD.

Anyway, i know i know, the past coupla posts haven't really been up to the usual standards of the site in general (i.e. not as funny, not as entertaining, not as interesting etc etc) but hey, in a half assed effort to try and spice this post up, how about some reader e-mail?

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To: "webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com"
Subject: cold showers
From: antwon@antwon.com
Date: Thu, Apr 19 2001 1:19:33 AM -0700

With the rate at which you fantasize about Kirsten Dunst, you probably need all the cold showers you can get. :)
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Smartass.

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To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
Subject: KD is ugly!
From: "Liz Z" Add to Contacts
Date: Thu, Apr 19 2001 7:22:33 AM -0000

Justin,

I'm sorry, but as a friend i feel that i should at least tell you the truth. Kirsten Dunst is ugly! her Hips are too big, and her face is flat!

I can see how her beeing a cheer leader might have had some influence, but really, compared to the other cast memebers... i mean Eliza dushku. Shes a natural beauty. Go develop a crush on her. That would be more healthy.

http://www.elizadushku.org/cgi-bin/viewpic.pl?magazines/Maxim/MaximOnline-001.jpg

http://www.elizadushku.org/cgi-bin/viewpic.pl?magazines/Maxim/MaximOnline-002.jpg

http://www.elizadushku.org/cgi-bin/viewpic.pl?magazines/Maxim/MaximOnline-003.jpg

yea so i hope the insanity passes soon. Im getting quite worried.

love
Me
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Okay okay so maybe Kirsten isn't like the hottest starlet out there, and i do admit that Eliza Dushku's pretty fine too but she's just too... pretty. Eliza i mean. A bit too 'perfect' somehow. Kirsten, now she's just pretty above average really. Not too hot but not too shabby either. Sure she does have some flaws but there's just this certain something about her that i like. She's just so... Kirsten.

Hard to explain right now but i'll probably go more in depth about why i like Kirsten Dunst so much in a later post. When i get back home. I can't seem to think straight posting from other people's houses.

HELP ME I'VE LOST ALL MY POSTING SKILLS.

Thursday, April 19, 2001

Update again - 11:55pm April 19 2001
Well, for those of you who care, i'm at Rod's place now. Yeah, like RIGHT now... updating from his place using my Mac (have i mentioned my Mac enough times already? I feel like i'm name dropping or something. Haha).

Anyway, yeah, i'm in the city i guess. Had my mom drive me up here and drop me off at Rod's place. Hung out with him for a coupla hours. I actually brought with me a coupla DVD's just in case.

Just in case for what? Well... okay, so maybe i only brought them to show off but hey, let's just pretend that i actually brought them for a reason.

So yeah, i brought with me Bring It On (I bet you just knew i was gonna bring that along), Se7en and Run Thess Run.

I mean Run Lola Run. Yeah.

Well, of course i had to show him what all the fuss is about with my obsession with the Bring It On DVD so i showed him the extended stripper scene, the extended locker room scene, the bikini carwash video and the wardrode and makeup test thing with Kirsten and Eliza.

Yeah. I'm on a first name basis with them now. Kirsten and Eliza.

God i love those extras.

Then we watched some of the extras that were on the Se7en disc. But of course, you don't really care that we did that so i'll go on to another topic.

We headed off to the yacht club later on and met up with a bunch of other people. Namely Sophie, Annie (Rod's significant other), Oliver (a different Oliver), Ian and Roger. Had dinner there. I had myself some lamb chops. At Rod's expense i might add. Haha. Didn't even have to spend a penny.

Of course, again, you don't really care what i ate so i'll move on to yet another topic. Since we were at the yacht club and all, we decided we all got bored of the restaurant and took a little walk to the end of this one jetty. So we all sat, shared fucked up stories and shit, watched a DVD (gotta love this Mac for that... portable DVD player) and yeah... ate a tub full of gummy bears. Courtesy of Sophie.

I'm actually supposed to be staying over at Dan's place tonight but i couldn't get there tonight. And Sophie (who's Dan's sister by the way) wasn't going home tonight so yeah, i couldn't follow her home and here i am in Rod's place spending the night. Rod's actually leaving for England tomorrow so i guess i'll be seeing him off at the airport.

I'll be sleeping over at Dan's place tomorrow then. I'll meet up with Sophie at the airport and follow her back home. And sleep with her. Haha. I wish. But no. I'll be sleeping over at their place. Yeah.

Whaaaat?

Anyway, Rod's not actually around right now. Well, he is but he's in his room. With Annie. Yeah, she's spending the night over here too. I mean, it's only normal. I think. Well, Rod is leaving back for England tomorrow so yeah, it's understandable that he'd wanna spend time with his girlfriend and all. Heheh, me being here has probably put a slight damper to his plans but hey, i dun matter. They can still do their thang in private. I won't get in the way.

And while they're making out in his room or whatever, i'll be out here posting. Which is exactly what i'm doing right now.

Anyway, is anyone even reading this? Is anyone even interested in what i've been posting about these past few days? Yeah i do realize that i'm becoming boring as hell but i really do feel weird posting from here. No, not Rod's house but here in general. In Brunei i mean. It just feels different. It feels like i've lost all my wit and funniness and shit. Which is why my posts have sorta... changed in tone a bit.

Does anyone even read this site nowadays? I wouldn't know. I can't seem to be able to access my stats from this Mac. Or from my PC at home. Which is weird. But anyway, i have absolutely NO idea how this site's been doing for the past coupla days or so. My hits have probably dwindled down to like... 200 a day or something. Haha.

Do me a favor will ya? Go check out my stats, and send me an e-mail with the number of hits i've been getting for the past three days or so. If you can do that, i'd be really appreciative of your efforts i guess. Wish i could give you a cookie for doing it but hey, you're just gonna have to settle for my appreciation.

The end.



'Thess vs. Suzi' - 11:00am April 19 2001

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To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
Subject: Thess vs. Suzi
From: JPMerak25K@aol.com
Date: Wed, Apr 18 2001 6:09:31 PM EDT

Thess and Suzi should mud wrestle...because that would be cool as shit! However, I feel that Thess would kick her ass

Bob
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Thess and Suzi mud wrestling? Now THAT would be something actually worth paying for. Haha.

Maybe i should start another poll on that.



Update - 10:41am April 19 2001
Well, i'm still at home. I haven't left for the city yet. Maybe this afternoon or something. You see, i live in what could be called the hicksville part of Brunei. Like 100 km away from the 'big city' (it's actually not that big at all. I like to exagerrate). In fact, some people i know think of this place as the Texas of Brunei. It's a long story that you probably wouldn't care to read about so i won't bother telling you it.

Maybe next time.

Anyway, gotta call up Rod and contact Majid and Brown Dan. Must meet up with Rod today no matter what the cost.

Did i just say cost? Yeah, i meant 'no matter what'. I don't want any 'costing' to be involved. I have no money (All i've got is shitty Malaysian money) and i wanna be spending as little as i can this weekend. Hell, the party that i'm goin' to this Saturday already costs 20 fucking bucks. I gotta ask Majid what's up with that. He's the organizer of the whole thing. Or so i heard.

Haha, i feel like my posts have become more and more webloggier ever since i came back. Hope you all don't mind if i start becoming boring as hell and never writing about anything funny anymore. =P

Nah, give it time. I'm still adjusting. I need to find my 'groove'. I'm sure i'll come up with at least a couple of really good funny stories and whatnot during my stay here the next 3 weeks or so.

Anyway, in other news, i think i want to marry my Mac.



Just took a shower - 10:33am April 19 2001
Good god. I haven't had a hot shower that good in like... 8 months. You see, there's no water heating at the dorm so for pretty much the past 8 months or so, i've been taking cold showers everyday. EVERYDAY.

Water heating is the best thing that's ever happened to man.

Next to Kirsten Dunst of course.



Weird - 2:57am April 19 2001
Well i guess the best thing about being home is that i can pretty much post whenever the hell i want during the night. Or morning. I mean like, usually, in school, the latest i'd be posting at would be at 12:00am and at the very least 10. Rarely any later than 12.

It does feel kinda strange though... posting from home after 8 months of getting used to posting from the library at school. I'm actually feeling a little... out of it. I guess you could say that i'm 'out of my element' even. It just feels weird. Maybe it's because i'm posting from a Mac. I mean, sure, i could just use the PC to post but for some reason, it's pretty much gone to shit since i left. All the settings are now really weird, and as powerful a PC as it is, it just seems... well... suckier than this G4. The IE's is all fucked up on it and won't load anything. And i can't stand to use Netscape. So yeah, i'll only be using the PC as a last resort. And worst of all... the goddamn internet connection here is so slow. Not just on the PC but on this Mac too. Sure sure, most people here have dsl now and faster connections speeds and all that crap but i guess my family's just too poor to get better a one and we're still probably like the only people that're still stuck with shitty old 56k modem speeds. Actually, it's not the modem's fault. It's my fucking ISP really. It's like, probably the worst ISP in the world. I shit you not.

Why don't i just go with a different ISP you ask? WELL BECAUSE THERE ISN'T ANY OTHER ISP. Woo. Yup. The only ISP we have here is also the worst ISp we have here.

Anyway, like you care how sucky my ISP is.

Gosh. I feel really weird being back home. It's just not the same. Well, not like what i'm used to anyway. What with me being away from home living a totally different lifestyle and all... for 8 months... only to come back and having to readjust to the 'old' ways all over again. It just feels weird.

I bet it's even showing in my posts.

I WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL. WHERE THE INTERNET IS FAST.

*cry*



War! - 1:49am April 19 2001
In other news, i've only been gone for less than 24 hours and i've missed out on so much! Since when did this 'war' between Thess and Suzi break out??

Haha. Geez, i don't even know what to think of it all!

But i gotta admit, it sure is damn funny.



Sue me - 1:31am April 19 2001
Okay okay. I know. Some of you were wondering why the hell there weren't any real updates for the whole of yesterday. Well, it's because i was on the road and in the air like the whole fucking day. Woke up at bloody 6am in the morning, had breakfast with a couple of my friends and roommates, they saw me off and helped carry my luggage and shit to the taxi, took a taxi ride to the airport that cost like 40 freakin' dollars, hopped on a plane, 'accidently' bumped into a stewardess' ass (hehe), arrived, mom picked up me at the airport, went shopping, finally arrived HOME at like 6:30pm or something, watched BRING IT ON, played with my G4, watched more BRING IT ON, and now... i'm finally bringing myself to post... using my G4 i might add.

I'm still not used to using Macs. Personally, i never really liked Macs but hey... i wouldn't exactly turn down the offer of owning one either. And now that i actually do own one, i'm actually pretty happy that i have one. Despite the initial teething problems. Learning to use an new OS and shit. But ah well,... i'll get used to it. Besides, i can also run Windows on this thing. So that's pretty cool. Connectix Virtual PC 4. It's a PC emulator. LIKE YOU CARE.

This Titanium Powerbook G4 thing's pretty spiffy actually. It's sleek, it's sexy, and i can watch BRING IT ON with it.

Portable Kirsten Dunst man. How cool is that?

By the way, The amount of Kirsten Dunst skin that you get to see in Bring It On DVD is borderline pornographic man.

Okay, so maybe i'm exagerrating a little bit but hey, it's probably the most skin you'll ever get to see in a PG-13 rated movie. Man, that extended locker room scene... like... holy crap man... IT'S LIKE THE BEST FUCKING SCENE EVER.

Anyway, there's no point in me trying to explain what goes on in that scene. You just gotta see it to believe it.

Okay. An announcement. I will be off to the city for the whole weekend starting today. Well, yeah, today basically. I'll be *hopefully* meeting up with Rod and maybe a couple of my JIS buddies and shit. I *probably* won't be updating as much but i'll try to whenever i can.

I'm probably gonna be bringing my G4 with me (to show off no less) so yeah, that'd be good if i do. That way i'll have even more of a better chance of being able to post. So it works both ways. Not only do i get to show off (haha), i'll also get to post like i'd normally do.

Unless i'm too busy doing some other stuff that is.

Okay, this post pretty much sucks. But you gotta bear with me. I've been on the road and in the air pretty much ALL DAY LONG, i thought i'd died and gone to heaven watching Kirsten Dunst bare so much skin in Bring It On on DVD and i'm still trying to get to grips with typing out a proper post with this decidedly weirder Mac keyboard.

Anyway, I'M HOME.

Expect more home related posts in the near future.

Wednesday, April 18, 2001

YES - 11:07pm April 18 2001

FINALLY!!!!

STILL IN THE SHRINK WRAP BABY!!!!! WOOOOOOOOO!!!!

This is the cause of me not posting for a whole entire day. Kirsten, you will be the downfall of this site. BUT I STILL LOVE YOU.

Tuesday, April 17, 2001

Elizabeth Hurley - 9:10pm April 17 2001
Okay so maybe Zil doesn't really look like Elizabeth Hurley. Okay well... maybe just a little bit. From certain angles. Like really really far away.

Anyway, she sent me this:


Never changes her clothes

You know, maybe it's just me but... it's like, in every webcam pic i've ever seen of her, it always seems like she's always wearing the SAME clothes. Doesn't she ever change her clothes? Haha. Change your clothes Zil.




Boring stuff (You don't need to read this) - 8:55pm April 17 2001
You know, i've been thinking. About me transferring to Michigan this August. I've been thinking of putting it off till December at the earliest. Or maybe even April next year. Because it's actually cheaper to do most of what i'm doing, here in fucking Malaysia. I mean, the Malaysian currency is pretty shit compared to... well... every other currency out there so it's actually cheaper to finish off whatever i can over here rather than spend more on tuition fees in the States. And with all that money saved, i can put it towards buying DVD's and fucking nine dollar Doritos here in stinkin' Malaysia.

And a coupla my buddies from my JIS days are gonna be coming over to WMU here in Malaysia this August so if i stay on, i'll be able to meet up with them. I think Majid and Oliver are gonna be coming here. Majid definitely, Oliver maybe. So yeah, it'll be cool to hang out with them for a semester or two before i finally head off to Michigan.

If i transfer later, i'll be saving money AND i'll be able to hang out with my JIS chums. Sure it'd be great to head off to Michigan as soon as possible but i think i'd like to hang out in this miserable country with my friends for a tad bit longer and save money in the long run while i'm at it.

Good idea no? I'll tell Majid and Oliver this once i get back home tomorrow.



Home - 7:05pm April 17 2001
Okay, just so you know, i'm going back HOME tomorrow. I'll be hopping on a plane and there to welcome me back home when i get home is Kirsten Dunst... on DVD that is.

But anyway, yeah HOME.

HOME IS WHERE THE KIRSTEN IS.

HOME!



The big O - 4:35pm April 17 2001
Anyway... to fulfill the e/n part of the site, where i bring to you stuff that's well... very e/n-ish... or something, you might wanna take a look at this.

I personally found it mildly amusing. But then again, i find everything mildly amusing.

Be sure to click on 'MEN' first.



Bad bad bad - 4:25pm April 17 2001
Oh man. Oh man oh man. I did so bad this semester. NOT THAT YOU CARE. But yeah, so so bad. Well... not as good as i hoped anyway. I mean, everything was going so well... IN THE BEGINNING. BUT WHEN THE HELL DID THINGS START GOING TO SHIT? I have no idea.

At this rate, my GPA's gonna be going every which way but up. Fuck me man. I just GOTTA do better next semester. I GOTTA. No excuses this time. No bullshit. I really really really need a good GPA. I've got no idea how my current standings are right now but i'm pretty damn sure that it ain't gonna be a pretty sight.

Please God pleeease let me do better next semester. At least an A in one subject... AT LEAST. Anything to pull up my GPA. ANYTHIIIIIING.

Oh crud. Looks like i'm gonna be sulking like... all fucking day now. I feel so shitty. Shitty man shitty.

Hell, not even a naked Kirsten Dunst on my lap can cheer me up now.

Well... maybe just a little.



Today's exam over and done with - 3:54pm April 17 2001

BWAHAHAHA

I am so gonna flunk that paper.



Within the woods - 10:25am April 17 2001
Hey you know... since i'm TOO BUSY STUDYING TO BE POSTING, you could all do yourselves a favor and head on over to Shasha's site. She's got a coupla pics posted up of this Bruneian couple FUCKING in the woods.

