*faint*

OMG OMG OMG OMG

THE SPIDER-MAN TRAILER IS OUT

Spider-Man!! Directed by Sam Raimi! A cameo by Bruce Campbell! Starring, amongst others, KIRSTEN DUNST! AS A REDHEAD!

There is absolutely NO doubt in my mind that this movie will be GREAT.

GREAT I TELL YOU. GREAT.

I have to go watch that trailer again now. Again and again and again and agai……

Woah

I went out tonight.

Met up with John and Oliver at some pool hall/cybercafe/coffee place/bar place. John calls me up. Tells me to meet up with them over at that place. So i get ready and everything, make my way over there and climb up these flights of stairs. Then from out of fucking nowhere i hear this girl go “Oh my god”. I look up and i see about three girls standing at the top of the stairs in front of me. I look again and guess what. It’s Sophie. My ex.

Woah was that ever an unexpected meeting or what? Because as far as i know, she’s never actually been down here to KB (the town where i live). In fact, she was actually supposed to come down here for her first time back in August (when we were still together). Anyway, there she was. Here in KB. For the first time.

I never thought i’d see her again. Last i heard from her she said she’d be in Australia this time of year. For Christmas holidays or something. And now she’s here. In my hometown. Apparently staying over at her friend’s place for a coupla nights.

Anyway, i like… talked to her for a coupla seconds. Didn’t know what to say really. Asked her if she’d seen Oliver and John and she said they were upstairs. So i quickly said “Yeah, i’ll catch ya later or something…” and made my way up to look for the guys.

That was fucking weird seeing her tonight. Or last night i should say. Since it’s past 12am and it’s already ‘tomorrow’.

But yeah, John and Oliver were even more shocked than i was. John was like, “What the fuck is she doing here?? And shit! I told Justin to come here!” or something to that extent.

What was even weirder was the fact that Oliver was there too. You see… she used to go out with Oliver too. And i used to go out with her. We’re both her ex’s.

John had a good laugh at our expense. That Scottish bastard. Basically laughing at how the fact that her two ex boyfriend’s bumped into her at the same time in the same place. I didn’t really talk that much to Sophie. Oliver didn’t really talk to her at all. John did though. Even managed to ‘mention’ the name Axel into their conversation. Heheh. What a bastard.

Who’s Axel? Oh nobody really. Just the guy that she cheated on me with.

(Read up on the months of April 2001 and August 2001 for more background info on Sophie. FUN STUFF. Especially on how we broke up)

But hey, Ol and i are both totally over her so yeah. NO BIGGIE.

ANYWAY. Yeah, i met up with John and Oliver. Saw Sophie. Which was weird. Caught up on the latest ‘news’ in Brunei. John, Ol and i walked back to my place. Chilled out. They went home after a while. And here i am, getting off my lazy ass to finally post something blog worthy.

I always seem to go into ‘blog mode’ whenever i’m at home. More so than i would when i’m at college. You’d think that i’d have more of a life at college than i would at home. But hey, life can be weird like that.

Apparently Sophie’s NOT going to Australia like she said she would earlier this year. Changed her mind. Said she had stuff to do here. I hear she’s got some modelling jobs and she’s doing some shows for members of the royal family or something. Well, that’s what John and i concluded anyway. She’s probably getting paid a lot. Probably modelling lingerie. More power to her i guess.

I don’t really know what i’ll be doing tomorrow. Probably gonna head into town and check out DVD’s or something. Maybe meet up with Oliver. Or maybe i’ll just stay in at home and update my site. Oh which reminds me, i should take off any references to me ‘currently staying in Malaysia’ off my site. In my bio at least. Since i don’t actually live there anymore.

For the sake of accuracy.

I should do it now before i get lazy again.

Lazy fucker

Since i’ve become a bit of a lazy fucker (not posting as much and all… people have been complaining about that… can you believe it ??), i thought i’d just post some filler for the time being before i finally get off my lazy fucker ass and get back into my – updating every few hours or so – groove.

There’s a pile of unreplied e-mail collecting in my inbox as of late. I’ll probably attend to each one sooner or later but for now, i thought i’d just post this one e-mail up for you to read (or bypass to get to the porn) because well, it’s a GOOD intelligent e-mail (the kind i like). And… it also has something to do with this fucker.

