Things are completely over between me and her. I’m not even going to try anymore. She already has someone else next in line to take my place anyway.

In other news, i went insane today. I became the stereotypical jealous ex boyfriend. And i also managed to destroy every bit of a chance that i ever had in getting back together again with her. Ever.

I don’t think we’re even going to be friends anymore. I don’t think she’ll even continue loving me anymore. Not as a friend. Not even as an ex boyfriend.

So, it seems like we’re both going to move on and lead our lives separately.

Unless a miracle happens, i don’t think we’re going to ever talk to each other again.

I never thought i would become this way. But the worst seems to be over now.

Do i still love her? Yes. I do.

Does it matter to her anymore? Right now. No. Maybe not even later. Maybe not ever.