No shit.



One more stinkin' day - 9:10am April 17 2001
Would it be wrong for me to proclaim that i only got 608 hits yesterday?

Anyway, i've got an exam today. As if i haven't been telling you all enough about it these past coupla days. 2:30pm. I'll be busy studying and stuff between now and then. NOT THAT ANYBODY GIVES A SHIT.

Oh and by the way, these kooky yahoos got a new design up. What is it with kids and new designs these days? I swear man, it's like, every few freakin' weeks or so, they get themselves a new layout. How the hell do they find the time?

Monday, April 16, 2001

Signs - 4:54pm April 16 2001
Well seeing as to how much i really like this pic, Marrissa decided to make another fan sign using the same picture. Oh yes.


No, it's not the same pic. Note the very subtle differences.

Not just another pretty face. She's got a pretty good lookin' site too.


I seem to be quite on a roll today. Not only did Christina Aguilera up there (hey, someone told me she looked like her, i'm just going with the flow) make me a fan sign, the infamous evil one (i have proof) also made me a fan sign too.

Geez, to think that i actually get fan signs is like... totally... like wow you know?

Why the hell am i talking like a fuckin' valley girl?


That's her crackhead hat by the way.

Gotta love the crackhead hat.
And no, she's not really naked behind that piece of paper.


In other news (Okay, you can stop staring at those pictures now. No really i mean it), i've received some minor complaints about my site being weird. No, no weird in that way but weird as in acting weird. It seems that every time the site loads up, it automatically moves and scrolls down straight down to where the abuse box begins. As if it's forcing you to post something there.

No i didn't add any magical powers to the site that makes it do that without your persmission or anything but yeah, it seems to be annoying quite a number of people.

Funny thing is, i don't seem to be experiencing this strange 'site automatically moving to the abuse box' problem. Maybe it's because i'm in IE 4.0 (well... the school library is anyway). I've checked out my site from cybercafes numerous times and i've never experienced such problems. Weird. Anyway, i've moved the abuse box a little higher up the sidebar now. It makes the site look like shit though but hey, better than it having scroll down automatically to the middle of the fucking page every single time (for those of you experiencing this problem i mean). So if it does scroll down automatically, it'll at least be higher up on the page.

Anyway, i'll be trying to find a way to fix this. But if it just gets too annoying for you people out there, i'll probably just take it down. Although i'd hate to see it go. It's pretty interesting to read what you yahoos out there are posting in there.

I've also received complaints that the site takes like 87 million years to load up. Well, GET A FASTER CONNECTION BUCKO. But seriously, it's probably because i like to keep the main page filled with news and shit. It usually runs up to about 100k in size. And once it reaches 100k or so, i usually start archiving the older stuff on the page. But in an effort to keep loading times as low as possible, i'll be keeping this page under 80k at all times.

Well, i'll try to anyway.

My most favorite person on the internet. Nobody can even come close.

Okay so maybe they can come very close but NO ONE will ever take Thess's place at the top.

EVER.

Put it this way: if i had the choice of meeting Kirsten Dunst and meeting Thess, i'd meet Thess.

Respect.



Got soap? - 4:15pm April 16 2001
Taken out of context, this can be really funny:

m r i s u h: its cominggggg its coming

Rearrange these words: A Mind I Dirty Have.



Posting - 3:50pm April 16 2001
Okay, you gotta bear with me on the posting front. I know i haven't been posting that much today but... i've got an exam to sit for tomorrow. Study study study you know?

Okay so maybe i'm lying. So maybe all i've been doing for the past 6 hours or so is just talking and talking and talking on AIM. Which has led me to being utterly distracted from posting. AT ALL. I mean, when you have such interestingly beautiful and funny *twitching* and *grinning* people to talk to (Thess being my prime example right now), you just lose all motivation to post.

Anyway, here, how about a new picture of Kirsten Dunst instead?



Boom - 3:15pm April 16 2001
I have been on AIM for the past 6 hours or so. Non-stop. I feel like my bladder is going to explode.



405 - 9:40am April 16 2001
Dunno if everyone's seen this or not but it's fuckin' badass man.

Check it out



Mandy Moore - 8:45am April 16 2001
So has anyone seen the latest issue of YM with Mandy Moore on the cover? Well you should because, and i gotta say this man, she's got one HELL of a figure. Sure, she's a bit flat but hey, WHO CARES? She still looks great. I wouldn't mind picking up that issue just for the cover alone... IF IT DIDN'T COST LIKE 25 BUCKS.

Geez man, the prices they put on such trivial things like Doritos and issues of YM are fucking insane here in Malaysia. I mean, what the hell man? 25 dollars for an issue of YM??

Anyway, just in case you're wondering why in the world was i browsing through girlie mags, well... it's because... the DVD magazine section was right next to the girlie magazine section. And... Yeah.

No really.



Egg - 8:39am April 16 2001
By the way, for those of you who're interested in what happened to that egg that i got for free the other night, well, i left it out in the living room and it mysteriously got eaten by one of my roommates.

SOMEONE ATE MY EASTER EGG.



Kirsten Dunst - 8:30am April 16 2001

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To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
Subject: WHO IS KIRSTEN DUNST?
From: Kirsten Dunst Kirsten@Dunst.com
Date: Sun, Apr 15 2001 12:07:39 PM +0100

Are you on crack? I'm an actress, born on April 30, 1982, you can see me in Drop Dead Gorgeous, Bring It On, and in the new Spiderman movie.

You know me, J. Don't deny it.

K.
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So uh... when are you gonna bare your boobies in an R rated flick? You almost did in those Maxim photo shoots. Come on, you can do it. Do a Katie Holmes. Haha. Just once. I'll buy all your movies on DVD if you do. Even that crummy The Crow: Salvation one where they had your mouth all stitched up towards the end of the movie. Man, that was a sucky movie.

Are you any good in The Virgin Suicides? I haven't seen that movie yet. I will buy the DVD though. Only because you're in it. On Wednesday, i will be watching my Bring It On DVD when i get home.

I am looking forward to watching the Wardrobe and Makeup Test extra where you and Eliza Dushku will be mugging and laughing for the camera during your wardrobe and makeup tests. All of your twirling, laughing, hair tossing and smiling at the camera will make me feel like one special guy.

Look at the glowing review they gave your movie Kirsten! And the DVD's equally as great too! Everyone should own this DVD. Even if they don't have a DVD player! It's that good!

I love you Kirsten Dunst.

You are a golden goddess.

Your birthday's coming up soon. I shall do something special for you on that special day.

Sunday, April 15, 2001

DORITOS!!! - 8:25pm April 15 2001
So i go over to the mall right, 'cause i wanted to get myself a bottle of Sprite. I'm out you see. So anyway, i head over to the Supermarket and i grab myself a bottle. And i'm walkin' over to the counter with bottle in hand.

LO AND BEHOLD, WHAT DO I SEE?

No, not Kirsten Dunst but for the first time in 8 months, A BAG OF RED DORITOS! Speak of the devil man! I was like, "Holy shit! Red Doritos! Joy!".

So i pick it to see if it's real. Oh yeah it was real alright. Doritos. Anyway, i look at the price tag on it and what do i see?

FUCKING RM$9 FOR A BAG OF DORITOS!! NINE DOLLARS!! NINE BUCKS! NINE! 9! CAN YOU FUCKING BELIEVE IT NINE (9) DOLLARS FOR A FUCKING BAG OF DORITOS?!

So i say, "No. This has got to be a mistake". I look at the the bag of Ruffles next to the Doritos (first time i've seen Ruffles being sold here in 8 months too by the way...) and i take a look at the Ruffles' price tag.

NINE DOLLARS!

For the love of Kirsten Dunst man, who in their right mind would wanna spend NINE DOLLARS on a bag of crisps?! Hell, for nine dollars, i can get like... well... nine dollars worth of other stuff! Fucking nine dollars for a bag of Doritos.

Incon-fuckin'-ceivable.



Cranberry Raspberry Diet Snapple Fruit Drink - 6:16pm April 15 2001
I have such an intense craving for Doritos right now it's not even funny. I haven't had a bag of Doritos since... fucking September 2000! Seriously man, for the past 8 months that i've been here in Malaysia, i have not seen one single store that sells Doritos. How crummy is that? God, what i wouldn't give to have a bag of those red Doritos right now. Remind to buy a whole box of em when i get back home.

I can't believe they don't have Doritos here! What kind of country doesn't sell Doritos for god's sake?!

Anyway, since i can't find any Doritos here, i have to settle for the next best thing, Oreo Double Stuf cookies.

Oh yes.



You didn't... please no... - 2:20pm April 15 2001
So... how many of you actually tried singing along to the bastardization of Green Day's Minority lyrics down there?



Two thirds - 1:16pm April 15 2001
These are some pretty cool toys.

  • Homies
  • Death Row Marv
  • Billy the gay doll

    Okay so maybe that last one isn't really so cool.



    Usual bullshit - 1:11pm April 15 2001
    Okay so i lied. So maybe there really isn't "lots of juicy new reading material" today. Nor is there "lots of run of the mill usual bullshit" either. I admit, i admit. I'm slacking off. It's official.

    Anyone seen the new Josie And The Pussycats movie? Tara Reid man... HOT. Anyway, there's this chick that i keep seeing around campus. And i swear to you man, she looks EXACTLY like fucking Denise Richards. Everything man. Right down to her smile. Almost picture perfect except for the fact that she's smaller in stature. But shit man, EXACTLY like Denise Richards. And i'm not even kidding on this one.

    Believe me! This time, i really am seeing straight! Denise Richards i tell you!

    Too bad i have no proof.

    So anyway, it's Sunday today. My last exam's gonna be on this Tuesday and i'll be hopping on a plane going back home for the holidays the next day. That'd be on Wednesday if you're too lazy to rack your brain thinking of what day comes next after Tuesday.

    So the first thing i'm gonna do when i get home?

    Why of course!

    Watch 'Bring It On' on DVD! What else?

    I mean, i've only been like... waiting my whole life to watch that movie on DVD. Why my mom couldn't just have sent the thing over here i don't know. Instead she had the Amazon.com people send it back HOME to her instead of to the DORM to me. Blah.

    But hey, it's only three (3) more days. Three (3) more excruciatingly long arduous days till i can enjoy the splendor that is Kirsten Dunst, in a cheerleader outfit, on DVD, with freeze frame, frame advance, slow motion (forwards AND backwards) and a 3x zoom function. Oh yes.

    My DVD remote's gonna be having a real workout on that day.

    Amongst other things. HAHAHAHA.



    Minority - Green Day - 12:42pm April 15 2001

    i want to be the minority
    i don't need your authority
    down with the moral majority
    'cause i want to be the minority

    i pledge allegiance to the e/nderworld
    one poster under blog
    there of which i post alone
    a face in the crowd
    unsung against the mold
    without a doubt
    singled out
    the only way i know

    i want to be the minority
    i don't need your authority
    down with the moral majority
    'cause i want to be the minority

    stepping out of line
    like somebody from south park
    cursing all the time
    to my own beat now
    the only way i know

    one site one mind
    hiding in the dark
    hidden from view under a thousand URLS
    for crying out loud you should visit me
    give me your all
    fuck em all
    visit my website

    i want to be the minority
    i don't need your authority
    down with the moral majority
    'cause i want to be the minority

    Saturday, April 14, 2001

    Uh... - 9:03pm April 14 2001
    Okay so maybe i've been slacking off a bit lately. I've even had some people complain to me, "POST MORE YOU ASS". Well, not exactly in those words but yeah, basically something like that. Basically.

    Anyway, it's the weekend, i'm in the middle of my finals and i just need a tiny little break. So sue me. But rest assured though, i'll have lots of juicy new reading material for you in store tomorrow.

    Okay so maybe it won't be as 'juicy' as you're expecting it to be but has anything i've ever written here been 'juicy' at all even in the smallest sense of the word? No. So yeah, i should take that back really. Let me try that again: Expect your run of the mill usual bullshit tomorrow. Yeah. That sounds just about right.

    Actually you know what? I don't even know what i'm trying to say right now.

    I want cheesecake.



    He's gotta be - 8:47pm April 14 2001
    You know what? I think Mizi is David Arquette!



    Egg - 8:41pm April 14 2001
    Is it Easter tomorrow? There are people all around campus giving away free eggs and shit. So it's gotta be Easter tomorrow or something.

    Guess what i'll be eating tonight? Haha. Happy Easter Day.

    Tomorrow i mean. Or whenever.



    !!!!! - 2:40pm April 14 2001
    SEE??!

    I FUCKING TOLD YOU MIZI FROM CYBERFUNK LOOKS LIKE DAVID ARQUETTE!!! GO LOOK!

    And LGA seems to think the same thing too so yeah, i guess i'm not alone.



    SATURDAY! - 12:45pm April 14 2001
    Okay okay okay. So if Solo ain't Kirsten (and Katherine... and Katie...), THEN WHO IS?? WILL THIS MYSTERY REMAIN UNSOLVED FOR ALL ETERNITY?

    Anyway, i went out and bought not one, but TWO DVD's last night. Bought a coupla oldies that i've never seen before. EDtv: Collectors Edition and The Boxer: Collectors Edition.

    I'm a sucker for collectors editions.

    They're both pretty loaded for extras. Both of them movies run at about 2 hours each PLUS both of em have like SHITBUCKETLOADS of deleted scenes. EDtv has like 40 minutes (!) of deleted scenes while The Boxer has 15 minutes worth AND an alternate ending. There's more than that of course. And if i were to list em all out here, it'd probably take me like... a long time. Yeah.

    --------------------
    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Hits
    From: SIMBI444@aol.com
    Date: Fri, Apr 13 2001 3:00:27 PM EDT

    How many hits do you get a day and wheres your hit counter?
    --------------------

    Well i generally get about 400 or 500 hits a day average. It fluctuates. On a good day, it's usually well over 500. On a bog standard day it's about 400. On a crap day, it's 300. On the day i quit, it'll be 0.

    MY HIT COUNT IS SHIT.

    Where's my counter? Well, it's very well hidden that's where it is. It's so well hidden that i can't even find it for myself sometimes. I did a 1 pixel by 1 pixel job on it. And i also changed the counter image's color so that it blends in with the background. Seeing that it's so small, hell, it could be ANYWHERE on this page.

    It doesn't take a rocket scientist to locate its position though. Any yahoo could do it.

    So anyway, i was watching EDtv for the first time last night, and of course, unless you're a complete idiot, you'd know that Elizabeth Hurley has a small starring role in that movie. Anyhoo, i have come to the conclusion that Zil looks like Elizabeth Hurley!

    It's true!

    But then again, i'm also the one who says Thess look like Lola, Mizi looks like David Arquette and Antwon looks like Oliver Platt. And that Katherine Heigl looks good. On my lap.

    So yeah, don't count out the possibility of me being blind and out of my mind. Again.

    In other news, i have no other news.

    Friday, April 13, 2001

    Oh yes it's true - 8:20pm April 13 2001
    This piece of literature is the best thing ever written in the history of all things... ever written. I could re-read it over and over and over again without ever getting the slightest bit bored.

    In other news, for the past half hour or so, i have been trying to convince Zil of the greatness of a movie that is 'Bring It On'. But even despite after forcing her to into reading the above linked article, she still thinks that, and i quote, "it was alright.. nothing out of the ordinary".

    ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND WOMAN? 'Bring It On' is the single best piece of modern cinema in history to date! I personally think that it should've been nominated for Best Picture AND WON at the Oscars this year. Not that crappy ass 'Gladiator' flick.

    Anyway, it's not surprising that she didn't like this movie. I wouldn't expect more from someone who actually liked 'Save The Last Dance'.

    Haha.