Remember him? OF COURSE YOU DO. If you don’t then you should read up on the posts starting from December 3rd. FUN STUFF.

Anyway, here’s the e-mail. It’s a response to that fucker’s piece of shit ‘article‘ and his webshite. Amongst other things.

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To: jhsu@hmc.edu
Subject: Your Hypocritical Website
From: “John Helling” john2882@hotmail.com
Date: Fri, Dec 14 2001 6:35:31 AM
Jonathan Hsu,

I recently had the (dis)pleasure of running into your website. At first it seemed like your site might contain some insightful social/political commentary, but after a few minutes I realized that this wasn’t so.

Two of your “editorials” especially irked me. The first was your piece on webcam sites. In this you state that: these sites “endlessly peddle their owners(‘) respective ‘viewpoints’.” What exactly is it that your site does again? By the way, I also took the liberty of inserting an apostrophe in your quote to demonstrate ownership, which you neglected to do. I wouldn’t normally be so anal and picky except for that you (in this same editorial) faulted someone who emailed you because they had grammatical mistakes. I’d just like to inform you that you’re not perfect.

May I also remind you that many of the owners of these “webcam” sites are still in high school. You, as you state on your front page, are graduated from college. This might go some way toward explaining why it is that the owners of these sites cannot place Bangledesh on a map or explain complex
international disputes. It’s typically in college that peoples’ worldviews tend to expand.

My second complaint (I should say, the second and last complaint that I’m going to voice…I could go on all day as to why I disagree with your various viewpoints) is with your Midwest “editorial.” Yes, it’s true that I myself am from the Midwest, born in Kansas and raised in Indiana. And it really wouldn’t bother me if you thought poorly of the Midwest after having lived in/experienced it, but you base your opinion on two rather sketchy encounters. The first is your McDonald’s encounter. Everyone stared at
you? So what? As if you’ve never given someone a look without harboring racially discriminatory thoughts toward them? You’re just assuming that those people were prejudiced towards you, which is ridiculous for reasons that I don’t think I have to explain.

The second story has to do with a wheelchair-bound Alzheimer’s patient. Yes, she called you a “China Boy,” which isn’t a particularly flattering term, but I’m not sure that it demonstrates that “such attitudes still existed.” The quasi-senile ramblings of an old lady hardly speak for the general consensus of an entire geographical region, ie the Midwest.

Now don’t get me wrong. I’m not writing to you because I disagree verbatim with everything you have to say (although I more or less do). I have no problem accepting the fact that other people have views different from my own, as long as they can justify them and aren’t just ranting and raving
(like you are). But when people (such as yourself) go around thinking that their word is the last on any given subject, I feel some kind of need to write, if for no other reason that to give myself some kind of feeling of satisfaction for not having wasted my time on earth. I fully expect for you to have stopped reading by now, and fully do NOT expect a reply, even though I would be happy to have one. In conclusion, I think you could do with a little more respect towards other people, just enough to accept that their views can be just as valid as yours.

Hope you enjoyed this letter,
John H
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Isn’t that just a GREAT e-mail?

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To: psykotik@gmail.com
Subject: That dumb webcam fucker
From: “John Helling” john2882@hotmail.com
Date: Fri, Dec 14 2001 6:40:20 AM

Justin,

I read your response as well as the response of that other guy you have posted on your front page and thought they were both on point, but guys like that need to be talked to in their own language. That’s why I emailed him and bcced you. Just thought you’d like to know where that came from. I’d
be flattered if you posted me on your site (which I visit for reasons OTHER than porn, if that gives you a feeling of satisfaction), and also grateful because that took me a pretty long time to write. Adios.

John H
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Haha. Thanks man. Appreciate the effort you took to write that e-mail. In return, i will try not to be a lazy fucker and update the site more. With some hopefully good content. And porn. Or something.

Sooner or later.

But for now, i shall continue being a lazy fucker; watching DVD’s, downloading shit for my PowerBook G4 (IT IS PIMPED OUT), playing Return To Castle Wolfenstein (AWESOME GAME) and not updating the site as much.