    <3



    Fun with Chris and Dave - 4:30pm April 13 2001

    psykotik2k: hey, how far away are you from dave
    Empedocles: 6 feet.
    psykotik2k: can you reach him?
    psykotik2k: with your hand?
    Empedocles: I can throw...
    psykotik2k: well you're gonna need to reach him with your hand if you wanna touch his ass
    Empedocles: You see...
    Empedocles: I do not "wanna touch his ass"
    Empedocles: so, I think that it's irrelevant in that case.
    psykotik2k: why not? i bet he has a sweet ass doesn't he?
    psykotik2k: you probably check it out like twice a day or something. haha
    psykotik2k: ass man
    Empedocles: Justin... that's not very funny.

    psykotik2k: HEY HEY HEY
    Fedallah: .
    psykotik2k: OOMPA OOMPA
    psykotik2k: what are you doing?
    Fedallah: YOUR MOM
    Fedallah: HA HA
    psykotik2k: HAHAHAHA

    Empedocles: Dave is obsessed with people's mothers.
    Empedocles: I think he wishes his wasn't a circus clown.

    psykotik2k: i think he wants to touch your ass or something
    Fedallah: probably
    psykotik2k: see? look
    psykotik2k: i'll paraphrase something he said:
    psykotik2k: Empedocles: I do [.....] "wanna touch his ass"
    Fedallah: LOL
    Fedallah: LOLOL

    TOUCH THEIR ASSES.



    I've never seen that movie before - 3:25pm April 13 2001
    I guess i did reasonably well on that Psych paper that i just sat for. I mean, i'll be happy enough if i can get 50+/- over 60. Of course, knowing my luck, it'll probably be somewhere around 45 or something. AS IF IT MATTERED TO YOU.



    Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory - 11:10am April 13 2001
    Yup. I have run out of things to read. I'ma go study now. I'ma go cram. I'ma go swot.



    Willy Wonka - 10:45am April 13 2001

    --------------------
    To: "'webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com'" webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: RE: Post more godammit
    From: "Hinds, William" WHinds@netEPS.com
    Date: Thu, Apr 12 2001 8:52:19 AM -0400

    if i had a larger audience i would post more often myself, but being that it's a journal most people assume i post once a day and whenever i do post more then once a say they only read the newer post and completely ignore the first one. which blows by my standards. that's the crap with having a journal and not a blog. someday i'll get one... at any rate. don't post less i enjoy all your little rants as insignificant or immature as they may be from time to time. they define who you are, which is pretty fucking cool, in my opinion. at any rate i have no audience so it's pointless to post more often. i don't think anyone really cares that much.
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    Oompa oompa.



    Run - 10:35am April 13 2001
    But no really, she does. To me anyway. Well...from certain angles...in the movie...like really really far away. Ha.

    Okay so maybe she doesn't look like you but yeah, she sure does remind me of you for some odd reason.

    Do you run a lot? Haha.



    Mood - 1:31am April 13 2001
    Ooh. Spooky. Friday the 13th. Anyway, here i am cramming away at the last minute trying to get as much as possible through this thick skull of mine. Psychology exam today at 2pm. I gotta do good in this one to make up for that motherfucking D/C grade that i got for that goddamned English research paper. Shit man, i'm still bummed out by that. I just feel like i wanna DIE. Man, i was planning on getting an A for that class. Or at least a fucking B/A. WELL LOOKS LIKE I WON'T BE GETTING EITHER WHAT WITH THAT STUPID D/C PULLING NOT ONLY MY OVERALL GRADE DOWN BUT ALSO MY FUCKING GPA.

    Anyway, no use crying over spilt milk. I'll just have to try to ace this Psych exam and my upcoming COM 200 one next Wednesday.

    Man, this sucks. Stupid D/C just killed all my mood for posting.

    Thursday, April 12, 2001

    Post more godammit - 8:06pm April 12 2001
    Okay. Doesn't anybody update their sites anymore?? I swear man, there's almost like, nothing new at all to read these days. Sure sure, some sites do post on daily basis but they're usually far and few inbetween. And even if some of them do post daily, it's usually just like, ONCE a day or something. People should post more. I want to see more posts godammit.

    ABANDON YOUR SOCIAL LIVES! LIVE ON THE INTERNET! POST MORE!

    Anyway, seeing that nobody else cares to post on a regular basis anymore, i might as well join the bandwagon and post less too.



    15 minutes - 7:05pm April 12 2001
    Remember the review that i wrote for 15 Minutes? As in the movie '15 Minutes' i mean. Not like a '15 minute review'. Idiot. Anyway, is Charlize Theron giving mid-to-late 80's Michael Caine/Gene Hackman a run for their money by trying to star in EVERY movie that comes out? She's pretty, but, give someone else a chance!!!

    Consider this, since December of 1999...CIDER HOUSE RULES, REINDEER GAMES, THE YARDS, THE LEGEND OF BAGGER VANCE, MEN OF HONOR, SWEET NOVEMBER, and recently, 15 MINUTES, which is a bit part, but still enough to make the gap between Samuel L Jackson movies look immense.

    Are there NO other actresses in Hollywood? And how can someone star in 7 films in just over a year and STILL not be a household name?



    Another theory - 6:05pm April 12 2001

    --------------------
    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: The whole Kirsten Dunst e-mail situation
    From: "Kevin" scmilk@tampabay.rr.com
    Date: Wed, Apr 11 2001 11:36:24 PM -0400

    Whoever did it just used a form mail script and specified the from address as Kirsten@dunst.com simple as that. Same with all the others.
    --------------------

    Well, yeah. That could be it too. I doubt it could actually be Solo because i don't even know if he actually reads this page but hey, you gotta admit, that ifindyourlackoffaithdisturbing thing sure does make it seem like it's him.

    I could be wrong though. I AM HUMAN AFTER ALL.



    Bitch - 5:55pm April 12 2001
    I SERIOUSLY HATE MY FUCKING ENGLISH LECTURER. SHE IS A FUCKING BITCH. I WANT HER TO DIE FOR GIVING ME A FUCKING D/C FOR MY RESEARCH PAPER. I mean, holy shit man, a D/C???????! That's the first time in YEARS that i've gotten anything less than a B in all the English classes that i've taken in my entire LIFE. FUCK HER AND HER FUCKING D/C. She must seriously hate me or something. I mean, i got an A for the creative paper that i wrote and i'm sure i'll get an A for the exam that i just sat for BUT A FUCKING D/C for my research paper??? That'll like... SERIOUSLY bring down my fucking GPA and DEFINITELY blow any chances of me getting an A overall for this fucking class.

    WHAT A BITCH. Remind me NOT to take any of her goddamned classes next semester. I WANT HER TO DIE. DIE DIE DIE.



    See what i mean? - 11:00am April 12 2001

    --------------------
    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: website
    From: "Adam McDaniel" skippydumptruck@hotmail.com
    Date: Wed, Apr 11 2001 7:50:34 PM -0700

    Wasn't implying the rest of your site was crap - haven't had a chance to look it over properly. Send me a msg on AIM sometime (s/n SkippyDumptruck).

    -Skippy
    http://www.skippydumptruck.f2s.com/
    --------------------

    Dude, i KNOW you weren't implying that the rest of my site was crap. Don't worry about it. Haha.

    See what i mean about people taking my comments/posts/responses too seriously? I rest my case.

    But then again you ARE kinda new here so yeah, i don't blame you for taking what i said too seriously. =P



    I have hot chick celebrities e-mailing me constantly - 10:30am April 12 2001

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Hey.
    From: Katie Holmes Katie@Holmes.com
    Date: Wed, Apr 11 2001 7:08:02 PM +0100

    You're pushing your luck, dude. Don't ever mess with a clique, especially not a ring of Hollywood girlies. Damn, do you have a DEATH WISH?

    Oh, and MONKEY SEX? I'm a classy bird, mate. Classy.

    Katie Holmes.
    --------------------

    Does this mean no monkey sex?

    Anyway, i think i have a fairly good idea of who's actually been sending in these 'celebrity e-mails'. You see, not so long ago, well... yesterday actually, Kirsten Dunst said something awfully familiar in the e-mail she sent me. She said, "I find your lack of faith disturbing".

    So i thought, "Hmm...that sounds awfully familiar".

    So i, in my infinite wisdom (no really, my infinite wisdom), just decided to type out ifindyourlackoffaithdisturbing into the address bar of my browser and add a little .com at the end of it.

    AND WHERE DID IT TAKE ME?

    Well, see for yourself.

    What a poo bum prankster.



    What? - 10:23am April 12 2001
    I HAVE AN EXAM TODAY???? Holy crap! How come i didn't know about this?? I've got my English finals to site for at 12:00pm today for heavens sake. Shit. I think maybe it's time for me to actually have an actual look at my exam timetable for once instead of just asking around. Blah.



    FHM - 4:37am April 12 2001
    If you're wondering where i'm getting all of these wonderful wonderful jokes, well it's from this little FHM The Best Of Bar Room Jokes booklet that you get free with the April issue of lousy FHM Malaysia. So kudos to Simon for correctly identifying it's original source (FHM) and a big "YOU'RE SO FUCKING WRONG YOU MORON" to the yahoo in the 'abuse' box on my sidebar who thought i'd stolen it from some other site.

    Speaking of FHM, the girls on from S Club 7 are on the cover of this month's lousy Malaysian edition of FHM. Good god, that Rachel Stevens is one hot tamale.

    But not as hot as Kirsten Dunst though. Or Katherine Heigl. Or Katie Holmes.

    But still hot nonetheless.



    Albert Einstein scores again - 3:57am April 12 2001
    What's the smartest thing ever to come out of a woman's mouth?

    Einstein's knob.



    Idiots - 2:05am April 12 2001
    You know, it pains me to say that there are people out there who still don't get the intentions of this site. I mean, to think what with the endless barrage of daily bullshit that's posted here day in and day out, people would actually begin to realize that it's all mostly tongue in cheek.

    But nooooooooo, there just happen to be a FEW stupid people out there who actually can't see that for a fact. I mean, is it not enough that i even poke fun at myself in my posts? Do you want me to hit you on the head with a baseball bat and say, "IT'S NOT SUPPOSED TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY YOU IDIOT"?

    It's almost a repeat of what happened the last time way back in October 2000 when there was this big ass dispute about how i am and how i act on this site. Yeah sure i can be asshole supreme sometimes but you gotta realize that it's all in good humor. Well, maybe not good humor but yeah, humor nonetheless. In my own little warped way that is. And if you fail to see that, well i suggest you read something else that requires less usage of your cerebral area.

    Geez Louise man. This isn't exactly the 'smartest' site ever but it's also definitely not the dumbest one either. Doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure it all out really. And for the love of Kirsten Dunst, you're not exactly supposed to take EVERYTHING that i say on this site seriously you know? By all means, laugh at the layer of shit that's on top of the gold but don't laugh at the gold itself. You know what i mean? Not that i've received and complaints or anything about my behavior recently but yeah, i'd just like to clear up any misconceptions that SOME people may (still) have about this site in general.

    This post isn't really aimed at anyone in particular but if you feel a slight sting while reading this post, then yeah, you've probably one of those few people who've taken this site way too seriously.

    Don't think that i'm not aware of what i post and how it may be perceived by other people. As dumb as i usually make out the posts to be, there's a lot of psychological manipulation kinda stuff going on behind the scenes. Not many people can spot it but it certainly is there. And those who get it, well... they get it. And those who don't are just left confused as to why i'm so 'arrogant' or so 'full of shit'.

    Pretentious as it may seem, what i'm saying right now is true. I should know because i'm the one who write this stuff. I don't study Psychology and Communications for nothing you know. I put quite a bit of what i know and what i've learnt to good use through this site. It's kinda like a little game to me really. To see how many people'll 'get' my site and just go along for the ride. Of course, those who don't 'get' my site just lambast it for being so... well... whatever it is that they think of it i guess (hint: usually something bad).

    Let take a look at the two names that this site can go by: FUBAR and Badinagoodway. There's a good reason why i chose to call this site FUBAR. It's because it literally is FUBAR in more ways than one. I mean, come on, how many other sites do you read post up PRETEEN LESBIAN SEX and VISIBLE PANTY LINE in big ass letters on their main page? Not many. And even if you do stumble across such a site with such words on them, you gotta be thinking, "That's pretty fucked up". So there you go.

    And why did i choose Badinagoodway.com as a domain name? To further illustrate my point of the double meanings/shit on the gold/so bad that it's good/so unfunny that it's funny nature of the site in general.

    The site is BAD but in a GOOD way.

    I personally think that it's both. Although leaning more towards the BAD side though.

    Interpret that however you want.

    But anyway, this is just MY definitive opinion on how i think you should view this site as: NOT TOO SERIOUSLY. Of course everybody's got their own opinion about everything but this post right here, it's just to help guide you a bit about how things work and also to let you know of the real intentions of this site. If it even has any.

    And if you happens to think that the site sucks, well then hey, it sucks. Haven't i always been saying that all this time? But if you happen to think that it's good, then i say, OF COURSE IT'S GOOD. IT'S BECAUSE I MADE IT GOOD. I AM GOOD.

    And if you fail to see the humor in that last statement, it's because it was never meant to be funny in the first place.

    Haha.

    Wednesday, April 11, 2001

    Soon, they will all be MINE - 9:25pm April 11 2001
    First Kirsten Dunst, then Katherine Heigl. Wow. I wonder who will e-mail me next. Maybe Katie Holmes? Haha.

    KATIE HOLMES, IF YOU'RE READING THIS, I WANT TO HAVE MAD PASSIONATE MONKEY SEX WITH YOU.

    And marry you too.



    Haute densitâ - 9:05pm April 11 2001
    "i would laugh if kelvin's quitting his site turns out to be him copying another FUBAR trademark (qutting the site on a bi-monthly basis)" - Edo



    No shit Sherlock - 8:55pm April 11 2001

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: website
    From: "Adam McDaniel" skippydumptruck@hotmail.com
    Date: Wed, Apr 11 2001 3:19:22 AM -0700

    Hey,

    Just wanted to let you know that I saw your site yesterday, and I thought the splash page (with the block of letters) was very original. Kudos.

    -SkippyDumptruck
    www.skippydumptruck.f2s.com
    --------------------

    Yeah. I know. BUT TOO BAD THE REST OF THE SITE ISN'T.

    Cute name for a site by the way. SkippyDumptruck.



    Teaser trailer - 8:25pm April 11 2001
    Okay. I have come to the conclusion that Liz is probably like... the biggest tease the e/n world has ever seen. Or the biggest tease that i've ever seen anyway.

    I mean, ever since i... well, first 'discovered' her way back late last year, she's always had these cryptic 'altered beyond all recognition' pictures of herself integrated into her layouts. And NONE of them have ever shown what she really looks like. Although all signs do point to 'HOT'. And you all probably know by now (if you've been reading this site long enough) about how i always used to literally BEG her (and i still do... to no avail i might add) for her to send me an UNALTERED picture of herself. And how she'd always manage to avoid talking about sending me her pic in all the e-mails that she used to send me. And she still hasn't sent me her pic ever since! Although she did make me a fansign, which, if you click here, you'll get to see in all it's cheeky splendor.

    I still find that amazing though. I mean, talk about willpower. I've probably asked her for her pic like... 300 times or something. Any other normal person would've just cracked under the pressure and gave in.

    But not her.

    The poo bum that she is.

    Anyway, she's back with ANOTHER new layout and ANOTHER big tease of a picture.

    You'll see what i mean.

    <3



    Well... - 4:52pm April 11 2001
    ...that pretty much sucked. Nothing new at the mall and not even a single new DVD. So i bought some groceries instead. Three packets of soup actually. AS IF YOU NEEDED TO KNOW THAT.

    But no really. It's been a hell of a boring day, i've got an exam to study for and i have absolutely NOTHING worthwhile to post about.

    Except maybe for the fact that i got a haircut today. And as always, it looks like crap. But somehow it usually starts to look good after about 5 days or so. Sometimes i wish i could just skip past the 5 days of looking crap and go straight into the looking good part.

    Okay, is it just me or does Antwon really look like Oliver Platt or what? You know, that guy in Ready To Rumble and Three To Tango?

    Well i think he does so there.

    And while i'm at it, i also happen to think that Mizi looks like David Arquette and Thess looks like Lola from Run Lola Run.

    And that Katherine Heigl looks good. On my lap.



    Bye - 1:55pm April 11 2001
    I'm going to the mall to look at DVD's.



    E-mails - 12:10pm April 11 2001
    Just so you know, i've got my Psychology finals to sit for THIS FRIDAY. So excuse me if i don't have that much material to work with for the site these few days. And by that i mean: SORRY IF I CAN'T POST A LOT. I GOT OTHER THINGS TO DO.

    You understand. A lot of other things on my mind y'see?

    Anyway, we ALL know how we like to read other people's e-mails. Well... here. You can read mine:

    --------------------
    Fullname: PuRrrrrrrr
    Email: amiacoolcatorwhat@hotmail.com
    Where are you from?: china
    Comments: Hey just who the hell is this Kelvin guy? He sounds like a joke. Any pic of him? We sure would love to see how a sucker look like.

    Ciao.
    --------------------

    Okay so maybe that wasn't really an e-mail (it's actually a guestbook signing to be exact) but hey, it's all the same to me.

    Anyway, yeah. I could really be a super evil meanie and post up this really horrible picture of him trying to offer fat Jeff a handjob (i kid you not) but... i won't. Besides, he's gone through enough ridicule as of late. Any more and he'll probably just die crying.

    Actually that would be a good thing.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Katherine@Heigl.com
    From: Kirsten Dunst Kirsten@Dunst.com
    Date: Tue, Apr 10 2001 2:28:50 PM +0100

    I find your lack of faith disturbing.

    The wedding's off.

    I'm going to have a word with Kat, and get her to kick your ass for screwing me about like this.

    K.
    --------------------

    HAH! Pssssh... yeah right. I'd like to see you TRY. 'Kirsten Dunst'.

    I still love you though. And i'd still like to marry you. You sure the wedding's off? Oh well.

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    Fullname: Dave
    Email: fact0r@fact0r.net
    Where are you from?: Grand Rapids Michigan
    Homepage Name: Fact0r
    Homepage URL: http://www.fact0r.net
    Comments: Sweeeeeeeet site! definatly a daily visit, glad i added it as a link.... check out my site fact0r (http://www.fact0r.net)! cya everyone

    suzi is hot!
    --------------------

    Of course it's definitely a daily visit. In fact, it's a 10+ times daily visit. Maybe even more than that.

    Holy crap. You're from Grand Rapids Michigan? That's where Ash's boomstick was made. That alone makes you cool. IF IT'S TRUE.

    Yes she is actually. Quite. ALTHOUGH STILL EVIL.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Hey buddy
    From: Katherine Heigl Katherine@Heigl.com
    Date: Tue, Apr 10 2001 8:16:26 PM +0100

    Oh boy, are you in trouble! Listen up Justin, I just got off the phone with Kirsten, she was upset as hell. If you

    or ANY man screw her about like that again, they'll answer to me.

    Understood?

    Kat.

    P.S. 41 pictures of me? You seem like a sweet guy. Little insane and obsessed, maybe, but I'm flattered.

    *mwah*
    --------------------

    Mother Mary Francis!! IT'S KATHERINE HEIGL! KATHERINE@HEIGL.COM!!! Holy crap.

    Hey uh... i think Kirsten dumped me. Will you marry me instead?



    Private - 6:03am April 11 2001
    A private is alone on sentry duty when suddenly the phone rings in his box.

    "Hello? Hello?" a voice shouts down the phone. "Are there many vehicles in the officer's car park?" The sentry steps out of his box and looks across the road, where a solitary Bentley is parked. He goes back to the box and answers the caller.

    "Only that fat bastard General Jackson's car" he says.

    "Do you know who you're talking to?" booms the voice down the line. "This is General Jackson!"

    "Do you know who you're talking to?" the private replies, completely unflustered.

    "No" General Jackson answers.

    "Well fuck off then, fat arse" the private replies.

    Tuesday, April 10, 2001

    Word of the moment - 9:30pm April 10 2001

    POO BUM

    To be used in a sentence like this:

    "Zil hardly ever updates her site. What a poo bum"



    Hallelujah!! - 9:10pm April 10 2001
    DING DONG THE WITCH IS DEAD!



    Tis true! - 8:40pm April 10 2001
    READ ANTWON.



    Run Lola Run - 6:55pm April 10 2001
    How many of you have seen this movie Run Lola Run? If you haven't, well, you should. It's a fucking beautiful piece of modern cinema. Sure sure, it's in German but hey, it still kicks ass. As a testament to how good a movie it is, i have the DVD. And i don't just buy any DVD, i buy DVD's that are worth buying... and watching. So yeah, Run Lola Run.

    Now for those of you who've actually seen it (which i doubt any of you have...), well, call me crazy but whenever i watch that movie, i always happen to think about Thess. I mean, fuck me if i'm wrong, but i personally think Thess looks like Lola. Or at least bears a striking resemblance to her. Albeit with flaming red hair.

    But then again, i'm also the one who thinks Mizi looks like David Arquette so yeah, don't rule out the possibility of me being nuts.



    Hah! - 5:00pm April 10 2001
    Hey maybe i should start obssessing more about Katherine Heigl. Then maybe she'd start e-mailing me! Haha.

    Yeah, i'd like to try and see you, yes you 'Kirsten Dunst', get a Katherine@Heigl.com e-mail address then! Hahahaha.



    Hey how about that? - 1:54pm April 10 2001
    I've somehow made it onto Solo's sidebar. Wow. I never thought i'd EVER get on there. But then again, i am hosted by him so it's not really that big of a surprise. But even so, i'm still kinda surprised that i'm actually on there. Who woulda thunk?

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Cutting down on posts.
    From: "/Kit" kit@unadopted.com
    Date: Mon, Apr 9 2001 9:25:20 PM +0100

    Three words: UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES.

    /Kit
    --------------------

    Okay okay. I'll keep on posting. If you keep on coming back.

    In other boring ass news, i turned in my research paper today. You know, the one on Satanism. Boy that was a half ass paper. Everyone else had like plastic covers and bindings and shit. Mine was just stapled together. I doubt i'll even get an A for that paper. I mean, it's just so half assed. I'll be happy enough if i get a B/A or at least a B for my English class this semester.

    With that said, i've only got one more assignment left before i head into my finals week next week. I got some factor paper to turn in to my COM 200 lecturer (the one that swears alot) by this Thursday. And then it's exam time for the rest of the next week. Of course, you gotta understand that i probably won't be able to post as much then. Because i'll probably be studying and all. You know.

    And after my exams are over, i'll be going back HOME. To be greeted by my Manhunter, Se7en and Bring It On DVD's AND... my, sure to be sweet ass, Titanium Powerbook G4. Oh yes.

    I'll probably be taking a weekend off from the site when i get back home. I'll be going up to the city to meet up with 2 of TFW's members to hang out and shit. And maybe even go on that date thing i talked about yesterday. Haha.

    I dunno. We'll see what happens. As always, i'll keep all of you 'die hard fans' posted on what i'll be doing.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: its suzi
    From: BoRDeMKWeeN@cs.com
    Date: Mon, Apr 9 2001 5:44:55 PM EDT

    u cut down on posts and ill hurt you. put it that way. well i doubt i could cuz im little but im sure its possible. so dont cut down on posts..youve been warned..
    --------------------

    I think she forgot the 'evil' part in the subject line.

    Evil Suzi she is.

    I had to archive that 'longest post in the world' post into the archives. It's just taking up too much space on this page.

    I like cheesecake.



    Kirsten oh Kirsten... - 1:15pm April 10 2001
    But seriously though, WHO ARE YOU KIRSTEN DUNST AND HOW DID YOU GET A KIRSTEN@DUNST.COM E-MAIL ADDRESS?

    I checked out Dunst.com and all i got was some Dunst Fulfillment and Mailing Service company thing. Hardly what i would think Kirsten Dunst would be associated with.

    Although i could really for some 'Dunst Fullfillment' right now. If you know what i mean.

    So anyway, i'm just guessing (and this is like a REALLY wild guess) that somebody who works there, reads my site, and is playing a really horrible horrible joke on me. I could be wrong but hey, like i said, it's just a wild guess.

    Nevertheless, i still love Kirsten Dunst.

    *swoon*



    Kirsten, why must you torment me? - 11:17am April 10 2001

    --------------------
    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Hey sweetie
    From: Kirsten Dunst Kirsten@Dunst.com
    Date: Mon, Apr 9 2001 2:23:15 PM +0100

    You DO want to marry me? Please J, sweetheart, don't mess with my emotions like this...

    I need you. More than I've never needed anyone, I need you.

    With love, K.
    --------------------

    NOOOOOOO!!!! I mean, YESSSSS!!!! I mean, NOOO!! You're not real dammit!

    Okay, so maybe i do mean yes. But only if you're real. Of which you're not of course.

    You not right? Because if you are, MARRY ME PLEASE.



    My mistake - 11:13am April 10 2001
    Actually, i got almost 500 hits yesterday. I usually get around 300 or so. Hm. Weird.



    Well - 2:15am April 10 2001
    So i get an IM from the dude who wrote me the second e-mail in the post below this one and he goes on to say, "DUDE YOUR SITE FUCKING ROCKS! I READ IT EVERYDAY!" yadda yadda yadda... you know, something to that extent. Hey, i'm all for any praise that heads my way but i can't help but feel slightly PUZZLED as to why some people think of this site as being 'great'. Personally, i think... well... you should ALL know what i think about this site by now so i shouldn't even have to tell you again. But i mean, well... to me anyway, a site can only be deemed 'great' if it receives like shitload of hits per day, kinda like Solo's and Mizi's. They both get at least around 1000 hits a day. Maybe even more than that. Now those are great sites.

    This site USED to get around 500/600+/- hits a day. I considered that pretty okay. I was satisfied. Of course, i've lost like almost two thirds or my regulars due to the move and due to my quitting. And now i only get like around 300 a day. But hey, that's to be expected. Not that 300's BAD or anthing. I like 300. I mean, at least it's not like... 50. Yeah, that would suck. Haha.

    No offence to people to who get 50 a day though. Hey, i used to get 50 a day too you know?

    Anyway, back to why people actually like this site. WHY? I honestly don't get it sometimes. I actually talked about this to Fedallah once. He simply said that people probably just relate to whatever it is that i post about. And that's why they probably like it. But i post really dumb things. I mean, some of the stuff here's just plain old juvenile at times. How anybody could actually like that sorta thing is beyond me. Especially since that's pretty much all i ever display on this site anyway: Juvenile humor.

    That's actually probably it really. The humor. Am i right? Is that why you shemps keep coming back for more? I was once told that i had a sense of humor akin to a young Seinfeld or something. Now i wouldn't know because i've NEVER watched a single episode of Seinfeld EVER. Yes, very sad. I know. I totally missed out on the whole Seinfeld culture. Never even seen a SINGLE episode. Not even ONE. Not even 5 minutes or a single episode. I've never watched Seinfeld PERIOD.

    Anyway, yeah, humor. I've got a really dry sense of humor. Like... really deadpan. Actually i don't even know how to describe my sense of humor. I don't even know if i even have one. Well even if i do or don't, and if i did, i guess you could say that it's definitely a little warped. Actually it's not even a little bit warped. It IS warped. I mean, who else would find humor in such unlikely things like visible panty lines, preteen lesbian sex and... well yeah, you get the idea.

    Actually you know what? I don't really have a point to make with this post. Yeah, i thought i'd just write for about 5 minutes straight only to come to absolutely NO conclusion.

    I'm kooky that way.

    Monday, April 9, 2001

    Okay okay - 7:40pm April 9 2001

    --------------------
    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Don't you dare.
    From: "Jennifer" thess@theheretic.net
    Date: Mon, Apr 9 2001 4:33:33 AM -0400

    You leave me for DAYS upon DAYS without anything to read, and now that you're back, you want to cut down? I don't think so.

    Please, no. :(

    - jenn
    --------------------

    Only for you baby. Only for you.

    --------------------
    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Cut down on the posts = NO.
    From: "Yakov Vorobyev" rpgnews@rpgnews.com
    Date: Mon, Apr 9 2001 3:31:43 AM -0400
    --------------------

    And yeah, maybe you too.



    Ass - 7:20pm April 9 2001
    Goddamit. My fucking farting roommate edited my last post abit. He put a link to some yahoo profile that he got off from an e-mail that someone sent me. Asshole.

    That's probably the first time anybody else's ever fucked around with my HTML... other than myself. Well, it's gone now. Remind me never to leave him alone, in charge of the PC terminal that i'm using, with my FTP and wordpad open, in the library, while i'm off somewhere to get some books.

    Anyway, speaking of my farting roommate, i no longer have to steal his toothpaste anymore. I bought the cheapest, smallest tube of toothpaste i could find earlier today at some corner store.

    YES I HAVE TOOTHPASTE FINALLY.



    Holy crap - 6:15pm April 9 2001
    So i was replying to this girl right, whose e-mail i'd not replied to in like nearly a month, she reads my site and she lives in Brunei and all and i, not surprisingly, did my usual, "How old are you? Oh? Okay! You can be my girlfriend!" thing (to which she rejected my proposal...blah) and then i just jokingly go on to ask her out on a date... in the e-mail. To which she said:

    "But about the date...hmm...sure why not? ....[edited down].... Why don't we go roller blading at Anduki Park? Or go swimming? Drop me a line if you are interested.

    Good god. I almost fainted.



    Oh man - 5:30pm April 9 2001
    Okay. Don't ask me how but... i actually managed to kick myself in the nuts today. Yes, that's right, i somehow managed to deliver a kick to myself in the groin area... or, to put it more bluntly, in the balls.

    I must've been keeling over in pain, on my bed, for like 5 minutes or something. I never realized how long it actually takes to recover from getting kicked in the crotch. I mean, you watch all these movies where guys'd get kicked in the nads and miraculously just keep on going as if nothing ever happened, well, it's all bullshit!

    Don't believe the hype. Getting kicked in the nutsack hurts like hell and takes at least 10 full minutes to fully recover from the after effects.

    Believe you me. I should know.



    My bad - 3:30pm April 9 2001
    I promise that i'll never ever post up anything as retarded as that Christina! post down there EVER again. I must've been like on crack or something to post up something as cringe inducingly bad as that.

    Anyway, i've just realized that i've only been 'back' for less than 5 days (4 days to be exact) and the main page has already been run up to about 100k in size. Damn i post alot. I should probably cut down on the posts eh? Should i cut down on the posts?

    Of course, you do realize that this is just another ploy to try and get more people to e-mail me...



    Yadda yadda yadda - 11:40am April 9 2001

    --------------------
    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject:
    From: "Schmelly Schmuck" dammit592@hotmail.com
    Date: Mon, Apr 9 2001 11:17:17 AM +0800

    i know as much as your friends hate me .. i think i better be able to defend myself in a way or so ...

    look ... i admit i took the HTML i took the design but .. i never proclaimed it was mine!!!

    and all it could've taken them was just to tell me .. take it off .. and not the whole ... "Oh .. ur a bitch .. don't you have any morals in life?" etc ...

    and especially when i have this Kelvin guy .. messaging me on MSN saying .. "You digust me!" "You bitch you stole thess's design" and i kept on saying sorry ...

    ARGH!!! i know u don't want to be involved .. but .. i'm just saying .. it's really .. annoying to have everyone on my back for something that i admit that i've done and act as if i said i created the layout on my own.

    ok look ... if no one's gonna hear my apology .. i hope u will ...

    thanx

    take care

    -livie
    --------------------

    Actually, you should be taking this up with the people involved. If you haven't already done so. Actually, you know what you should do?

    KILL KELVIN.

    For the good of all mankind.



    Christina! - 11:40am April 9 2001

    psykotik2k: would you believe me if i told you that someone once told me that you looked like christina aguilera?
    m r i s UH: rofl
    psykotik2k: no really. some one told me that you looked like christina aguilera.
    m r i s UH: well, i dont. lol
    psykotik2k: you sure?
    m r i s UH: positive
    psykotik2k: well.....who would you say you looked like then?
    m r i s UH: uhm, me. lol
    psykotik2k: like...has anyone ever come up to you and say.... "HEY MARRISSA! YOU LOOK LIKE (so and so)!!"
    m r i s UH: yeah but, not anybody FAMOUS
    psykotik2k: not like christina aguilera eh?
    m r i s UH: no
    psykotik2k: thanks =]
    m r i s UH: lol

    3 minutes later

    psykotik2k: well....can you at least sing like christina aguilera?
    m r i s UH: nope lol
    psykotik2k: can you dance? like christina aguilera?
    m r i s UH: why are you asking me all this? lol
    psykotik2k: are you christina aguilera? you are aren't you?
    m r i s UH: no... lol
    psykotik2k: suuuurrrre you're not..... it's okay, it'll be our little secret.
    m r i s UH: lol ok

    She really is Christina Aguilera. Don't tell anyone.