But expect a long-ish update about my last night in Malaysia soon. When i finally get off my ass to write it up.

crazy/beautiful

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To: psykotik@gmail.com
Subject: Kirsten Info
From: “Baby Girl” Add to Contacts
Date: Tue, Dec 11 2001 11:34:50 AM -0600

Hi

First of all I’m truly sorry for the temporary comatose state of your site (to say it is dead would mean that its never coming back, a possibility I cannot bear to contemplate)

Second of all, you talk a lot about Kirsten Dunst in your site, and how you hope she appears in an R rated movie. Well, the thing is ‘crazy/beautiful’ was gonna be her first R rated film but she changed her mind last minute. There’s supposed to be this very hot and heavy kitchen scene or something (I dunno, I havenÃŒt seen the movie) and in the original scene there was Kirsten nudity (her breasts were supposed to do a cameo) But when Kirsten watched the scene along with her mom she realized it was way too embarrassing for her so they edited that part.

The complete scene was rumored to come out on the DVD though.
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Well, the site’s back up so NO NEED TO WORRY ANYMORE. =D

Ah yes. Kirsten Dunst. crazy/beautiful. Yeah, someone once e-mailed me telling me that this was supposed to be an R rated flick. But they had to trim it down to a PG 13. Probably because of the reason that you just said. I’ve actually been contemplating getting the DVD. There’ve been numerous times where i’d held the DVD in my hands checking out the cover 300 hundred times over thinking “IS IT WORTH IT? IS IT WORTH IT?”

It’s not exactly packed with extras or anything (not like Bring It On… God i love that DVD…) so it was kind of a tough sell for me. I read up on those deleted scenes that you’ve mentioned though. They are ‘Confrontation at the Pier,’ ‘Nicole Gets Lost,’ ‘Football Scuffle,’ ‘Future Plans,’ and ‘Carlos Changes His Mind.’

Unfortunately, there are no ‘Nicole Loses Her Top’ or ‘Nicole and Maddy Experiment In Shower,’ which would have at least saved the movie.

It’s not exactly a bad movie… i actually enjoyed it (it helps that Kirsten Dunst NEVER wears a bra throughout…) but it could’ve been better (BY BEING RATED R FOR ONE). The movie wants so much to break free of the ÃŽteen genre;ÃŒ it tried so valiantly to avoid Get Over It, Bring It On, SheÃŒs All That territory, and for the most part, it does. The story attempts to be dark, to be different, to have a little brains as opposed to all bounce.

ItÌs in that third act that the entire first hour of the movie, so ripe with potential for originality, is completely abandoned, and the Îmarket safetyÌ makes it painfully obvious what studio is backing the film.

I donÃŒt think Disney/Buena Vista really knew what market they were trying to reach with this movie, and in the long run, i think that hurt the film and the box office. The PG 13 rating suggests they thought this movie would sell to the teen market, but itÃŒs clear that just because the stars are teens doesnÃŒt make it a teen movie. This movie could’ve been better if it were produced by a more risky, edgy studio. The subject matter lends itself to an R-rating. As it stands, because of Disney, the movie is lackluster at best.

Unless you have an unhealthy obsession with DunstÃŒs constantly displayed belly (and trust me, nothing else), check out the movie. It’s not that good, but it’s not that bad either.

Ah

That’s better. Now we’re on my time.

Of course, i’ll have to set everything back again for when i get to Michigan and run on Michigan time but hey, that won’t be happening till like the 29th of December.

Anyway. The site’s back up. My exams are OVER (THANK GOD) and this is my last day in Malaysia. Because i’ll be leaving back for Brunei the next morning.

But first…

HOW INSANELY HARD WAS THAT SOC 334 PAPER?? Oh my god. That paper was fucking ridiculous! HARD doesn’t even begin to describe what it was. Fuck. I’d be lucky enough if i can scrape by with a C. I don’t think i’ll do too good in this class. Film was pretty alright though. 20 MCQ’s and a 300 word essay. I chose to write about the thematic issues of Akira Kurosawa’s Seven Samurai. There were also two other questions to choose from. One of them had to do with descibing Run Lola Run’s misc en scenes and misc en shots. And the other was to just basically write a review of that Gwyneth paltrow movie, Sliding Doors. I probably would’ve done the Sliding Doors one… if i could’ve remembered all the character’s names. But hell, i didn’t even know the character’s names for Seven Samurai either. Well except for Kikuchiro (which i think i spelt his name wrong) so it wouldn’t have really mattered which one i chose. I’m probably gonna get penalized or something for not ever mentioning the names of the other six samurai. Bleh.