    Cruel - 4:57am April 9 2001

    --------------------
    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: What?
    From: Kirsten Dunst Kirsten@Dunst.com Add to Contacts
    Date: Sun, Apr 8 2001 4:07:24 PM +0100

    You DON'T wanna marry me?
    --------------------

    Okay. Come on now. Who is this? This cannot really be Kirsten Dunst. It just can't be! This is a cruel, cruel joke that you're playing on me right now whoever you are. How the hell did you get a Kirsten@Dunst.com e-mail address anyway? Dammit! Stop playing around! I'm very vulnerable when it comes to anything Kirsten Dunst related! Aaaaaahhhhh!!!!!

    But anyway, if you really, really are Kirsten Dunst, I DO WANT TO MARRY YOU!

    MARRY ME PLEASE!



    "I don't like your way" - 3:47am April 9 2001

    --------------------
    Fullname: Dan
    Email: dbell@jis.edu.bn
    Where are you from?: Brunei
    Homepage Name: Disco Frog
    Homepage URL: http://discofrog.cjb.net
    Comments: Regarding: Blah, blah, blah:
    I remember that night...that was Sara Rase's big party was it not? Where Pat and Rod both hit on Angie Goh (unsuccessfully).

    And we basically walked back to Ben's house (well, after getting picked up by some locals in a van).

    Adi really did sneeze blood. It was horrible.
     --------------------

    See? Told you Adi sneezed blood. And it really was horrible.

    I think i even remember him mentioning how itchy his asshole was and how blood came out of there too.

    I dunno. I could be wrong.

    But anyway yeah, that was also the night that Sara Rase threw that big outdoor pool party at her fucking mansion of a house. And indeed, that was also the night where Pat and Rod tried (unsuccessfully) to hit on Angie. Although Adi did get kinda lucky with Michelle that night.

    And speaking of Adi, i don't think anyone could ever forget the infamous "I don't like your way" incident involving him and Rod. Haha, oh omigod, that must've been like the piss take of the month in school at the time.

    You see, Rod and Angie were in the pool just talking and all. Actually, Rod was more like hitting on Angie at the time, trying to get his groove on but hey, it's all the same. So obviously, to get into the pool Rod had to take off his clothes right? Anyway, i think Rod had put his shorts or something right next to the pool on the grass while he was in there. Of course, there were lots of drunk people there too jumping into the pool and making big ass splashes and shit. So yeah, Rod's pants did get wet, muddy and basically... soiled. By the soil of course.

    Adi then, being the legend that he is, picks up Rod's pants, goes up to him and Angie and says the worst possible thing he could ever possibly say at the time:

    "ROD! WHAT'S THIS? YOU SHAT YOUR PANTS MAN! LOOK! EVERYBODY, ROD SHAT IN HIS PANTS"

    HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

    Oh boy that was just SO fucking funny. You just HAD to be there. The expression on Rod's face was just priceless.

    So anyway, sometime later, all of us guys were just chillin out with Adi and all and Rod suddenly comes up to Adi and says:

    "Adi. I don't like your way. You embarrassed me in front of all those people just now"

    He then goes on and on and on about whatever the fuck he was going on about basically just scolding Adi for what he did. Haha. But shit man, they way he actually said the words, "Adi. I don't like your way", was just so unintentionally hilarious. It became the running joke of the month or something later on in school. Everytime somebody would do something bad or whatever, they be saying, "So and so. I don't like your way".

    I dunno. It's hard telling stories like this to people who weren't there. You just won't get the punchline. I guess it just one of those stories where you just HAVE to be there to 'get' it. Most of the guys from the FAT website were there so they'd probably remember all of this happening. Especially Rod. Haha.

    Anyway, i'll be heading back home to Brunei for my holidays this April the 18th. I'll have to go meet up the guys sometime. Those of them who're still in Brunei anyway. Rod's actually in Brunei right now. On his holidays i'd presume. But he'll be going back to England on the 20th though. Dan also informed me that there's gonna be some party at some cafe on the 21st or something. Tickets cost 20 bucks. I *might* consider going despite me not knowing what the fuck the party's all about or who the hell's throwing the damn thing. But i definitely gotta meet up with Rod again before he leaves. It'll have to be on the 19th though seeing that he's leaving on the 20th. I'll probably stay the weekend over at Dan's or whoever's place. Or maybe not. Who knows? Anyone wanna provide a roof over my head for a whole weekend?

    People i just gotta hang out with when i get back:

  • Rod
  • Dan
  • Majid
  • These two yahoos (John and Oliver)

    And with everyone else who's still stuck in Brunei basically. Who is in Brunei anyway? Is Adi there? Or is he back in Australia already? What about Marcus? Or is he still in Australia too? Is Pat never ever coming back to Brunei ever again? He's probably gonna be staying in Canada for the rest of his life isn't he? I heard Majid and Oliver might be leaving for Malaysia this September. And i'll be in the US this August.

    Geez, everybody's fucking going all over the place.

    Anyway, i wonder if Majid still has my pager with him. I fucking left my beeper over at his place before i left for Malaysia. That hairy nutsack probably sold it to make a buck or something. Haha. Majid, i want my fucking pager back.

    And i need to get my goddamned laserdiscs from Sam Lim. Is he still even in Brunei? Last i heard, he said he was going to Australia.

    And what the hell is up with Australia anyway? Seems like EVERYBODY'S going to Australia. Hell, even my ex-girlfriend's in Australia.

    Australia Australia Australia.

    Anyway, is anybody even reading this? I don't think anybody even gives a damn about what i've been writing about so far. Except for the people over at the FAT website who're reading this. But hey, it's all right. A little 'personal inside' post won't hurt anybody.

    Is Erin Wallis in Brunei? I will have to meet her so i can make her my girlfriend.

    Sunday, April 8, 2001

    OMG - 9:08pm April 8 2001

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: I Love You
    From: Kirsten Dunst Kirsten@Dunst.com Add to Contacts
    Date: Sat, Apr 7 2001 5:13:13 PM +0100

    Marry me, you sexy beast, you.

    With love,
    Kirsten Sane (nee Dunst) - I'm getting used to that =)
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    I swear that this really was something that i got in the mail. Obviously it's not really from Kirsten Dunst (as if i'd be that lucky) but hey, it coulda fooled me.

    I can be very easily fooled sometimes.



    U O ME - 8:52pm April 8 2001
    Have i not been entertaining enough for today?

    Repay me by feeding my ego.

    Or i will be truly vexed.



    I can't get enough of you baby - 8:34pm April 8 2001

    HELLO NURSE

    I'm posting this pic up again only because i like it so much.
    And because it boosts my ego.



    Brandenburg concerto no.4 in G - 7:57pm April 8 2001

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: welcome back
    From: mg@badsamaritan.com Add to Contacts
    Date: , Apr 7 2001 10:07:30 PM -0000

    j,

     Ooh. I haven't been called 'j' in years. I knew a girl who used to call me 'j'. She was the only one who'd call me by that name. Her name was Edna. She was cute. NOT THAT ANYONE WOULD CARE.

    Welcome back. You were right that I was kidding about not wanting you to come back, though I did not realise it was April Fools at the time. For some reason I thoroughly enjoy reading about what DVDs you want to buy. I can not explain it, you must be interesting or something.

    Of course i must be interesting. What are you? On crack? I'm the most interesting man in the world.

    Anyway, I have had some recent issues with my host and remember you are hosted by Solosier. How is that working for you? I am generally pleased with my host, but would like to find someone a little more open to the kind of content on my site. Any insight into life with Solosier would be helpful.

     Well, everything seems to be working out fine so far. There were a coupla little hitches in the beginning what with some erratic 'server down for sporadic periods of time' problems but everything seems to be going very well nowadays. I haven't run into any more minor nor major problems as of late. Hopefully not ever but then again, nothing's perfect. Well, you can pretty much have whatever kind of shit that you might want on your site if you're hosted by Solo, pr0n etc etc, so yeah, content wise, you're pretty much free to do whatever you may damn well please. You could always try e-mailing Solo for a hosting request if you want but it all comes down to him to see if you're worthy enough for his hosting. I guess, obviously, this site's worthy enough for Solo to host my ass on his servers. And also worthy enough to warrant Solo actually buying me a domain name... at his expense i might add. Even though i really have NO clue as to WHY he even did so. But hey, it's all good.

    Again, welcome back.

    I'm not back. No really. You're just seeing things.

    /mg
    ---
    http://www.badsamaritan.com
    Last in line for the Nobel Peace Prize. First in line for pie.
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    SEE? - 6:30pm April 8 2001

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Blahahahaha!!!
    From: "Roly-poly Bird" yuffie_198@hotmail.com
    Date: Sun, Apr 8 2001 10:35:06 AM +0800

    Holy shit!! I thought I was the only one that thought she was foul! Besides the flat face, she's flat in the umm... chest .. area. HAHAHAHA. And that's so true, she seriously can't dance for shit. I HATED THAT MOVIE SO MUCH!!!! It was such bollocks! Although the beginning looked as if though it was gonna be a great movie, IT WASN'T..!!

    B O L L O C K S bollocks

    booooooooooooolloooooooooooooooockssssssss B-O-LL-II-CK-S!@#@!#@!
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    Calm down Shasha. It's only a movie.



    Bla bla blah yakkity yak - 4:44pm April 8 2001

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Boo
    From: "Kel-Vin Chang" k_2712@hotmail.com
    Date: Sun, Apr 8 2001 12:34:09 PM +0800

    Justin,

    I see you quit your site. Again. Well, anyhow, just e-mailed to say I was fooled which is no surprise since I'm a tool.

    This quit had more "realness" to it. I was going to e-mail you then but I doubt you'd put it up. Anyhow, did you hear of http://livie.cjb.net/? The thess ripper-offer, well I was the one who reported it to thess and theHeretic dudes. Just so you know.

    Kel-Vin
    http://enoas.nathanism.com - Neurology for Nit-Wits
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    No fucking duh i quit my site. Even a blind man could see that.

    And yes. You ARE a tool. That must be like the understatement of the millennium.

    Geez, could you suck up to people any MORE? You already did that with me, Nathan, Antwon and Bence in the past. And now Thess, Fedallah, Empedocles and Kip? Give it up already. If this is your idea of a schtick, well, it's not even funny anymore. It never even was. It's fucking annoying really. I should know because i've done that sorta thing before.

    And speaking of doing things before, do you even realize that you are practically a fucking carbon copy rip off of me?! Goddamnit man. Stop ripping me off and get yourself your own personality.

    I give to you these 4 examples:

  • You posting about wanting DVD's. You don't even know anything about DVD's!
  • You wanting that Ash toy really badly. You haven't even SEEN Army Of Darkness!
  • You complaining of being 'abused' by Suzi. IT'S BEEN DONE TO DEATH. BY ME.
  • You trying to get girls to become your 'girlfriends'. Now where have i seen THAT done before?

    Fuck me man. I could go on and on. Go rip off somebody else's personality. Leave mine well the fuck alone. The world doesn't need another one of me. There's already one too many. And what the hell is up with the words that you use? I understand the need to diversify your grammar once in a while but fucking hell man, i don't wanna be reading a post that's more like a fucking passage out of a University level textbook. How old are you anyway? 13, 14, 15?

  • degenerate?
  • unadultarated?
  • monosyallable?
  • fledging?
  • infrequently?
  • suffix?
  • illuminated?

    You didn't even spell unadulterated correctly! Geez, i bet you have like a fucking thesaurus open right in front of you whenever you post. I think even Shasha's mentioned this once before. Good god man close that fucking book already.

    And you're probably wondering why i have you blocked on my AIM.

    IT'S BECAUSE YOU KEEP ON ASKING ME QUESTIONS THAT YOU ALREADY KNOW THE ANSWERS TO FOR FUCKS SAKE.

    BLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!



    SHE'S GOT BETTY DAVIS EYES - 2:30pm April 8 2001

    Thess: It's time to chew some gum and kick some ass. And i'm all outta gum.

    Okay so maybe she didn't really say that but i sure as hell can imagine her doing so. Haha. Man, she's really been on a rampage as of late. I almost busted my left nut reading some of her last few rants. You go girl.

    I actually know that LiViE chick. Met her like once when i was at this mall with this radio dj friend of mine, Kenny, a coupla years ago. Also saw her around malls and fast food places coupla times. Not that anyone cares or anything but hey, that's why they call it 'useless information'. Now i don't really read her page (too in-joke Bruneian non-international based) but if i'm not mistaken, i think i was the one who actually wholly/partly inspired her to go on the blogging route from her homepage roots. I think.

    I dunno. I could just be bragging.

    But anyway, it doesn't matter if i inspired anybody or not! It doesn't matter if i started the first Brunei based weblog to ever make it 'big'! You all know i have an ego the size of Australia. I'm not a some big e/n god or anything. Just a regular guy with regular thoughts (well...kinda regular anyway) and regular opinions.

    Just like Thess.

    Except of course that she has breasts and that she's a girl. Not a guy. Um... yeah.

    If i wanna say that i invented the lightbulb, i'll just go on out and say it. "I INVENTED THE LIGHTBULB". You don't have to believe what i say. That's just my opinion on how things are from where I stand. I could be wrong but from what i see, it sure seems right to me. It's called point of view folks. Everyone has a different one. Your POV will always be what you consider to be right... unless you're proven wrong of course. So yeah, i'll say whatever i'll wanna say and unless you can prove me wrong, what i say goes.

    God knows how many times i've gotten into 'controversial' forum disputes on other sites about my more 'opinionated' posts. But then again, this site wasn't voted 'most controversial site' for nothing.

    In an earlier weblog awards thing i mean. Not the more recent one.

    Anyway, how the hell did i go from talking about LiViE to ranting about POV's? Shit. Talk about getting sidetracked. Again.

    By the way, i STILL say that i'm the real winner of the recent weblog awards thing.

    No really, i am.



    Don't mess with the Thess

    There is absolutely no reason as to why this picture is here.



    Wondering - 1:34pm April 8 2001
    Tell me, how many people actually noticed that 'i posted' at SlackerJedi for a while a coupla days ago? I don't think too many people caught that. The 'posts' weren't up for that long.



    Blah blah blah - 12:15pm April 8 2001
    Now i haven't really been in the weblogging e/n scene for that long. I mean, i only started doing this blogging thing less than a year ago. Started blogging on June 11th 2000 to be exact. I'm not exactly a stranger to the internet either having already made a pretty 'successful' homepage prior to that. It's VERY sad. VERY typical homepage-y stuff. Makes me cringe just thinking about it. But yeah, i've been on the internet since 1999 really. A late bloomer i am.

    Anyway, as i was saying, i haven't really been blogging for all that long. But i can honestly say that in the span of less than a year of blogging, i've probably posted more times than anyone else out there who've been posting for years. Or at least rivaling their total amount.

    You gotta admit though, i do post alot. Most of it's usually just bullshit but they're still posts nonetheless. Pretty good i'd say considering the fact that i'm the only on posting here... to be posting as much as i do.

    I guess it helps if you have no social life. Haha.

    It's not that i don't really have a social life or anything. I can if i wanted to. It's just that i choose not to. You see, i'm too lazy to have a social life. I mean, i have been out to parties and shit and having big ass sleepovers at friend's places and just basically fooling around in pool halls in the middle of the night with my buddies and all and getting stuck in the middle of town with no way back home and having to get some chick friends to wave down cars so that us guys could hitchhike our way back.

    Ahh... the memories of what we used to get ourselves into back in Brunei... 'we' usually being Oliver, John, Adi, Pete, Ben, Wandi, Dan, Marcus, Pat, Rod, Edo, Majid and well... the guys really. An interesting thing to note is that quite a few of those people i've mentioned are actually from The FAT website. Edo, Rod, Dan and Pat actually. Used to go the same school with them you see. Except for Edo. I've actually only hung out with Edo once really. I distinctly remember him laughing his ass off in Ben's place listening to this one comedy album that Ben had put on. I mean, he was seriously laughing like there was no tomorrow. He was literally keeling over and seemingly DYING of laughter. Funny thing being that he was like the ONLY one laughing. Rod was like "It isn't THAT funny Edo".

    And then Marcus got piss drunk that day and started tapping my shoulder... and laughing HIS head off. He'd just start laughing uncontrollably everytime i turned my head. A whole bunch of us were there that day at Ben's place. Edo, Rod, Dan, Marcus, Adi, Oliver, Wandi, Jess, Michelle, Ben and me. I think Majid was there too. I can't really remember. But anyway, almost everybody got piss drunk that day except for me and Rod. We just sat there really. Watching all the others making fools out of themselves. Oliver hitting on 14 year old Jess (haha), people starting to have swordfights with... sticks, people getting beat up with... sticks and... all kinda of shenanigans really. Probably one of the funniest thing that was said on that day was when Ben said: "Pass the goon" in his decidedly thick Australian accent. I mean, he is Australian after all. Everyone was pretty much like, "Goon?". I mean, nobody even knew what he was talking about.

    He was of course, talking about the wine which was in this box with like a 'tap' on it. A goon i guess. Although none of us had actually ever heard of it being referred to as a 'goon'.

    Anyway, a couple of us slept over at his place that night. Me, Adi and Oliver had to sleep in Ben's little sister's room. Nobody was home. His whole family was like out of town or something at the time. Man, the dolls that his sister had in her room. Fuckin scary. Me, being quite the asshole, i just started saying that the dolls were alive and started throwing em across the room. Oliver, for some reason, really got freaked. Haha.

    Anyway, it got dusty as hell (word to the wise: never throw dusty stuffed toys across rooms pretending that their possesed) and we must've scratched our faces off that night while trying to sleep. Adi had actually like sneezed blood or something that night. Haha. Anyway, not only did we NOT get a good night's sleep, we all had like fucking allergic reactions to Ben's fucking cat. I guess it was a bad idea for to like... rub my face against it huh? It's funny for me to have allergic reactions to cats considering the fact that i actually have a cat.

    Dammit, i was actually gonna post about the history of how this site got to where it is right now but instead i got sidetracked into telling you all about that day instead. Oh well. Maybe next time. Besides, i've always been meaning to post about that day anyway. Not that anybody'd care about what happened that day but i'd always wanted to write about... and now i have.



    She's got Betty Davis eyes - 2:02am April 8 2001
    Okay i know i said that i probably wouldn't be posting today... but hey, i just couldn't resist. Posting can be addictive.

    Here's some pretty useless information for you. I have a calendar. Yes. That's right. A calendar. Not just any calendar though. Wanna see what my calendar looks like? Check it out for yourself over here and click on the calendars link. That's the calendar that i have hanging on my wall.

    I love that calendar.

    Actually i have TWO calendars hanging on my wall. The other one's an FHM calendar. I don't use that calendar though. It just permanently shows the month of August 2001 on it right now. Mostly because it has Christy Chung on it for that particular month.

    My farting roommate has the Uncut Maxim calendar. He doesn't use it though. He has it stored away somewhere in his closet together with his porno magazines. Haha. i'm kidding. Although there is that infamous November 2000 issue of Playboy stashed somewhere in there. He keeps his porno somewhere else. Haha.

    Anyway, he has this other crappy FHM calendar hanging in his room instead. The FHM Malaysia edition at that. FHM Malaysia sucks. The one that i got in my room is the FHM Singapore calendar. I picked that one up while i was in Singapore late last year. Much better than the crappy FHM Malaysia one but still not as good as the 'normal' editions of the real FHM. As in FHM FHM you know? None of this FHM Singapore/Malaysia bullshit.

    Speaking of things hanging up on my wall, i might as well tell you what posters i have hanging on my wall in my bedroom back home. They're all movie posters actually. Like the really big ass one that you'd find in cinemas.

    I got these posters hanging up on my wall:

  • Men In Black
  • Speed 2
  • The Lost World
  • Batman & Robin
  • L.A. Confidential
  • Face/Off
  • Street Fighter 2 Animated Movie
  • The Matrix
  • Jackie Brown
  • You Only Live Twice
  • Boogie Nights

    Old movies i know. But i've got some new movie posters for Charlie's Angels, Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon and Metal Gear Solid 2: Sons of Liberty right here in the dorm.

    Okay, so maybe that last one isn't exactly a movie poster but it's the same size and it's styled like a movie poster...

    But i haven't stuck em up on my walls or anything. I mean, i figured, why spoil those perfectly good posters by sticking em up here? Not like i'm gonna be here for that much longer anyway.

    You know what poster i've ALWAYS wanted to get but never got the chance to actually have?

    The poster for Titanic.

    Stop laughing.

    Saturday, April 7, 2001

    Lucy - 10:54pm April 7 2001

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: full-body halo
    From: sellotaped@downtoearth.co.uk
    Date: Sat, 7 Apr 2001 11:48:09 +0100 (GMT+01:00)

    Dija guess Kirsten was me? How?
    Write back, you moose.

    Lucy
    (being as unintimidating as possible)

    http://envy.nu/less
    http://chrome.diary-x.com
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    The .co.uk e-mail address kinda gave it away =]

    And besides, it just SEEMED like you.

    Anyway for those of you know don't know the story, Lucy here has probably e-mailed me like what? 7 times? Maybe even more that that. And i've only ever replied to her ONCE.

    Why? Well... she intimidates me. Plain and simple. Have you seen how she writes? Shit. I mean, i could never write a worthy response to ANY of her e-mails. Even one as simple as the one up there.

    Actually, now that i think about it, i've technically only e-mailed her TWICE i think. I dunno i could be wrong but yeah, i actually did write her this fucking long ass e-mail once. Just to make up for the 3 or so e-mails that i never had the balls to reply to before (The 'oh god, i'm intimidated and i don't know what to say' syndrome struck me. Thess had a similar attack quite recently). The fucked up thing being that it never got through to her! My e-mail server fucked up and didn't deliver any of the e-mails that i sent on that one particular day. Anyway, just so you know Lucy, i DID write you a long ass e-mail to make up for all the e-mails that i never replied to. It just didn't go through. =(

    Anyway, it's kinda surprisng to me that Lucy even reads this page. I mean, this page is so dumb compared to her smart page. I wouldn't think that someone as smart as her would even read a page as 'dumb' as this.

    Haha.

    But there you go.

    Truth being stranger than fiction.



    Hot or not? - 10:40pm April 7 2001

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Re: RE UR AD
    From: "Jennifer" thess@theheretic.net
    Date: Fri, Apr 6 2001 2:47:14 PM -0400

    Julia Stiles is fucking hot.
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    She's too tall and lumbering. She can't dance and she looks like she has Down Syndrome.

    But i gotta admit, i did kinda like her character in 10 Things I Hate About You.



    Random - 10:30pm April 7 2001
    I can't believe it. My farting roommate. The one that i steal toothpaste from every morning. He brings a chick over to the apartment two nights ago and watches MY Hollow Man DVD on MY DVD player and now he's dating her. Some of you long time regulars might probably remember that it's this same farting roommate that went out with that incredibly cute chick that i once kept posting about last year for a short period of time. I think it was in October. Brooke might remember this.

    Anyway, he broke up with that incredibly cute chick recently now he's got ANOTHER cute chick within his grasp. They went out on another date again tonight.

    Blah.

    How come i never get the chicks? Probably has to do with the fact that i make absolutely NO effort to actually make myself presentable and 'go-outtable' with. But then again, it's not really one of my top priorities to actually wanna have a relationship with someone. Not right now anyway. I mean, i'll be leaving for Michigan this August. Why go out with someone now when i won't be here for that much longer?

    I'll probably try to have one when i get there. A relationship i mean. As hokey as it may sound. Easier said than done really. Considering that i'm not exactly the type girls would fall for. No really i'm not. It's quite mind boggling really as to how i even managed to have had girlfriends in the past. Much less 8 of them.

    I'll probably be in the states for while. Finishing off Uni there, getting a job, living there for a coupla years... i dunno. I haven't really made any concrete plans as to what i'll be doing and where i'll be staying after i'm with my college years in WMU. Or University years.

    Whatever. College, University... same thing.

    God am i ever so looking forward to the upcoming Spiderman movie. I mean, it's practically a dream come true for me. Not only is it directed by Sam Raimi (my number one favorite director next to James Cameron), Bruce Campbell's also gonna be in it! Albeit in a cameo role. But hey, some Bruce Campbell is better than no Bruce Campbell right? And of course, my wife's also gonna be in it. Kirsten Dunst.

    *swoon*

    I love Spiderman. Always have. I used to be quite the comic collector back in the day. I've actually got quite a few valuable comics that i've never even read. Kinda dumb really. I'd buy all these comics and i'd never even take em out of their packaging. I'd just leave em in there in thier plastic sleeve covers with their backboards still clinging to their... uh... backs and just store them away never to be opened. If i'd been smarter, i'd've bought TWO copies of of them comics. One for reading and one for keeping. Hell, i still have a special issue of this one Spiderman comic from way back in 1992 that i've never even read. Much less opened.

    I've also got a coupla X-men ones and a few other autographed comics that i bought for ridiculous amounts of money back then. All unopened and still in (hopefully) near perfect condition. I don't even know what i'll do with them. There's really no place here in Asia that i know of where you can like... sell valuable comics and whatnot. Maybe when i get to the states yeah. I'll go to a comic convention somewhere and like... i dunno... do comic convention stuff i guess. And if you're wondering, i rarely ever read anything else other than Marvel comics.

    Good stuff.

    Back in the day of course. I've totally grown out of touch with comics these days but i still do have some passion for all things comic related.

    I've got a bunch of cards that i used to collect too. X-files one, Marvel ones, even those CCG ones like Magic: The Gathering. I've got one Magic card that was valued at US$40 the last time i checked. Pretty cool.

    Of course, i haven't actually played Magic in like... years so i have absolutely no idea what's going on with all that stuff now. Do people still even play Magic?

    Remember a few weeks ago when i saw Spy Kids on VCD and said that it sounded like a terrible movie? Apparently it's a pretty good movie. From the reviews that i've read anyway. I personally haven't seen the movie but i heard they've given the go ahead for a sequel to the movie. Surely a sign of goodness. I've never even seen the trailer to this movie so i'm still kinda reluctant to go out and watch it but i can't help but feel slightly intrigued to see if it's really as good as some reviews make it out to be. I mean come on, Spy Kids? Even the title sounds hokey.

    Movies that i MUST watch this summer.

  • The Mummy Returns - I've seen the trailer. Looks fun.
  • Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within - Come on. It's Final Fantasy for god's sake.
  • Pearl Harbor - Titanic in the skies. I SO want to watch this movie.

    Do you like Katherine Heigl? I'm sure you do.

    Here. Go kill some time.



    Dogma - 11:30am April 7 2001

    Mmmmm

    I really want this DVD.



    Weblog Awards Results - 10:30am April 7 2001
    A bit late but...who cares?

    Most interesting Posts
    1. I am Happy Blue - 37 votes
    2. FUBAR - 14 votes
    3. Dystopia - 8 votes

    Best Long-Lasting Weblog
    1. I wanna be cool - 19 votes
    2. FUBAR - 15 votes
    3. FileNotFound - 13 votes.

    Weblog Of The Year
    1. I am Happy Blue - 33 votes
    2. FUBAR - 12 votes
    3. I wanna be cool - 9 votes.

    Well as you can see, I'M the real winner of these three categories. Happy Blue and Cool cheated! They got more people to vote for them. But if i'd put more effort into it and actually went through with the devious plan that i had to get more poeple to vote for me, I would've been the winner!

    What am i saying? I AM the winner.

    The real one anyway.

    Hypothetically speaking.



    Hits - 10:00am April 7 2001
    Well, my hits have gone back up...slightly. I got around 300 yesterday. Give or take. It's probably more than that seeing how the counter was down for a while. But hey, who cares about hits right? I don't.

    (Yeah right)



    Julia - 9:43am April 7 2001
    I can't believe that Zil actually liked Save The Last Dance. That movie's so bad.

    Is there anyone out there who thinks Julia Stiles is hot? I personally think she looks like she has Down Syndrome. Or something.



    $$$ - 9:30am April 7 2001
    I *probably* won't be posting much this weekend. Seeing as to how my current financial status is right now (i.e broke), i'll need all the money i can get to survive on for the next 2 weeks so i probably won't be posting tomorrow. You see, during weekends, i can only post from a cybercafe. The school library's CLOSED on the weekends. You have to PAY at a cybercafe. I have NO MONEY you see.

    I shouldn't really have to explain this. I said it enough times already in the past. But hey, there you go. Another pointless post.

    Friday, April 6, 2001

    Not again - 5:30pm April 6 2001
    My dad e-mailed me yesterday. He used a word that i'd never ever heard of before in my entire life.

    He said something like... what was it... i dunno... something like "adjust your spending habits and be more frugal" or something like that.

    What the hell is 'FRUGAL' anyway?

    I mean, i dohave an idea of what he meant but... FRUGAL? Never heard of the word. That word literally had me dumbfounded. "FRUGAL? What the hell is FRUGAL?" i thought to myself. This coming from an A grade English student (I know i know, i brag about that too much).

    Anyway, with that said, i really do have to adjust my spending habits and be more 'FRUGAL'. I've only got like 9 bucks in the bank and 25 bucks in my wallet. And i've got roughly 2 more weeks left here in Malaysia before i go back home for the holidays.

    In other words, YES, I'M BROKE.

    Again.



    Grumble grumble - 5:10pm April 6 2001
    Blah. My counter experienced some downtime today. And i was so looking forward to see how many accurate hits i'd get for today too. Oh well. But anyway, i'm using a good counter now. Not that lying sack of shit Stats4all thing anymore.

    Anyway, i'm gonna assume that nobody really knows that i'm back and that nobody's really gonna be reading these first coupla 'comeback' posts so i figure, why not just talk about things that people wouldn't give a shit about. I mean, they're not really gonna reading this right? They're just gonna skim through it all hoping to find something funny or remotely interesting. Well, you won't find anything like that here my friend. Not yet anyway.

    I've decided to just basically talk out of my ass for the next few posts. I'm gonna be talking about stuff that have no point to them. Like for example, the post below this one, there's ABSOLUTELY NO POINT TO IT. I just thought i'd write about what was on my mind. And believe me, there are a lot of pointless thoughts up here in this noggin of mine.

    Here's something you probably don't know about me. I don't like sharing cans or bottle of Coke or whatever, with anyone. I mean, like... if a guy offers me a sip of his Coke from his can from which he had his lips on it and his saliva in it, i'd just say "Nah, no thanks". I just have this 'thing' about doing that. Sharing drinks from a can. Or a glass. Or a bottle for that matter. Whatever you know?

    Of course, if it were a life and death situation, i'd probably wouldn't give a shit as to whose lips or saliva's been in contact with it but yeah, by choice, i usually don't drink from other peoples cans or bottle or whatever.

    Icky.

    There was this one time in my previous school during lunch, a buddy of mine, Majid, decided to just swipe my can of Coke and take a swig out of it. He didn't know that i had a thing about... well, that kinda thing... and i just totally blew up at him (Slight exagerration there...) Well, i didn't really 'blow up' at him but i did say.

    "Hey fuck you you fuck faced mother fucker! You take one more fucking sip out of that fucking can and i'll fuck you up the ass so fucking hard, you'll be shitting through your mouth!"

    Yep. I said that. Haha. Everyone was just busting their gut after that. I mean, it just came out so fast and furious... so fucking funny at the time. You just had to be there. But anyway, yeah, that's one of the stupid little pet peeves that i have.

    Not that you'd care but then again, that's not the point of this post. =]



    Bla bla blah - 4:30pm April 6 2001
    I had an extra psychology class today. Normally i wouldn't have any classes on Fridays but my dumb lecturer called in sick or something a few weeks ago so she had to make up for that missed class by having an 'extra' one today. Coincidently, we also had to do this group psychology presentation thing. Of which i was a part of. My group was pretty cool actually. 5 people and i was the only guy. So i got to be surrounded by some pretty hot chicks. You know, like Vivian and Kelly. They were in my group.

    I've mentioned those two quite number of time already on this site huh? If it seems like i'm always around them, well, it's because i am. Actually i'm always surrounded by chicks everyday. Haha. In class i mean. Because i usually sit next to them. Or around them at least.