And that Run Lola Run question. That one just blew like wind over my head. I had no idea how to answer that one.

BUT YES. WHO CARES ABOUT MY EXAMS.

Moving on.

Well. For those of you who actually followed the site during it’s downtime, you would’ve probably noticed the pop up window that… popped up… when the site loaded. Well since the posts on there weren’t exactly logged by GreyMatter or anything (Oldskool notepad and FTP baby, just like back in the day…), the only way you’ll be able to read them is by clicking on this here link down there.

CLICK HERE FOR THE POSTS OF THE (past coupla) DAYS OF YORE (or something).

What else what else?

Oh yes. And now since the site is back up, i can FINALLY get to post all the e-mails that’ve been piling up in my damn inbox for the past coupla days.

But that’ll have to wait. Because i intend on spending my last day in Malaysia actually doing something rather than just stay online all night and replying to my mail on the site. Infact, i’ve already made plans. I’m actually meeting up with Susan again tonight. Well, that’s the plan anyway. But yeah, this is probably gonna be the last time i’ll see her for the next coupla years. So i’m gonna make this last meeting worthwhile.

One thing i wish i’d done more of was to meet up with Pearly and Steph a little bit more. And perhaps gotten to know them personally a little bit more too. I don’t know why i never suggested the fact that we meet up earlier, like… months earlier (as opposed to just a week before i’m scheduled to leave the country) but hey, you learn from your mistakes i guess. Would’ve been nice to have met up with Jamie too but ah well. Guess that’s not happening anytime soon.

Anyway, since i’m pretty much free to do whatever i want now, i’m PROBABLY gonna revamp the site a little bit over the next few weeks (IF I HAVE TIME. With the holiday season coming and all, i might be too preoccupied with other stuff etc etc). I’m gonna have to change some of the info that’s on my ‘about the webmaster’ thing since i won’t be ‘currently living in Malaysia’ anymore. I’m probably gonna update that faq section of mine too. I’m gonna revise my links list and throw out the ones that are dead and the ones that i just don’t feel like linking to anymore.

What else what else?

Layout change? Pfft. Who do you think i am? Suzi? I only change layouts like twice a year.

I MIGHT change the Angelina Jolie pics though. That is, IF i can find any other good ones to replace her that actually works with the layout (The Christy Chung ones that i had up for a grand total of five minutes about a month ago just TOTALLY did not work).

But yes. Enough mindless rambling.

I shall bore you with death some other time. Maybe tonight. Maybe tomorrow. But in the meantime, SEND ME SOME INTELLIGENT (and ego bootsting) E-MAIL. And some fansigns would be nice too.

OOH. Fuzzy Steph got herself a FUZZY NEW LAYOUT. Clickety click!

KTHNXBI!

Everything in It’s Right Place

well i should say a few things first, um, i guess to Justin really. but hey, maybe youÃŒre interested. most likely not, i understand, but hey, whatever floats your boat.

yeah. anyway, i was going to say. in the process of fixing Greymatter i came to the following conclusions: nothing needs a reason, and something is definitely not right. what i mean is, i don’t believe Greymatter’s crash was Justin’s fault at all. actually i believe there might be some kind of higher power to this crash somewhere along the lines of the server. i can’t really figure it all out, but who the hell cares, it works now. and i’ve backed up and mirrored the site on my own server and will do so every month (give or take) so if the shit hits the fan. well, at least it won’t be sooo bad.

so be happy and rejoice and stuff because everything seems to be working, for the time.

one last note: i still haven’t fixed the archives, because i’m a lazy asshole and pffft, i’m just not in the mood to anyway.

oh yeah another last note: i upgraded to Greymatter 1.21c while i was fixing the site too. so if you notice any little differences it’s me testing something new for my own site. that is if i ever get off my lazy ass and see what’s new in this release.