    It's actually pretty interesting sitting around girls. You get to hear them talk about their boyfriends and stuff, gossip, and just... well... general bitching i guess. Kinda like an e/n site except in real life conversation. Kinda. They don't really seem to mind me being there kinda eavesdropping on their conversation though. Nicole, Yvonne, Sue, Vivian, Kelly and the lot. Which is cool. I don't think they even notice i'm there. Haha.

    Nice names, even nicer people. All of them pretty hot too in their own way.

    And i get to be literally surrounded by them in all my classes. Haha.

    Rearrange these words: BASTARD A LUCKY I AM



    Okay so maybe i cheated a lil bit - 10:15am April 6 2001
    First of all, why are you even reading this site? Don't you have anything else better to do? Anyhoo, obviously alot's happened since i 'left' the e/n scene. While i was out there bustin my ass in school, the weblog world went on without me so yeah, i had quite some catching up to do. Reading up on other sites and stuff.     Mizi got a new host, Stile's facing legal problems, people making new layouts etc etc bla bla bla.

    Hmmm...since i've pretty much lost two thirds of my regular readers over the past two weeks, i'm assuming that nobody's really gonna be reading this. Which makes this the perfect opportunity to just rant about whatever i want without having the pressure of knowing that 300+ people out there are gonna be reading this. Small number i know. But then again, this is a small site.

    Speaking of regular readers...and hits in general, you may have noticed that i've taken off my stupid stats4all counter. Why is that you ask? Well for some stupid reason, that damn counter just decided to stop counting my hits. Remember when i was bitching about how i could barely even get past the 100 hits mark by 12:00pm a few weeks ago? Well, it wasn't because people stopped coming, it was because of the stupid counter. It just fucking stopped counting my hits. Not only that, it'd also been giving me false info on how many hits i've actually been getting. My all time high wasn't 888 as it purported. It's actually somewhere around 940+. Goddamn stupid inaccurate counter. Well, it's gone now so yeah, good riddance to bad rubbish.

    Anyway, i was surprised to see that despite me 'quitting' the site, i'd still managed to pull in around 200+ hits a day. Sure it's definitely not as impressive as the 700+/- daily that i used to get but considering the fact that i didn't even post...at all...for nearly about two weeks...unless you count posting up e-mails as 'posting' (it's not)...that's pretty impressive.

    Although i have lost more than half of my regulars but hey, no use crying over spilt milk. I'd like to think of it as a fresh start. A new challenge to win both old and new regulars.

    Speaking of fresh starts, this site's probably gonna be undergoing a MAJOR facelift in the not so distant future. After i'm done with my finals and shit, and when i get back home for the holidays this April the 18th, i'm gonna be working on some new material for this site. With a little help from a certain somebody of course.

    I'm not that hardworking.

    Basically, if things go well, there's gonna be a new layout, better content, no more half assed downloads and pr0n pages and...well...just a more streamlined version of fubar i guess. Without all the bullshit.

    Well...less bullshit anyway.

    I've been toying around with the idea of getting another person to post on this site with me. Not just anyone though. I was thinking of getting a chick with no life that has good HTML skills with breasts the size of Australia to be that other person.

    But of course, with the current state of this site and it's non cgi-ed non script-ified coding, getting someone to post here with me would be too much of a hassle as i'd have to teach her how to update and how my hand coded, hand modified HTML works. Hence the need for her to have at least some semblance of good HTML skills. At least some basic skills anyway.

    Provided that i can even get a chick with no life that has good HTML skills with breasts the size of Australia to post here.

    The day that'll happen is the day when monkeys start flying outta my butt.

    But like i said, it's just a thought.

    The other poster i mean. Not the monkeys.

    But you see, as much as i like the idea of having someone else posting on this site, i just feel like it'd take away the site's 'personality' by having more than one person posting on it. It's like, if you just have one person posting on a site, that site becomes like an extension of your own personality giving the site it's own personality. But when 2 or more people join in, it just loses that 'personality' somehow.

    Not to say that having multiple posters on a site is bad, in fact, a site can get downright monotonous with just one yahoo posting every single day of his or her life. So it'd actually be a good thing if you have 2 or more people on a site.

    If you do it right.

    I remember when the FAT website had like what? something like a dozen posters? (slight exagerration there) And barely even half of them posted on a regular basis. Hell, they even had to split up the site into two just to ease the management side of it all. And they still had problems! Too many cooks i told Edo. But yeah, IF i were to have another member on this site, it'd probably just be one more other person. Not more than that.

    But you know, now that i think about it, getting another person to post here would actually be a bad idea if that person can't keep up. You know? I mean like, she'd have to be the type of person who can post every few hours or so multiple times. Kinda like me. Think about it, i myself post probably like what? more than 5 times a day on any given occasion? I'd probably outpost her and it'd probably be pretty redundant to have that extra poster seeing that i, alone by myself, can post enough times for the both of us combined. She'd post once and i'd post like 3 times after that only to just totally push down her post each time thereafter. People probably wouldn't even get the chance to read her posts because they'd be pushed so far down the page.

    Anyone who want to write for this site has be really dedicated with lots of free time. It helps if you have no life.

    Like me.

    Which is why i'm so reluctant to have someone else other than myself post on this site. Hell, it doesn't even have to be a girl. The same situation could be applied to a guy and i'd still think the same way. In fact, there've been a coupla people in the past that've asked me if they could join my site or write for my site. I've always said, "NO. FUCK OFF" to them.

    Okay, so maybe i didn't exactly say that. Not the first part anyway.

    But yeah, i'd say no because this is a one man show that i'm running. And i like it the way it is. Believe me though, i'd fucking LOVE to have someone else posting on the site (especially if it's a chick) but as of right this moment, it's just a thought that i've been playing around with. So don't be e-mailing asking if you can join or write for my site or whatever.

    Unless of course if you're a chick with no life that has good HTML skills with breasts the size of Australia.

    I kid.

    And the same thing almost applies to me too. I mean about me posting on other sites. Edo from the FAT website recently offered me a place to post on his site. Mostly because he thought i really did quit this site but that's besides the point. Believe me, i'd probably do a terrible job at posting on his site. Or on any other site for that matter. I'd be out of my element. I wouldn't feel 'at home'.

    I've actually did post on multiple sites once. I even entered that fun Survivorerer thing that Antwon cooked up late last year. And i never really did too good at posting on any of them other sites. I just never had anything interesting to say. I'd be saving all my good stuff solely for my own site and just dumping all my half assed ones on those sites. I have no idea how Verbal does it. He posts for like about 4 sites at last count. Crazy Canuck. But yeah, i basically just suck at posting on other sites other than my own.

    I don't know if anybody remembers this but Edo and i were actually gonna be collaborating on making a joint website called mailorderbride that was to supposed to have gone online sometime around December 2000/January 2001. Well that was an ill-fated project if i ever saw one. It was actually going pretty well for a while. Until we all just got lazy and practically abandoned it. It died before it was even born. It might actually be finished one day...but for now, it's still on the back burner.

    And with that said, i wonder how involved i'd've actually been with that site considering the fact that i don't really post well on other sites. If it'd actually been made of course.

    Not to say that i TOTALLY suck at posting on other sites. I remember posting a number of gems on Survivorerer once. I got kicked off the island quite late in the game actually. Mostly because i just got too smart and weird for my own good (i.e. hatching plans that would've ensured me staying on the island...that backfired, me posting about my love for a Dingo named Britney etc etc).

    There admittedly were a few gems there but they were far and few in between. Even in Gearfactory's recent 24 hour Crap-athon, i had a hard time actually thinking up what to post. Even if it was supposed to be just random crap. I don't think i even posted anything remotely good or funny during that whole event.

    But anyway, on a different note, allow myself to go in asshole mode for the next 'section' of this post.

    Well, for those of you who still visited this site, even though it was DEAD for a while, you may have noticed that i got like a SHITLOAD of e-mails and other crap, all of which i've posted up over here, if you're cso inclined to re-read them as originally posted. Post them up i did but respond to any of them i did not. So i thought, hey, why not just respond to ALL of them right here. I'll even repost them again right here on this page. See how much i care for you? 'User friendly site' is my middle name. My comments will be in red by the way.

    Crimson if you're really anal.

    Makes it easier to differentiate the e-mails and my comments.

    It's pretty messy down there.

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    E N T R I E S
    name : Jack Frost
    email :
    from :
    site :
    url :
    comments : Well you pretty much suck allright, for not continueing your site..

    Fuckin Retard
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     Well yeah. Fuck you too.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: what happened man?
    From: "k. campbell" karwinc@karwinc.com Add to Contacts
    Date: Tue, Mar 27 2001 5:54:00 PM -0500

    whats up with your site man? it became one of my daily visits but now its gone!!!
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     It still is! You're just seeing things right now! As for your question of what's up with it, you can always click here to find out what happened. Even though you're just still seeing things.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: (no subject)
    From: DisturbdPixie12@aol.com Add to Contacts
    Date: Tue, Mar 27 2001 5:13:32 PM EST

    nooo. no u can not close! no no no! gosh justin.. ;( i cant believe you closed...

    suzi
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     Well, i can. And i did. It's my site you know. Har har. I can do whatever i want with it. I can even say PRETEEN LESBIAN SEX on it and not feel one bit guilty about it. I love my site.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Uh.
    From: "Kip Jowett" Kip@slackerjedi.com
    Date: Tue, Mar 27 2001 6:07:23 PM +0100

    hey, if you don't want them... can i have your hits?!

    just playing. get back here NOW, i did NOT give you permission to show me your wife in a full body halo! not that i'm complaining... or anything... uh...

    BACK. NOW!
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     NO. They're all mine. And you can't have any. Well, i'm back. Now anyway. I wasn't back then. But you already know this by now.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: (no subject)
    From: BarrixCable1@aol.com Add to Contacts
    Date: Mon, Mar 26 2001 12:09:20 PM EST

    your REALLY quitting? that sucks. hmm...why ya quitting?
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     Because i can.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: wtf?
    From: "Timm Stokke" timm@stokke.tf Add to Contacts
    Date: Tue, Mar 27 2001 4:29:45 PM +0200

    Justin, dude..

    You know you don't have to give it up just cause I've started writing in Norwegian again, right? So, please, tell me this is just some half assed scam you're trying to pull off..

    You're not serious about this now, are you?

    Don't even think about it, kid. And besides, you know you can't keep youself away from the page for too long anyway, right?

    Oh, and *when* you put the page up again, it's time to remove my link. It's all norwegian again, you know.

    Regards,
    Timm
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     Well, it was partly a scam and partly due to me being too lazy/busy to have anything to do with this site...for a while. Which i've pretty much explained over here. You're right though. I can never keep myself away from this page. Much like Bence and his site. He still updates sporadically even though he quit. So the next time i quit...again...you'll probably know what to expect.

    I will not remove your link.

    Yet.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: No more fubar?
    From: Carson Burling carson@gearfactory.com Add to Contacts
    Date: Wed, Mar 28 2001 3:02:43 PM -0800 (PST)

    Hello

    I don't think we ever really talked, but you sent me an e-mail a few months ago asking for a link exchange with Gear Factory. I'm that guy. You might know me as That Guy.

    Some lonely Korean boy told me that your site was going down. I didn't believe it at first, until I went to fubar's new home at www.badinagoodway.com and saw nothing more than a picture of Kirsten Dunst in full-body halo. I knew that the dream was over. I cried for 12 straight hours.

    While I'm thinking about it, I don't like you. Thanks for choosing our arch-enemy for hosting you asshole. If I knew witchcraft, I would hex you so all your children were born bald, naked and crying.

    Anyways, I like you. You're a cool guy, and it's too bad to see your site's e-death. Will is standing over my should reading this at the moment while laughing at my pain of loss. He thinks this is all a joke like the last time. I don't think so. This is a very serious time for us all. If it were all a lie, a stupid fool's joke like this would only happen around.... wait a minute....
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     Nope, we've never talked before. Who the hell are you anyway? Haha. But no really, you're 'That Guy' from Gearfactory. I know who you are. I'm not that much of a complete idiot.

    Don't you just love my wife? Damn she's hot. I want to marry her.

    Again.

    You thought the whole quitting thing was just a set up for an April fools joke didn't you? I bet you all did.

    Fooled ya ALL.

    Damn i'm good.

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    To: "webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com" webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: hmmmm
    From: antwon@antwon.com Add to Contacts
    Date: Thu, Mar 29 2001 1:37:44 AM -0800

    Hey, if you're not doing anything with your traffic, could I use it? I'm always looking to expand my fan base and generally annoy more people.

    Hmm... maybe I can take advantage of Justin's propensity to copy-and-paste every noteworthy email he receives for my own nefarious gains....

    {SCRIPT language="JavaScript1.1"}
    {!--window.open("http://www.antwon.com/");//--}
    {/SCRIPT}

    Bwahahaha! Er, or something.

    - Antwon*
    * - this star denotes nothing
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     Such a moocher. Oh well, at least that pop up thing made me beat Chimptopia at being your number one referrer for a while.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Okay. Look.
    From: "Jennifer" thess@theheretic.net
    Date: Thu, Mar 29 2001 2:15:53 PM -0500

    Yeah, yeah, yeah, Justin shut down his site again. He's done it before, whatever.

    Right.

    It was cute the first time, Justin, and I was happy when you came back. It was even cute when you pretended to be some Ash dude and babbled incessantly about...whatever it was you babbled about at that time. I was happy when you came back.

    THE THIRD TIME IS NOT A FUCKING CHARM, JUSTIN.

    If you come back, I will be PISSED. Do you hear me? Highly upset. Highly. I'm talking "dig your heart out with a plastic Dairy Queen Blizzard spoon" style pissed.

    You will no longer be able to funk legit, my boy.

    Now, then. If this is all just some sort of hiatus thing designed to up your hits for awhile, that's fine, and you may continue with your shenanigans, bring back your page, and all will be well. Keep in mind, however, that if you take more than a week longer to bring FUBAR back, don't bother bringing it back at all.

    I WILL come to Brunei.
    I WILL find you.
    I WILL do bad, bad things to you.

    <3

    Jenn
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     You're so cute when you get mad.

    Hey uh....what kinda bad bad things? =]

    ELLzbth: TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK YOU ARE DOING WITH YOUR SITE DAMMIT MAN!

    Well...i could just tell the whole story all over again but nah.

    Lone Korean: Hey Justin.
    psykotik2k: Hey Will
    Lone Korean: I see you're quiting your site. AGAIN.
    psykotik2k: yes!
    psykotik2k: isn't it great?!
    Lone Korean: Hehe, yeah.
    Lone Korean: Man, I wanna mooch off your traffic too.
    psykotik2k: then you'll have to send in a noteworthy email
    Lone Korean: My editor-in-chief did.
    psykotik2k: because that's all i will post. because my site is dead!
    psykotik2k: no more posts!
    Lone Korean: Hook me up, yo.
    psykotik2k: write an email
    Lone Korean: Can I just request over AIM?
    Lone Korean: Dear Justin,

    I wanna mooch off your traffic.

    Sincerely,
    Will.

    psykotik2k: email!
    psykotik2k: makes me look popular
    psykotik2k: haha
    Lone Korean: Ah, come on!
    Lone Korean: Please?
    psykotik2k: moocher

    This pretty much speaks for itself. Dammit. Everybody wants a bit of my hits. I don't even get that many! Leave my hits alone!

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Your snack cakes hold no bearing
    From: Melvinthejerk@aol.com Add to Contacts
    Date: Fri, Mar 30 2001 5:14:13 AM EST

    Dear Justin,

    I don't think it's fair. You know, I know it, and now, everyone will know it. What am I talking about? The reason WHY you shut down your site! Observe:

    1st AIM convo:

     psykotik2k: Hey Danny
    MelvinTheJerk: yo
    psykotik2k: When do you plan to hook me up with your sister?
    MelvinTheJerk: I think you have the wrong guy. I'm the oldest of 3 brothers. I don't have a sister.
    psykotik2k: fine, dick.

    2nd AIM convo:

    MelvinTheJerk: Hey Justin
    psykotik2k: Not now, working on something for your sister
    MelvinTheJerk: ???
    psykotik2k: Here!
    psykotik2k: @}-,-;-'--------------
    psykotik2k: Ta da!
    MelvinTheJerk: What the fuck?
    psykotik2k: It's a rose. Y'know for your sister.
    MelvinTheJerk: I see that.
    psykotik2k: Like it? Took me 45 minutes to get it perfect.
    MelvinTheJerk: Are you on drugs? Malaysian Opium maybe? I DON'T HAVE A FUCKING SISTER!!!
    Last message not revieved by user psykotik2k. User psykotik2k not available.

    3rd AIM Convo:

     psykotik2k: I shut down the site.
    MelvinTheJerk: but...why???
    psykotik2k: To get your sisters attention. Until she goes out with me, the site stays down even though I'll update pictures and comments on it, effectively keeping it up despite it being down.
    MelvinTheJerk: Look.
    psykotik2k: Is she home right now? I've been calling but she hasn't picked up for the past 4 days.
    MelvinTheJerk: That was you??? I need sleep! Stop calling me!
    MelvinTheJerk: that heavy breathing scares me.
    psykotik2k: Fine! We'll have sex here! With food!

    Now, I realize school has a lot of stress involved, but don't project it onto us Justin. Just re-open the site and forget about this crazy notion, ok?
    Serious man.

    Danny
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     You sure you don't have a sister?

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: I'm with Thess on this one.
    From: sellotaped@downtoearth.co.uk Add to Contacts
    Date: Fri, 30 Mar 2001 21:27:05 +0100 (GMT+01:00)

    Give it back. Now. Even if it's just infrequent and apathetic. It's just impolite to leave us with Times New Roman and Ms Dunst.

    You do not want to be waylaid in an alleyway by Thess and me. You just do not.



    Lucy

    http://envy.nu/less
    http://chrome.diary-x.com
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     BUT I DO WANNA GET LAID BY YOU AND THESS IN AN ALLEY!!!!!

    Oh wait.

    You said waylaid.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Justin!!!!
    From: Zil264@aol.com Add to Contacts
    Date: Sun, Apr 1 2001 1:40:50 PM EDT

    Hey!!!

    Come back you poo!!!

    Zil
    http://www.yea-shithappens.com
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     I am not a poo. I am the smartest man in the world. And even if i was a poo, i'd be the smartest poo in the world.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: badinagoodway gone is goodinthebestway
    From: mg@badsamaritan.com Add to Contacts
    Date: , Apr 1 2001 8:48:35 PM -0000

    justin,

    I dont know about the rest of the saps who read your site and have been sending in emails begging for your return, but I, for one, am glad you quit.

    Jesus, do we really need to hear again about what DVD you just bought? Or how evil Suzi is? Or that things in Malaysia cost a lot? No. We dont. So, keep your damn site closed. Good riddance.

    /mg

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    http://www.badsamaritan.com
    Last in line for the Nobel Peace Prize. First in line for pie.
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     YEAH! Now that's telling it like it is! Too bad your e-mail was just a April Fools joke and that you pretty much meant the opposite of whatever you said. Ha.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Marriage
    From: nightmare@girlofyourdreams.co.uk Add to Contacts
    Date: Sun, 1 Apr 2001 18:26:05 +0100 (GMT+01:00)

    Hi. I'm Kirsten Dunst. Someone told me you wanted me for dubious sexual purposes.

    (Did you have to use that halo picture? I was in a godawful mood that day, and the vest... anyway.)

    I'll marry you if you give in to those poor, deluded people who wrote to you, and bring your website back. I'll marry you *and* make wild passionate squelching noises with you, if you bring it back within two weeks. This is me being generous.

    For the good of mankind
    KD.

    ps. I don't iron shirts.
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     I love Lucy.

    No pun intended.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: i like cheese
    From: "Rock Janecek" megalob@jps.net
    Date: Sun, Apr 1 2001 3:57:39 PM -0700

    Dude,

    I'm with kip.
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     Are you two lovers or something?

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Re: Get to know me
    From: Ceri Charlton cerijc@yahoo.com Add to Contacts
    Date: Mon, Apr 2 2001 3:17:35 AM -0700 (PDT)

    Justin,

    Hey man, sad to hear about your site.

    I saw those danger girl action figures in town on Friday, they're pretty cool.

    It must be a pain in the arse getting loads of flames from people who are complaining about the site being shut down.

    Ceri.
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     Yes yes. Quite sad.

    See i told you those Danger Girl toys were cool. I'd get them if i had the money. Maybe next month.

    Actually i like getting e-mails. Even the bad ones. I'm surprised that i actually got as much feedback as i received.

    You love me. You really love me.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: JUstin smells.
    From: "Roly-poly Bird" yuffie_198@hotmail.com
    Date: Mon, Apr 2 2001 10:49:47 PM +0800

    Haha... what an attention seeker. You're such a poo, Justin, y'know? But its good that you quit the site cos now it's one less off my "daily obligatory reads" list. Haha.. GOOD STUFF!
    bye baby
    -sha-
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     Well, it's back up again. So you'll have to obligatorily give me daily hits once again.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: well..
    From: "Timm Stokke" timm@stokke.tf Add to Contacts
    Date: Mon, Apr 2 2001 10:53:19 PM +0200

    Fuck, your last scam was so much easier to see thru.

    I say last scam, since I'm still hoping that this what-you-want-to-call-it thing you've got going on, is just that: a scam. I mean, earlier I knew it, but this time.. I dunno. I was right about one thing, though: you couldn't keep yourself away from the page, did ya? You've been updating and stuff the last few days, you know..

    So, tell us.. what new DVD's have you bought lately? You broke yet? Dammit, man, you know how badly you want to tell us, don't you? Give in to the urge, J.

    You've got Ms. Dunst now, so I can't see why you're holding out on us. Unless, of course, you're over at her place now, gettin' some nookie. (How will your other girlfriends feel about this, J? Ah, whatever, I have a feeling they'll be happy as long as you bring your ass back infront of whatever you do your HTML'ing with, and give us some preeteen sex, vpl or whatever.

    You really should change that URL to justbad.com, you know?

    Regards,
    timmstokke.com
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     Ha. I know.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: It looks like it's really over, this time.
    From: Wade Add to Contacts
    Date: Tue, Apr 3 2001 2:18:47 AM GMT

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    It did didn't it?

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: the email about ass
    From: Edo Inoue edoinoue@yahoo.com
    Date: Mon, Apr 2 2001 11:14:53 PM -0700 (PDT)

    Hey,

    Look asspubes. You're not fooling anyone. You just got a friggin' domain name. Why close the site now?

    Send me some recipes for cake. I want to eat cake.

    Oh, and have some sort of link or redirection to the FAT website dude. We got Erin Wallis on our site now. And she's really hot. So there.

    Actually...do you want to join our site?

    Edo.
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    Yeah i got a domain name. For free i might add. Because i'm worthy. It's not everyday that you get accepted to be hosted by Solo AND have a domain name bought for you for free. Unless if you're worthy. Of which i am. Ha.

    I can be annoyingly smug sometimes. I know.

    Cake. I like cheesecake. I know not of any recipes for cakes. Do i look like a cookbook to you?

    Sorry i couldn't let you mooch off of me. The pop up thing was just getting annoying.

    Who's Erin Wallis? I shall trick her into becoming my girlfriend soon.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: Impending Legal Action
    From: "Empedocles" empedocles@theheretic.net Add to Contacts
    Date: Tue, Apr 3 2001 12:14:44 AM -0700

    Justin. Justin. Justin.

    I like the new layout, it's fantastic. The Dancing guy!? Fantastic! Keep up the good work. I hope you never, ever, ever, ever go back to that old horrible layout of posting about your life, DVDs, news, you know whatever you felt like. Complaints and other random email material are much better than all of that fluff.

    Now give me my porn.

    - Empedocles
    (He who is enlightened)
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    Funny guy isn't he?

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    To: "Justin Sane" webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: On your Knees, Soldier
    From: "fedallah" fedallah@theheretic.net Add to Contacts
    Date: Tue, Apr 3 2001 12:57:03 AM -0700

    fedallah: Your site irritates me.
    Justin: how so? hehe
    fedallah: The hit mooching.
    fedallah: I refuse to visit it for that reason.
    fedallah: All I do is close the windows.
    Justin: har har
    Justin: i got five new emails
    Justin: have you read?
    fedallah: No.
    fedallah: I refuse to visit.
    fedallah: The popups.
    Justin: you're gonna have to close those two windows those...if you do
    Justin: haha
    fedallah: In fact, I'm going to write you an email.
    fedallah: Which you'll post, no doubt, about how I refuse to visit your site
    fedallah: and read my email, which you'll post, no doubt.

    And I believe this tops the quote of a quote of a quote nonsense you were participating in earlier. It's going to be an excerpt of a refrence to an email in which it is contained on which it refers to the site on which it's posted. That's like, seven degrees before Kevin Bacon! I win!

    fedallah

    http://www.theheretic.net - the New Intellectual's Playground
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    You're hurting my brain.

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    To: webmaster@psykotik.zzn.com
    Subject: ...And now for something old and uninspired
    From: Melvinthejerk@aol.com Add to Contacts
    Date: Tue, Apr 3 2001 6:09:56 PM EDT

    Well, since you're hanging on to your stance of not updating in the way we all have come to know and love, I figured I would step in and be the proxy for all these poor people. Here goes!

    Hey kids!

    Today I didn't buy any DVD's, but at least I woke up tired and sick. Tired from staying up till 2:30 installing a 950mhz CU and motherboard into my system, (my ethernet card wouldn't respond, hence my lack of internet. Also, my sound card was causing conflicts with the onboard audio.) and after that I read another chapter from the current Wheel of Time book I'm on. Man, that Matrim Cauthon rocks! And sick from standing to close to a sick girl at my work. Amazing how a girl can scream in panic when you lift her over your head and she wasn't expecting it.

    Well, being sick, tired, hungry, and at work; I decided the only course of action was sick people medicine. Namely, DayQuil!

    Out of DayQuil. Damn.

    then...NyQuil!!! Hmm...these here directions say 2 every 4 hours. Nah, I'm sick now. I'll take 4 now!

    (an hour later) Damn, what the fuck did I take, a mickey? It's a good thing there's no heavy machinery to be operated with right, a wrecking ball in my hands wouldn't be a good idea right now. What is in these pills, whisky?!

    (2 hours later) For the past 2 hours, no could understand a word I said, a had absolutely no equalibriam, and my head was swimming like Greg Louganis at the first annual GLAAD swim meet. But I beat it. I took 4 NyQuil tablets and did not pass out. Did not sleep. It's like I've said before: You can't stop, CAN'T STOP! The Jerk!

    In other news, in my inebriated state, I thought it wise to start rapping to an old black man. Comment as you will.

    Well, I guess not much exciting happened today. I'll get back you all in a bit if anything cool happens.

    Danny
    http://melvinthejerk.8m.com
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    This is probably as close as i'll ever get to letting someone else post for this site right now.

    But once again, if you're a chick with no life who has good HTML skills with breasts the size of Australia and you want to post for this site, you can take a lesson from Danny here and do what he did. Write a post in e-mail and i'll post it up.

     Okay, that crimson font starting to hurt my eyes.

    Anyway, if you made it all the way down here, i guess you truly do have nothing else better to do.

    Go visit Cyber-Funk.

    Thursday, April 5, 2001

    Ooh ooh! - 9:40pm April 5 2001
    Prepare for what will be one of the longest posts ever. Coming soon. Keep checking back.

    Oh and by the way, i'm not really back. No really i'm not. This site really is dead. You're just seeing things right now. This isn't even a post that you're reading. It's just a wild figment of your imagination.

    You just suffering from FWS.

    FUBAR withdrawal syndrome.



    Still the same old shit - 5:00pm April 5 2001
    Well i guess i owe you all and explanation huh? As you may have probably noticed, i 'quit' the site (again) for about a week and a bit. Much to a number of people's     'dismay'. But i'm back. So rejoice.

    Okay, wanna hear the whole skinny on WHY the whole site was gone deleted killed for that period of 10 days or so? Well listen up chumps, because i'm only gonna write this once (Although you can read it over and over again if you want. Ah, the wonders of literature. Yes. Literature. My site is literature).

    Okay, i don't know if any of you even bothered to notice but i did post up an e-mail that i received from my host, Solo, on this site on the 23rd of March. Go take a look and have a read through it. So basically, he tells us hostees (me and some other schmoes) to back up our sites because he has to flush out all the files on our shared server to install some patch thing.

    I will be making a full back up right before the server goes off line. After the patches are installed, I will restore your data.

    Well yeah, that sounds great and all and while he did actually make a backup of my site, the backup got corrupted you see. Or so he said anyway. Which resulted in my site being... well... gone i guess. Every single file was gone. No archives, no images, no fubar, no nothing. All GONE.

    With the wind.

    Not that it mattered to me anyway since i do have a backup of all my HTML and about 65.749326% of all my crucial images, jpegs, gifs etc etc on my PC...well, my roommates PC actually, back at the dorm.

    But yeah, being that i only had 65.749326% of all my images backed up, the 34.250674% of the remaining images that existed only on the server... are now GONE.

    With the wind.

    So yeah, expect to run into about 34.250674% of broken images links throughout the site. The most affected areas would be the pr0n page, the half assed downloads page and any number of the archived pages that have on site image links (which will now come up as broken links of course).

    Broken links sucks.

    Meanwhile, i'll try to salvage as much of the lost images as possible. Oh and the mpeg movies that i used to have (e.g. Trish Stratus hosing herself down a.k.a Wet T-shirt Trish), well... they're all GONE. Sadly enough.

    I loved that mpeg.

    Anyway, that's basically one of the many reasons why the site was 'shut down'. In addition to the site being 100% flushed down the proverbial shitter, i also had like a motherfucking shitload of schoolwork that i had to contend with over the past 2 weeks or so. Fucking speeches, presentations, research papers, quizzes, primary researching, group presentation meetings etc etc bla bla...

    The site would've gone to shit if i'd just continued posting under all that stress.

    Well, my workload has been significantly lessened now what with a few of those assignments being over and done with so yeah, only now have i finally found the time to start resurrecting the site and updating again.

    I mean, look at it this way, i had an assload of schoolwork, my site got totally deleted and i didn't have a full 100% backup of it available.

    And the thought of saving over 16 megs of backed up HTML and images onto 16 or so floppy disks and bringing them over to the library all the way from the dorm (The library being one of the only places were they have internet connection here. No net conn at the dorm. Sucks) to have them uploaded to my server while having to think about all the other work that i had to do... just didn't appeal to me at the time.

    So i thought, hey, i'll just 'quit' the site.

    Again.

    For what must be the third time now. I think. I can't remember.

    And it pretty much worked really. I mean, sure, some of you thought it was a gimmick. But then some of you guys started actually started getting worried. Some of you were probably thinking, "Is he for real this time?!".

    Ah yes. I love fucking around with you people.

    I amuse myself to great lengths with my stunts.

    You gotta admit though, this one really did blur the lines huh? I don't think i can EVER top this one.

    I am the smartest man in the world.

    Anyway, to recap my story:

  • My site got deleted
  • I was too lazy to re-upload everything
  • Add to the fact that i had (and still do have) a shitload of work to do...
  • ...made me even more lazier to re-upload everything and post normally
  • So i decided to quit. Or rather 'quit'.
  • But now that i've finally found some free time in my busy schedule...
  • ...i've decided to stop slacking off site-wise...
  • ...and fix up my site as best as i can.
  • Keep in mind that i still do have quite a bit of schoolwork to do...
  • ...and finals to prepare for soon....
  • ...so expect lots of broken images links...
  • ...and half assed posts for the next two more weeks or so.
  • Not that my posts have never been half assed or anything.
  • They always have been. But hey, you probably already knew that.

    So yeah, hopefully that'll clear up and questions as to what the fuck happened to this site and everything else on it.

    Oh and thanks for all the e-mails by the way.

    Even though i know for a fact that half of them were written just so youze guys would get at least 15 seconds of fame because you knew i'd post them up.

    Goddamn moochers.

    March 26 - April 4, 2001

    Dead - March 26 - April 4 2001

    I QUIT THE SITE?

    What the fuck?